Love Quotes

Love does not consist in gazing at each other but in looking together in the same direction. --Antoine de Saint-Exupéry (1900 - 1944), French writer and aviator. From Wind, Sand and Stars.


Love is like quicksilver in the hand. Leave the fingers open and it stays. Clutch it, and it darts away. -- Dorothy Parker (1893 - 1967), U.S. writer and wit.

The trick is to love somebody ... If you love one person, you see everybody else differently. -- James Baldwin (1924 - 1987), U.S. writer and civil-rights activist.


To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead. --Bertrand Russell (1872 - 1970), British philosopher and mathematician. From Marriage and Morals.


I like the third one..true true =) *credit to Kak Ida UIA

~ he is my dad

He is my dad,
5’10, bad tempered, out spoken, fat!
Funny, understanding, friendly, open minded - YET,
He can be as tame as a cat,
But most of the time, he is just one hell of a spoiled brat!

He is my dad,
And right now, he is really really sad,
Gloomy, tense, depress…all fit you bad,
Come on dad, let those feelings slip through the net,
You know I hate to see you like that,
Hang in there, life will be better…I bet!

He is my dad,
To the almighty I shall beg,
Please Lord, I need my best friend back,
Seeing him sad makes me fret,
Trust not my laughter coz it is just an act,
The truth dad, we are in the same track,
No matter how hard you try to hide, I see the crystal fact!
How I wish I could make things correct,
So that you are free from this serious attack,
And be yourself again, make a pleasant come back.

He is my dad,
His good and bad sides make him a perfect pack,
Nothing could ever replace him not even a million dollar cheque,
Coz he is mine, mine…as simple as that!

Dad if you could hear what I would like to say,
I wish you will be here, long to stay,
I need you more and more each day,
To guide me along the way,
And lead our happy family, hip hip HOOREY!

He is my dad,
Though the sky does not always shine-up bright,
21 years of life has never been a regret!
I am thankful and I will never forget,
That I will always have my best friend, and he is my dad…

i came up with this poetry last night, slipped it into baba's wallet...and here's what i get,

deep down in side ba, i know i have been the best friend you ever had!

[uikss sume rhyme tu...;p]

"TQ 4 the encouraging words. Do not worry. i may be down but not out yet."

-ba nye sms

care for a quiz?

give it a try peeps [tiru shah sket!]

you're chandler...when you're around there's never
a quiet moment and no one is safe from your
sarcasm. [am i?? hmm...]


which Friends character are you?
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sistahood

miss u gurlz...especially yg tu..bukan yg tu..haa yg tu la! ;p

tsuMAWI???

akademi fantasia hits back!!this 3rd season witnesses new talents with better singing skills and capabilities..but somehow i do not bother much about AF..why? well the sincerity is doubtful..lack of team spirit, co-operation blablabla..so the ‘value-added’ that I am interested in at the first place is no longer there..haih~ F.A.K.E..i do not admire anyone as much I admired Zahid last time..no no..just enjoy the singing =)

What is it with this guy??

"siapa bilang gadis melayu tak menawan..

tak menarik hati tiada memikat..."

jum nyanyi!! haha

.: ~A Weekend to Remember~ :.

Had a great time last weekend [yesterday to be specific ;p] !! earlier, I was in a dilemma; to play bowling with fellow trainees or to be with my dearie..gosh,it was a tough decision to make! I do want to spend time with ‘him’ [die milik negare..ssh nak jumpe woo..asek masuk utan je ;p]..but I’ve agreed to join the tournament earlier…Eila [friend from UTM] really going to be disappointed if I were to cancel my participation…arghhhh!!! Bedebak..malam sabtu tu..dua-dua majuk ngan ja…adeila~ since zul cam xnak jumpe.. I’ve decided to proceed with the bowling plan..yeahh!! [sedih gak sbnrnye..]

Blablabla…on Sunday morning,as early as 3am I received an sms from zul..yey!his holiday pass started at 8am..woke up early that morning..got one hell of ‘travelling’ in mind..found my way to sg besi, fetched zul back to sepang..spent 2 3 hours there and ‘remmmed’ back to ampang point for the bowling tournament! Gile rempit la ja time tu.. ;p so, double mission accomplished! The excitement did not stop there…the game was pretty good..considering my last game was back in Augest last year ;p .. I bowled with one thing in mind.. –to have fun- ..and I did =) even more when I was announced as the top scorer for the female category ;p another TI t-shirt added to my collection..nice~ 3games with lots of fun which cost me only rm10..strawberry nice~

Went home quite late lastnight..on my way home, singgah UIA anto kawan..haih~ my car booth was loaded with local fruits; durian, rambutan, dokong + daun pandan[kunun tak nak kasi bau] wakaka..demn gile kuat bau durian kete!! Anyway, I enjoyed my weekend…pasni meh siram perfume kat kete ;p

.: ~Thought of the day~ :.

7months had passed..4weeks remain in count..suddenly, this question came into my mind.. –What have I gained tru out these period??- put it into simple word, the answer would be A LOT!! I’m practically immune to the culture being practiced around me..in fact, I have imposed a culture of my own..as if this company belongs to me ;p if there’s anything such as performance chart, I’ll mark this week as the worst..kids,don’t try this at home..haha well to some people,it might not be a big deal..but ethically, it cant be other than WRONG =D

The demn meaningful gift that happened during my staying here was the time when new trainees [in big numbers] came in somewhere in March..there were once 22 of us! The amazing part was how simple everyone agreed on friendship..we had breakfast and lunch together,all 22 of us..discussed work issues, gossips, shared problems and now, with lesser load [ramai dah kua] we’ve become partners in crime! Hehe ponteng or curik2 keluar has been our favourite pastime lately..considering the tight security control, badge-tag system and all..this is definitely define the word gamble! Wearing a special badge for trainee, we can simply being traced and known by others..if we ever get caught, masak beb!! ;p

