1 month on a special date

Alhamdulillah UFZ turns 1month today. This means the paid leave is down to 30 days to its end. Part of me, I cant wait to get back to work and start thinking, arguing, analysing and justifying again. Its basically a headache and somehow I am missing it. Gosh, I am not sick do I? ;p

Funny, it has only been 20 months since my last confinement. But it feels like my first. How on earth could I forget how it is like. The weak body, the sleepless nights and the changing baby schedule. Oh my. All I remember is how refreshing the bertungku, urut and mandi air daun were. Ingat pantang ni macam spa ke?

True, every kid is different. Same applies to RAZ and UFZ. UFZ consumes much much more than RAZ. He can still take 3oz of formula after 3oz of EBM and an hour of breastfeeding. Yes, I have loss the battle from day 1. Enfalac has been helping me to cope with UFZ's needs. As long as you grow healthy young boy, bring it on.

The first month has been a sleepless nights galore for me. One day, Umar would wake up at 12am and only went off to sleep at 6am. And on another day, he woke up at 2am and went back to sleep at 6am. But last night, he didnt wake up at all. I guess he knew that I need a break.

During this confinement, I am a bit weak spiritually. I didnt have enough rest that I became stress especially after all the efforts made, Umar still cries. Heartbreaking. It is not easy to juggle between RAZ, UFZ and some of the house chores. But this is what I should expect from today and onwards. So wake up and adapt, Jaja!

Today, I felt terrible for letting the stress took me down. The article below says them all...

BESARNYA PAHALA SEORANG IBU... :')
1. Dua rakaat solat wanita yang hamil lebih... baik dari 80 rakaat solat wanita yang tidak hamil.

2. Wanita yang hamil dapat pahala puasa disiang hari & pahala ibadat di malam hari.

3. Wanita yang bersalin dapat pahala 70 thn solat & puasa serta setiap kesakitan pada satu uratnya, Allah bagi satu pahala haji.

4. Sekiranya wanita meninggal dunia dalam masa 40 hari selepas bersalin ia dikira sebagai mati syahid. …

5. Wanita yang beri minum susu badannya kepad anaknya akan dapat 1 pahala daripada tiap titik susu yang diberikannya.

6. Wanita yang beri minum susu badannya kepada anaknya yang menangis maka Allah beri pahala satu tahun pahala solat & puasa.

7. Kalau wanita menyusui anaknya hingga cukup tempoh 2 setengah tahun, maka malaikat dilangit khabarkan berita bahawa syurga wajib baginya.

8. Seorang ibu yang menghabiskan masa malamnya dengan tidur yang tidak selesa kerana menjaga anaknya yang sakit dapat pahala seperti membebaskan 20 orang hamba.

9. Wanita yang tidak cukup tidur pada malam hari kerana menjaga anaknya yang sakit akan di ampunkan oleh Allah akan seluruh dosanya & bila dia hiburkan hati anaknya Allah beri 12 tahun pahala ibadat.

Subhanallah, besar ganjarannya. 

After reading this, I text the husband, "Habis pahala Ja sebab stress, tak sabar and tak bersyukur :( " Come to think about it, I am human too and no matter how optimist and motivated I am, there are times that I am the otherwise. Bottom-line, I must bounce back and quickly realize that such feelings should not prolonged.

I hope I can improve after this. Insyaallah. Mind over the tired body and mixed emotion.

1 month old UFZ

Happy 1 month, Umar Faruqi :)

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