Work has never been less stressing…lastweek, I’ve accomplished another JSP task..it took me 2weeks..yey, I did it! But demn, the deadline should be within 2days!.. ;p “2 days dateline means that the program should be simple” that was how my SV responded to my delayed program completion…yeah rite,its simple when u actually finish it! I had a lot of constraints..but I rather kept it too myself..revealing each will only worsen the gap between us which already been ‘great’..at that moment, the only thing that resided in my mind was how my future in IT will be…will I ever survived? My SV has been my loyal heartbreaker all this while..but I took his words positively..in a way he's trying to exposed me on the real work environment..people don’t juz say nice things..people don’t always care how others feel..in fact, few days after that,he called me into his room and actually pujuk me by explaining why this and that..swit kan?maybe he noticed my anger face that followed his harsh words…haha ganas x?selambe je wat muke..after that incident [and the earliers too] I concluded that no matter what, I must get to the manager spot someday..so I can treat people better.. =) juz like how baba used to be..haih his my idol!
Training in TI taught me almost everything I need to know about W.O.R.K..still, there is more to expect..backstabber, sweet talker, 2 faces..to name a few..TI has made me become more independent, totally stand alone[work wise la kan] and makin keras hati.. I’m immune to my surrounding more and more..guess I would like to work here someday..and replace my sv’s position..take over his room..nice view! =)

At the beginning of the remaining one month, I noticed a big change in me, technically… I am able to adapt myself to the thing that I hated the most…this whole training gave me a new perspective on programming stuff..yup yup the only way to discover the limit of possible is to beyond them into impossible…whoever came up with such meaningful thought must be demn successful..impressive!

.: ~ BIRTHDAY ~ :.

HAPPY Birthday to me...hehe..semalam..
nothing extraordinary...everything was like any other day...
thanks to those who remembered..really appreaciate it guys..muah!!
well i'm 21 now..feels like the world is mine!!! hehe leh kawen ni ;p
overall, life has been great..i've been a very gud daughter,girlfriend,friend and PERSON..
atleast i believed so.. ;p
count those in, i just couldnt ask for more..erkk but more money is always welcome..
hehe pockect kering ni oii~

birthday without friends to celebrate with equals to E.M.P.T.Y
with friends, everyday is your birthday...the feeling is very much the same..
happy, exciting, memorable... =)
well to make it more 'memorable' lets celebrate our grand birthday clbr8tn
[combination of noran's, pina's and jaja's] at Cameron ke...
mau tak wengurl???? [haha ja baka~] kidding!!

.: ~work sucks!!!!~ :.

BUSY...BUSY...BUSY...

.: ~CONTENDER updates~ :.

We’ve come to the third round of the contender..with 4 contenders left, the next two fights will be much more interesting!! Yey!

Last Monday was the beginning of the Contender’s ‘semifinal’..this week, we got to witness the rematch between Alfonso and Peter..rematch? if u remember, Alfonso and Peter had fought before..it was the first match, 13 weeks back, the match that introduced the show to the world..and the one that successfully grabbed my attention and gathered my interest to consistently follow the show everyweek..that time, Alfonso was representing the West team while Peter was in the East team..Peter was the one with fantastic record, 21-0..while Alfonso, was the underdog..he was the smallest among the other 15 gentlemen..Peter on the other hand, was in good package..good record, perfect body size. .Alfonso’s victory against Peter was a big surprised..who would expect Peter to loose?He was in a great shape!Alfonso proved that he was no joke.. Brilliant underdog I must say ;p

The loss to the underdog was a nightmare to Peter..his confident seemed to be less and less for every tear he cried..poor Peter..he was lucky that he was brought back into the competition due to Jeff’s health issue..to the fact that he made it into the final 4, Peter sure had made the most of his second chance..[go Peter!]..and last Monday, Peter had a better chance to make up his loss as his wish to have a rematch with Alfonso was granted!

Like any other rounds before, the third round offers no-less excitement..but instead of the usual 5-round, it has increased to 7..nice!the rematch between Alfonso and Peter was intriguing..i wont describe in detail here as I liked both them very much..for the first time, I could not make up my mind on who’s to choose ;( both have their own charm..

The fight was balance with each contender countered their opponent’s attack, one after another..Peter fought hard..so did Alfonso..but most of the solid punches were made by Peter..at round-6, it was obvious that Peter would have win..to see the badly swollen face of Alfonso, with all the bruises, was terrifying..but that is the nature of boxing..although Alfonso loss, he should be proud to make it to the final 4..and to me, he is a true fighter..a brilliant underdog..

Well Peter made it to the final..who will be the opponent? Jeng3..all I can say is, it depends on Sergio and Jesse..who I favor? Hehe another tough question..Sergio is splendid in keeping himself away from opponent’s attack..while Jesse, he really can stand punches!!hoh gile tough Jesse ni..keep in mind that he defeated Tony by knockout last time..will he do that again next week.. Tune in AXN, Monday, 9pm ;p

.: ~Friday already??~ :.

HAHAHA todays Friday~ what makes this Friday better from others is that my sv is on leave..hehe since yesterday…know what it mean? P.E.A.C.E ;p yesterday I was demn malas nak wat keje..ayo can u believe it?i just sit infront of my pc staring at the monitor ..doing nothing..how inefficient and ineffective I was..ish3

I slept at 8 last nite..klaka kan?did nothing at the office yet I felt super tired..hehe cane nak masuk amazing race ni??? ;p talking about amazing race..well the season 7 was over.. well done to Uchenna and Joyce..although I favor Rob and Amber [too bad they didn’t win =( ] Uchenna and Joyce’s victory is acceptable..they spirit was as amazing as the race itself..impressive!! they started the final race [after the non-elimination round earlier] with no money in hand..thus,they went to the airport and begged for money..that was the most touching part..due to this,they were once 7hours behind the other two teams..they journey was full with challenges!!one after another..as if there was no luck agrees with them..at one point, they were short of cash to pay for the cab on their way to the final point..the point that awaits the winner…hampeh nye Jamaican!!gile berkire.. ‘Klu baba tu,ba xkesah pon..’ baba responded [ba ni cam hati lembut sket ;p] luckily there were people who were kind enough to help them..so Uchenna and Joyce made it first! One million dollars to spend…super nice!

As for Rob and Amber, they are definitely a good couple..i admire them for that..moreover, they are also a good team!congratulasi…Rob is a kind that I would like to call insan yg baloi wat laki ;p he got brain and knows how to handle situations…Ron on the other hand, is a typical soldier type..[soldier kan?] gile jahat, self-centered!! Cam leh ignore je Kelly..my advice, go and get a new guy girl!! ;p

Ok2..off to café now..its breakfast time~

.: ~Contender-minded!~ :.

Life has been stressful lately…last Monday, I was assigned to a new task..until today, the completion of the task is still out of reach…haih~ leks je..i’ll get it done..just need a short break!

Thought of uploading a new post yesterday..but due to this busy-ness , work comes first and the rest is put on hold..the only great thing that happened so far was non-other than my dear CONTENDER ;) ..it was the last fight that will decide the forth person that qualify to join Alfonso, Sergio and Peter in the next round..the final 4! Will it be Jesse or Tony? To tell the truth, I favor Jesse…why?i hate Tony since he made the decision to fight Brent..such a back stabber!! They all agreed on Jiimy earlier..Tony lied and that was so not cool…my vote goes to Jesse!Atleast he kept his words…

I was 30minutes late for the show..luckily the fight didn’t start yet..it is such a lost to miss the fight between the Entertainer [Jesse] and the Determined Father [Tony]…blablabla..the fight began..Tony was totally into the fight…he punched and punched as if there is no tomorrow..haha and Jesse was caught between the punches..he didn’t seem to be able to return Tony’s continuous attack..obviously, the attack was a big advantage for Tony…the attack went on and on..with Tony throwing punches and Jesse keeping himself away from Tony, trying to play safe..the first 3round was a mess! Although most of the time was fulfilled by Tony’s attacks..the fight seemed unorganized as if these contenders had no plan on what they would do…cam bute2 je tumbuk tubi2..haih~ up until the end of the 3rd round, I predicted that Tony will win…but the 4th round was the peak of the fight. This round witnessed Jesse started to respond to Tony’s attack…all these while he has been ‘surviving’ from Tony’s dreadful-but-manageable punches..i solute him for that!he wasn’t affected by those punches..COOL..still standing..Jesse proved his better only with 2 punches..the first one was so hard that brought Tony down..knock down peeps!! Isn’t that cool or what? That was the second knockout I’ve seen throughout the show [after Brent-taken down by Tony] the second punch was the ticket for Jesse to reserve a place in the next round…the judges stopped the fight [during the 4th round] and the winner was of course Jesse..he really needed that knockout to get into the final 4..and I’m glad that he made it!!

The next round will be tougher..Alfonso, Sergio, Peter and Jesse…all of them has their own value that I favor…who will be the CONTENDER at the end..i can not answer that..lets just wait and see…till next week..

Off to work now…

.: ~Mum & Dad~ :.

“Sorry I blew up yesterday. I love u so much and expect a lot from u…”

That was the sms that baba sent to me last nite..we had a fight on our way back from work about 2days ago..since then, I haven’t talk nor look at his face coz I was really I mean really really upset..yes, i’m tough and pretty much care less on what people have to say bout me..but when it comes to the love ones, I’m demn sensitive..period! harsh words, high tones are not acceptable..hehe guess I’m kinda manja..especially with the 2 men of my life~

The sms was touching…and I didn’t expect ba would put down his ego like that..impressive! Without even replying [men tarik tali tu..haha], I continued my tdo2 ayam…then, ma came into the room..and asked me to see baba and apologize.. ma should have known that I wouldn’t do that!..this daughter of her is demn stubborn [cam durhake je kan?ish3] “Malasla ma,ja nak tdo”I replied with my eyes closed, pretending as if I was sleeping…instead of leaving me alone, she went on jomla2 again and again..haish..few moments after that, shockingly, baba came in..and repeated his sorry on and on..but I remained silent, tried to stay in control, in the same position, still with eyes-closed..i didn’t want to burst my tears out in front of them..that moment made me realized how it felt like to be loved again..its not that they hate me or what but since this internship, we always caught in fight…a lot!i thought baba hated me so much..but as I said..somehow I don’t care..coz I’m easily immune to things around me..all it takes is for it to happen once! Gile keras hati…of course, depends on the situation..kinda flexible..i don’t simply act as such..

Parent..they can be very nice yet they can be very cruel at times…but they have reasons for that..sometimes, its difficult to understand why…until we become a parent oneday…one thing for sure, no parent would want to see his/her child undergo hard times in life..they just want the best for us..and I’m thankful that I have such a wonderful parents..and I know I’ve been a good daughter too.. ;p

.: ~You..who spoil my day~ :.

To that stupid asshole that spread shit about UTP..u’re not being grateful..such an ignorant for not realizing the nature of such in all uni..how on earth did u get into UTP??? The interviewer has done a terrible inconsiderable mistake! This person should be expelled and thrown elsewhere…BANGANG!!..short-minded don’t belong here…my advice..open ur mind kiddo..think the way u’re suppose to be, intellectual..not some kind of fool..look around..dont close ur mind…see other unis for urself..and u’ll be glad that u’re UTPian..but if u too dump to realize all this..go and get urself killed[like the Iranian earlier]!!!u’re so worthy to yell at..stupid J SAD!!

.: ~Contender...we've gone mad!!!~ :.

Gud day peeps!yup yup after a long break..hehe been in the elevator where a conversation between 2mexican guys and a Chinese lady took place.. it was a really gud one to begin the day with! “So u work for finance…under Lam is it?”, a specky new Mexican guy in house said. “Yes, under Lam…” answered the lady. “Lam without a B..” Huh!!!Nice~ haha..the two guys did not respond to the Lamb joke. So do I..the lady must surely regretted to bring out the joke at the first place..shame shame~

Last nite, as usual was a Contender nite..the evening was blessed with the cooling heavy rain..[gosh it is hot lately kan?] Unfortunately the gift was a disaster as it interrupted the satellite service provided by astro..as the result, certain channels were not available tru out the nite..including AXN – channel 17…waaaaa!!!! Org nak tgk Contender la…sob sob…haha but it was not the end..thanks to Baba, we discovered another alternative to watch the show..hehe channel 9!! Those with astro at home surely know what this channel is all about [kalau xtau bunuh diri la..] haha..for those who don’t, start ur imagination mode.. ;p and the experience begins..

Channel 9 is like a directory of all channel in astro..its like the main screen with more than one channel going on at a time..channel 9 is a perfect substitute to 20 tvs…instead of viewing 1, u can enjoy 20 at once..hehe..cool huh?since AXN seemed to be ok at channel 9, we took the chance..although the screen was demn little…be it!!thank god the tv was 29inch..if not, I’ll be destroying my eye sight by now..

So last nite’s fight was between Joey and Peter..Peter won..Joey must have been regretted giving Peter the $40k car he that supposed to win during the previous challenge to Peter..ish3..the second round is down to one fight..will Jesse join Sergio, Alfonso and Peter in the final four? Or could it be Anthony? Don’t forget to tune in, next week, Monday 9-10…The Contender

.: ~oH its not Friday~ :.

What a surprise!! 2 fights in a row is definitely another way of granting my yesterday’s wish [tomorrow is Friday…I mean] then I don’t have to wait till the next Monday to know whats next! Haha..at 9pm sharp, baba, ayie and I were already in front of the tv..really excited to watch the second round of the contender..but million ‘thanks’ to Arien the longkang..i knew what to expect before the show begins..JAHAT!! last week..Arien and I had a chat on who’s going to be brought back into the competition..and he guessed that it was going to be Ahmed..which I hated the most!! I guess that time the longkang was kinda masin…so it is; the cute-bigtalker scamp is back!! Not only that Arien also told me that Ahmed will be against Alfonso..sape menang,teke sendiri..[sapebend yen??] haha

The show began with a different fight..it was between Sergio and Ishe..tough fight I must say..up till the 3rd round, it was 2-1 with Ishe on the lead..but Serg was not even started all those while..the remaining 2rounds prove that he is the Latin Snake..he fought hard…really hard..and deserves the win..so that was the last fight for Ishe..adios dude!

Done with the episode, I found my way to the bedroom..my first 5minutes in the room was peaceful..until ba broke the silence..he is also kinda teruje with the contender..thanks to me ;p so shocking but grateful, we continued watching the next fight that Arien told me earlier..hoho I really hoped for Ahmed to kene titik lg this time..br padan muke~ berlagak sgt!! Hail to Alfonso..yup yup he won.. =)

Unlike sitting here in the office doing nothing but staring at the pc, contender is really really interesting..hehe tired of doing nothing..my brain is started to rust due to this boredness..guess I’ll go jalan2 in the line la pasni..haha

.: ~One hell Monday~ :.

Its been quite sometime since the last post.. i have no special reason for that..nope, I was not busy all this while..in fact I got the whole day to blog if I wanted to..hehe guess I wasn’t in the mood to blog...too bad!

Blogger has been my virtual bestfren during this internship program…however since new trainees came in, my affection towards the blog has become less and less ;p hehe last time, I was the only trainee in the company…now? We have up to 20 trainees from various uni and field of study..cool huh?!! The funny part is, although I’m the first to come in, I’ll be the last one to leave…hoho clearly contradicts the philosophy of F.I.F.O and L.I.F.O …count F.I.L.O in guys!!!haha nice~ First In Last Out ;p

Hmm today, I’ve come to the 21st week of the 8month of my life..yippie!!! Cant wait to come to the end..missed UTP so much…the ‘utpian’, burninghot-weather, cheap food, light traffic, pak & mak guards, the ‘gedek-gedek’ pathway between v3 and v4..[to name a few]...counting days~

Yeehaa…whats interesting about Monday?yup..CONTENDER!!tonite will be the beginning of the second round of the show..there are 7contenders left..it is supposed to be 8..thanks to Juan for giving up earlier before the round even started!!! [Juan bapuk]..lets witness what Alfonso, Jesse, Ishe, Sergio, Peter, Anthony, and Joey got to be the ‘Contender’.. This is what spices up my Monday nite! ;p and after the show, I’ll be praying that instead of Tuesday, Friday will come…as the favourite tomorrow… [aminnnnnnnnn ß sha kate]

Late today, I had a wonderful short-sweet conversation with one of the internal auditor in the house..Jamie Lee..this Korean [I think] lady is very friendly and cute..earlier, she told me about the mosquito bites she had which I though was kinda ‘manje’ hehe..later the print-for-me-please-favor…hoho Jaja the power office gurl!! I don’t mind…but..what do u do?r u doing data entry Q&A???that…I do MIND!!haha..aku dok sengkang mate wat programming..ade ke kate wat data entry?? ;p

wish tomorrow is Friday~

.: ~C.O.N.T.E.N.D.E.R who??~ :.

Forget manhunt..the series is over..but of course, thanks to the show, I’m becoming a ‘makhluk tv’ now..hehe although its not that extreme, but one thing for sure, I now have my own ‘must see’ tv showlist! Say tata to the old jaja and welcome to the tv world..haha

Recently, I’m addicted to this show called T.H.E C.O.N.T.E.N.D.E.R… Gosh, I like this show so much that I won’t miss it for the world!! After a tiring day at work, usually by 8pm I’m already asleep..but for the sake of contender..staying up until 10pm is no problem at all.. the show really grabbed my attention..my interest is all there..the show is a reality boxing show which involves 16 boxers representing the West team and the East team. That means 8 boxers in each team. On the West side we have Alfonso, Jesse, Ishe, Sergio, Miguel, Anthony, Tarick and Joey while East coast consists of Peter, Jonathan, Ahmed, Najai, Brent, Juan, Jimmy and Jeff..each week, 2boxers[ 1 from East and 1 from West ] will fight for 5 rounds..the winner stays and the loser goes home..adei..i’m seriously into this show..cam teruje gile!!!!! Love, Dignity and Courage as Sly said..is what the show is all about..nice eh?Its like the boxing version of the Apprentice..another credit of the show lays on the two big people behind the effort of the best boxer search; Silvester Stallone and former world campion, Sugar Ray…hehe..super nice!

Last Monday’s fight between Tarick and Juan was my personal favourite! It was a fight with full action where u couldn’t take ur eyes off the screen even for a second! The spirit of young Juan really amazed me..he’s only 18[baye Haziq..as ayen says], has a quite small body size but the way he fought opposites them all..[I adore Juan for that] Juan is fast, full of spirit and definitely one of the strong contenders along with Alfonso, Jesse, Ishe, Sergio, Peter and Anthony..so far, it has been 7 episodes..and these 7guys made it to the second round..congratulation!

Tarick on the other hand, did give his best! To the fact that its been a long time since his last fight, I believed that he gave his best..Even if we won at the first place, he wont go far..coz he’s kinda old..with new faces coming into the field, it’ll take a long time and definitely a great challenge to get to the top..no offense but I favor Juan better..although if Juan loose in the next round, he got nothing to loose..come on..he’s only 18 and has a long way to go..with the experience gained from this show..he can be even better..just keep up the good work and polish the spirit k Juan..[huh..tu die..obsess bakk]..

Next week, its Joey and Jimmy time to prove who’s the best..cant hardly wait till the next show..Jaja is now a contender freak!!!

.: ~Whats with SEPET?~ :.

Last nite, I had the chance to watch the movie that has been people’s word of mouth lately.. S.E.P.E.T …pretty excited at first..but as I go along.. I found out that there was nothing interesting about the film!! I really don’t understand the whole house ‘berkamban’ing part..and Harith wearing only underware..yaiks! sorry..but I didn’t get the message..guess the main point was to show the love between different races..Malay and Chinese to be exact..to conclude..the sepets of my life are so much better than this film!!way too much..to Baba dearie, Diha amoi and Arien cine…u guys are my fav sepet!

.: ~Senior in the house~ :.

Hoho the news of the day!!as I was having my breakfast with these akak-akak at the canteen, someone grabbed my attention…someone with a very familiar jacket, written ‘Electrical Engineering Petrovarsity’ !!! Someone that I have met before, dealing with the HR manager 2months back…the moment I saw the Petrovarsity word..i couldn’t take my eyes of that person.. ‘Eh..cam kenal je jacket tu..’ I said to the akaks.. ‘Nape?’ one of them replied.. ‘Tu jacket U saye tu.Sape tu kak?Lame ke die kat sini?’ I continued, pretty excited.. ‘Tak pasan lak’ the conversation ended there…from that moment, I declared the M.I.S.S.I.O.N of the day…to find out who the person is…

Blablabla..the next 3hours, I was in front my pc..had a look at the excel file given by the new engineer, Ling [bukan darling ye rakan2..plain Ling-the one mentioned in ‘Maid in Texas’] the surrounding was quiet…until Ling broke the silence ‘Fiza,why so quiet today?’ ‘u quiet,I also quiet la Ling’ I responded in a Chinglish style.. ‘Like that ah?Dont be so quiet la..what are u doing?’ ‘hmm have a look at the excel file for u la’ ‘Ok..haiya, still got a lot to go’ Ling grumbled as he had to go through the training material of the department..i juz gave him a warm smile as a support…he’ll be ok..

The clock was 12.30..its time for a break people..so I followed these 3 akaks and had the same elevator with the big man on QRA, Mr Zaihan..he is a very nice person..the face tells it all..at the canteen I directly went to the fruit stall and bought a slice of pineapple and jambu~ [bukan adam jambu ye yen] put some asam, and rushed myself out of the area..this place was freaking cold people!! I’m beginning to love the sunshine since this internship..haha

Wow!!the weather outside was sooo fine!the warmth is like the cure to this freezing cold disease..instead of going to my fav spot, I chose the one closest to the main entrance to the building..maybe bcoz of the ‘shady’ness of that area…so there I was, having my healthy lunch in front of the WJK Unser, at such a pleasant spot! Strawberry nice [tribute to mmq] I was enjoying the view, the people passed by and my lunch too..everything was ordinary..so ordinary until ‘my mission’ passed before my eyes!!jeng jeng jeng…an accomplishment was about to come…

Done with the fruits, I decided to go back to the office..the mission was nowhere in sight..ah, missed the shot! on the way in, I met another senior [x-semesta – hoho make the title seniors in the house then!] and followed her to her workplace…we had a chat on uni life..as I was telling her my story about UTP, I noticed someone was like ‘skodeng’ing and illegally-listening to our conversation…gotcha!!no…double gotcha!first coz of the skodeng..second coz of being the mission that I was ‘working’ on…hmm this shot must be taken..so I gathered the strength to actually go to the next cubic and… ‘Assalamualaikum..’ ‘Waalaikumsalam’ ‘Em td saye perasaan pakai jacket Petrovarsity..student UTP ke?’ ‘Aah..’ nice ja..mission accomplished..an approached has been made and the target was perfect!! Nice shot..[eh bukan perfect ape tau..kire btol la die x-UTP]..

Having a conversation with the senior or shall i call an engineer was really refreshing! Most important is to know that there is another UTPian besides me..here in Texas..

UTP - Engineering futures

.: ~birthday wishes~ :.

to Haslinda Meor Muhamad, 3523...Happy 21st Birthday~ may ur dreams come true, granted great health, gud life besides ur luv ones [especially wengurl ;p]..hmm d trip sounds very exciting..too bad i cant make it..guess nxt time eh aleen..26/4 insyaallah..till then, have a wonderful day..and that goes to all..be happy people!!

.: ~freaky assi~ :.

‘Excuse me..Sir, r u bz?’ I tried to start a conversation as I realized that the room is now occupied with its new owner… ‘Yeah, I’m catching up some emails..Why?’ he responded… ‘Its about the assignment..’ I continued plus a ‘confuse’ expression on the face to spice up the communicato [cam bes..communicato] ‘Next week?..I’m bz at the moment..ok?’ he replied with a ‘sorry but I’m bz’ look obviously on his face.. ‘Ok Sir’ I found my way out of the room with a smiling heart over the weirdo face.. ;p smooth~

Since I’m not into the assignment the sv words meant a lot! Felt like flying at that moment..haha..after a short while, there he was [again??], standing in the middle of my ‘borak2 kosong’ with this kakak.. ‘Ok, I have a new assignment for u…’ the word ASSIGNMENT somehow stopped my heartbeat and smashed it to the ground!!! Still in control.. I focused on the continuation of his unfinished instruction.. ‘Give this key to Nana [bukan name sebenar] and tell her that the supervisor [the sv himself] is really mad bcoz this is not the rite key to the locker. This is the second time and this time, ask her to check the key before giving it to me. Or I’ll get really mad.’ Smiling, I replied ‘Ok Sir’ ..relieved upon the acceptance of such non-technical assignment..He can be really cute at times u know [means cam ade ke soh tuka kunci tu die pgl assignment…cute bakk..cuak je]..So Nana, take note.. Me? Take a rest!! Yippie~

To arien, I prefer wakav better than wikev…too bad u don’t have ur wikev [or kotak ade roda..as u'd like to call it] no more..xgeng dah~

.: ~Maid in Texas?~ :.

I reached my workplace late this morning..15minutes to be specific..as I walked towards my place, I heard voices discussing about the new issue that hit the department..it seemed serious coz all the ‘important’ people were there…the face expression of the ‘ehem’ was not good thus kinda spoiling my spirit to do the assignment..[alasan~]

After quite sometime pretending as if I was doing my work..i decided to do some housekeeping…forget Maid in Manhattan, Maid in Texas is on the move people!! ..hehe well I do have similarity with JLo on 1 thing [cube teke].. ;p housekeeping is what I enjoy the most when the work stress comes in..its a positive way of handling stress as it gives a sense of satisfaction in return…in the end, my workplace is tidy, clean and well-organized..gud job!

That was only a tiny part of the light-handed Maid of Texas…next Monday, an engineer is going to occupy the workplace next to mine..[yey!!got a new company~ ] so the place needed to be cleaned sooo badly… I tell u,there was a bunch times 2 paper separated in plastic holders on the desk..they were so worthy to be given to the ‘apek paper lama’..i’ll be a millionaire for this… juz don’t understand why they keep those things..hehe and I was really honoured to clear them all on their behalf [this engineer is quite friendly..so I don’t mind]..i juz luv throwing things off! Lets dispose them ya! Huh~ quite tiring but seeing the result as I said was such a pleasure..hmm I did most of the work..and whoever try to get a credit from it, deserve a big L from me..kiki [ja kejam]..off to work now~

.: ~Friday kickoff~ :.

Today the journey to the office was amazing! Well we [my parent and 1] changed to a different route due to the close-for-maintenance of Petronas’s ngv at Wangsa Melawati..so we headed to Sri Hartamas instead..as the result, I have to find my way to the office by myself..baba dropped me at KLCC and the adventurous journey begun..gosh its been a loooooong time since my last day-out at KLCC..hehe..well I hardly go out during wiken nowadays..i’m becoming a home-person more and more!

Ok the story continues…well there I was in front of the Suria KLCC..the surrounding was quiet and calm..hoho what to expect? It was 7.00am..the right place for ‘crowd’ as early as 7 is non-other than the road itself..especially those headed to KL..that explains why we got out of the house at 5.30am everyday..for the first 5minutes I was wandering at the entrance trying to make up my mind on how should I get to the office..should I take the cab or lrt?? Somehow my heart inclined towards the later..so off to the lrt platform~

Hmm finding the lrt station at KLCC should be no problem rite?haha I thought..but alas! I forgot which side it is..so I went forth and back from one side to the other..to find out that it was not there..thanks to the lady at the Dunkin Donut..again I walked to the other end where I began..same shoplines with the descending order, considering the one before is the ascending [huh??] I noticed that there are a lot of boutiques which are not used to be there before..lalala so what? Ok ok I admit..its been a year++ ..i hardly go to shopping complex nowadays..no no.. ;p

At last..there, stood the lrt station before my eyes..then I wondered…whats the destination eh?this is my first time taking lrt to the office..although I used to take lrt from Keramat to Masjid Jamek..i still didn’t memorize the station name…[ J E L A T E K la Ja] ;p is it Dato Keramat or Jelatek…har har..carrying my in-house shoe [the white conductive shoe used in the factory premises] in a box along..went forth and back across one side to the other and didnt know the exact destination…pretty much a bad fengshui to start a day eh? ;p

So there I was at the platform heading to TERMINAL PUTRA...it took the train approximately 3minutes to arrive...nice..KLCC to Jelatek is only 4 stations away..as the sight of Restoran McKandar came into view, i knew that I’ve come to my destination..and the next question popped into my mind..cab or bus? The end of the staircase answers the question for me..at the bus stop, was a bus coded 916FB1..i looked at the signboard and realized that that was the one for me [ Ampang Point-Texas-Ampang Puteri] but to be sure , I asked the driver ‘Bang, lalu Texas eh?’ ‘Lalu..’ he replied..i gave a smile as a non-verbal thank u..the fare was 50cent..so I put my in-house shoe on the compartment near the coin-feeder and slipped my hand into the handbag for the fare.. ‘Nak bagi saye ke kasut tu?’ the driver trying to be friendly.. ‘ish mane boleh..’ I responded..short and very clear..wakaka as I got the ticket, I thanked him and moved on to get a seat..while waiting for other passengers.. I had the chance to enjoy the surrounded view..my favourite was Restoran McKandar…TomYam-Nasi Kandar-Kari Kepala Ikan…hehe creative eh? McKandar..super nice!

It didn’t take long for the bus to get full with passenger..in 5 minutes,we hit the road...haih..picking the seat where I seated was a mistake..the seat was actually near the back door which was open all along..adeii rosak tudung! The wind rushed in cruelly spoiling the tudung so much..wekk..

Finally, the Texas Instruments building stood proudly at the right side of the road..here I go..the place with full of ‘excitement’ meant for those with great courage and guts to move on and survive..


‘The only way to discover the limit of possible is to go beyond them into the impossible’

.: ~ 24.03.2001 ~ :.

I'll Be

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful •
Stop me and steal my breath •
Emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky •
Never revealing their depth •
Tell me that we belong together •
Dress it up with the trappings of love •
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips •
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above •

I'll be your cryin' shoulder •
I'll be love suicide • I'll be better when I'm older •
I'll be the greatest fan of your life •

Rain falls angry on the tin roof •
As we lie awake in my bed •
You're my survival, you're my living proof •
My love is alive and not dead •
Tell me that we belong together •
Dress it up in the trappings of love •
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips •
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above •

I'll be your cryin' shoulder •
I'll be love suicide •
I'll be better when I'm older •
I'll be the greatest fan of your life •

I've dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead •
Tuned in, turned on, remembered the thing you said •

I'll be your cryin' shoulder •
I'll be love suicide •
I'll be better when I'm older •
I'll be the greatest fan of your life •

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luv u~ (",)

.: ~kEbAbOoOoM!!!!~ :.

hmm this internship thingy is really sucks! i dont know what went wrong..but seriously i'm N.E.G.L.E.C.T.E.D! i hate it so much right now...demn how i wish this is over!! juz cant stand it anymore..kinda hard to motivate myself in this kinda situation..its like,nobody cares! i didnt ask to be pampered..no thanks! i'll live without it but its just not right to abandon a trainee especially who is trying sooooooooooooooooo hard to accomplish things around here~ at the end of the day,all the blame goes to me! huh..i wanted to finish this task ASAP but unless i have the answer to my question, there's nothing i can do! i'm very very very upset..waaaaa~

.: ~fly to the moon~ :.

hmm these 2days have been very busy..yesterday I’ve accomplished my goal...yes,problems which I faced these few weeks are now settled..somehow I’m in the mood for this programming thing.. I wonder why…*nape eh?* actually my SV already signed me off the program last week..gosh it was such a relief..the problem really gave me a headache!! I guess last Friday turned myself the other way around..my SV wasn’t in that day..all day long I did nothing but surfing the net and emailing my fellow friends
Then I realized that such attitude was a big waste…for the first time since this internship, I felt bored bcoz there was no work to do…amazing huh?so yesterday, I managed to correct the program..and realized that it was actually manageable, I should have completed the program last week but due to the pressure, I tend to take things for granted and overlooked at the solution before my eyes..ish3..See how emotions take control?hmm.. I’ve learned my lesson..yesterday to be specific..in the end, I’m glad that I didn’t give up on the program..coz as it is completed,it seems easy..but if I gave up at the first place, I’ll be fooling myself in front of my SV..so the sayings is true.. ‘Never stop trying, u just never know the outcome.’

.: ~so much for nature-lover~ :.

Yey..Friday it is…we’ve come to the end of week15 people..still there is another 17 weeks to go..

Yesterday was a mess..i stayed back at the office till 6.00pm..to some people this maybe a common situation but to people who live in Bukit Beruntung and work at AU2 Keramat it is nothing but abnormal..hehe..but as I droved to the office, I didn’t mind..coz driving is what I enjoy the most! that is until the disaster struck..

Usually I will take the highway both to get to the office and to come back home..everyday the journey is going to be the same..i can drive with my eyes closed without even getting into the deep-intolerable-tyre disaster-loops on the road..haha..the journey:first the Bukit Beruntung toll,followed by Rawang and ended up at the Sg Buloh exit..from Sg Buloh, headed to Kepong,Batu Caves,Karak highway and finally keramat…the journey home goes the other way around..at the end of the day, it will cost me rm8.20 for tolls also approximately rm20 for petrol..imagine the cost for the whole month..to the fact that I earn not even rm400 monthly,this kind of travel is ridiculous!! and for those who is thinking of arguing..dont even start..or someone is gonna get their ass burnt!!

Ok back to the story..well yesterday I decided to change the route..for the sake of letting the stress out after a long day at work..lets enjoy the nature on the way back [I thought]..the picture of the Bandar Rawang started playing in my mind…huh,I can handle that~ besides,the traffic usually doesn’t get that congested..as long as its moving then its alrite..so instead of taking the right at the Batu Caves flyover to get to Kepong, I took the left to the roundabout and headed to Selayang..i was liking the idea pretty good until one thing struck my mind..demn..how could I forgot about T.E.M.P.L.E.R P.A.R.K???well the idea of going for a nature ride will definitely ended up to be another stress builder..i regretted it so much but it was too late to turn back…adeila~ seriously I forgot about that place..haish!! for those who are familiar with Templer they’ll know what I mean…gosh..the traffic queue there is like never-ending..bumper to bumper..the fact that there is only 2lanes[1 each side] explains everything..and the traffic jam usually causes by the people who is heading to Rawang toll…just imagine,from Selayang,3lanes squeezing they way into 1..this is just another traffic tsunami..ALAS!

--So I tried to control my emotion..thank god I was alone that time..if baba was the driver,I’ll be hearing a lot of b**i ,g*****g and those bad words..it really got into my nerves and brought out the outspoken in me..hehe..i’ll go like..whats with the words?why don’t u recite or perform some kind of zikir or doa instead ba?and like pouring fuel to a baby fire,now we have 2 people arguing in the car!haha…baba and jaja are behaviorally the same..but I managed mine better ;p..so like the magnet theory,when U meets another U..it means UNSTOPPABLE…even mama couldn’t do anything whenever an argument strikes..hehe..--

I was quite calm with the situation..with ERA.fm and Milikku by Zahid playing in the air, I enjoyed myself..so much that I accidently let the clutch off my feet and created such a ‘wonderful’ long-loss-embarrassment..haha!! well with a manual and stuck in the middle of such traffic,it should be understandable rite?hehe lala malunyer saye~ ;p

Hmm after Templer Park..everything went back to normal..yeah it took some time but come to think about it, I achieved my first intention of enjoying the scenery..thanks to the traffic jam, the enjoying period was longer ;p at the end of the day, it took me more than 1hour to get home..on the other hand,if I took the highway at the first place,it could’ve been at most 45minutes..to conclude, cost-wise Templer is better [less fuel consumption, no tolls, shorter route] but time-wise goes to the highway[moving traffic, less stress, extra miles]..the moral behind the story, no matter how bad the traffic is,don’t let it get into your way…find ways to enjoy the most of it..hehe such as letting off the clutch.. ;p

.: ~hohoho~ :.

Thursday..this means its just 1 day away from wiken..hoho started the week with a huge M..gile malas ja..lepuk lepuk..and when the spirit comes its already Thursday..guess there aren’t much thing to achieve by then..hoho
There is pretty much nothing to tell these few months except for training stuffs..life has not been as interesting as before..i’m becoming one hell of a loner rite now..haih~ I rarely meet my friends,didn’t go for shopping for 4months now,also no-movie since I know what u did last raye..haha..that was the night after my last paper..ish paper ape eh?lupe lak…adeh lemau!

So today I reached the office at 8.30 and surprisingly, the PMT room in front my cubic is occupied by a different figure! And the one that I definitely recognize..hehe yup,my SV! Ayo..found out from the clerk nearby that he’s been there since 7.30!so the new book starts today..no more a day without SV =(

.: ~its Week15..17weeks to go~ :.

yeay..its already week 15..almost halfway through the training period..17sounds good.pretty much confident that everything will be ok..but the big question is..jeng3..will there be a solid A waiting for me in the end??gosh,its hard to tell..i havent bodek my sv yet..perhaps soon coz i'll be seeing him a lot after this..with the dark-shaded-5foot++ mirror opposite my cubic,his reflection is anywhere within my stereoscopic sight! [tokok bakk] hehe the A thing is beyond my ability to tell..well,work-wise..true:i'm kinda slow-especially when it comes to mental-crushing-complicated-solution is needed...however, its not fair to simply jump to the conclusion such as ;u're not a programmer material...well if i were to be labeled like that,i'll accept it with my sea-wide open heart..its difficult to 'digest' such conception..but critics at time can be the key to your success..yes,maybe i'm not a programmer material..i still have a lot to learn..well,thats the reason why i'm HERE at the first place...whats more important to me is the effort that i put into my work..the willingness to do extra research just to get my works done..the hard times that i went through,debugging those errors..the fact that i ate my hunger out for weeks..dont all these count??well i'm not trying to impress anyone here..all i know is..i'm not perfect..i maybe slow..but i'm here to learn..so guide me..considering the fact that i had zero knowledge bout JSP before..i think i'm doing quite good..i discovered lots of thing by myself before actually being told about them..see?i'll be your best trainee ever..give me a chance,guide me,u'll be suprised!thats a promise.. ;)

so this 15weeks have been kinda emotional..wakaka..well its simple..different people have different view on the same matter..to me,it maybe good..but not to you..so to be able to accept critics positively will definitely prepare u for the R.E.A.L W.O.R.L.D and brings a better person in u..i guess this place is just another SEMESTA to me..huh!i'll take the challenge..bring it on..coz this is what i'm looking for and i'm ready for it..at the end,the effort that counts and true satisfaction will reveal..insyaAllah

.: ~shocking news!~ :.

hehe the mystery is unleashed people..juz now i was wondering why my sv throwed such a smile at me..well i juz heard the news..my sv is promoted from senior engineer to process management team [better known as PMT] kinda big boss in the department now..to the fact that he only been here for 5years..i'm really impressed and amazed with his performance..hoho congats sir!

.: ~a smile that shines my day~ :.

hehe can u guess who??i'll give a clue..the word starts with S and ends with V..[donno the answer?my advice: huh~ go and get urself killed!!] i went to see my SV juz now..submitted my laswik's report and told him the problem that i am facing regarding my assi [kinda cool for assignment] hehe i was totally prepared for another 'cane nak jd programmer ni?' kinda thing..instead a miracle happenned..he smiled~ gosh i'm flattered..this is going to be one hell of a day[good one-hopefully]..lalala well..i'm not in the mood to come up with more of those 'word of art' not until lunch time is over..this congested brain of mine need to be re-tuned[after 2days off work] and re-motivated..kamon jaja kamon! ;p

hmm on the other hand..this gatal-technician is driving me nuts!first my extension no., then wat?adehh i'm sick of his not-cute-gatal-face expression!lalala..

las wiken has been sooo bored..miss Zul so much..waaa cepatla abes final die...also my fellow maharani..kiki [lame xgelak xsopan cam kat umah lu,nnt kene marah ngan bama] i have no life lately..feels like a living cropse..hoho scary!!

.: ~TGIF 2~ :.

i'm loaded with JSP rite now..problems despite of skills..thats bad..really bad!!this week has been a failure to me..excluding the fact that my 'web touch' is now being used in the company [hehe..my dear~] and i've been playing around a lot these few days...the rest spoiled my week..
'all JSP and no YM makes Ja a dull girl' wakaka..bluff!well tonnes of email makes me look very busy..which is good..it gives the 'Dont bother me.I got alot of work to do' sign.. ;p

well looking at the bright side..i might join shafiranoran to desa waterpark tomorrow..yippie!! but of course depends on ba's approval..*baik kan saye* been in a sea of stress with piranha-disaster-headache..its been a long time since i smile sincerely...all these while its been faked!harhar guess 'they' just didnt notice..coz i'm good in pretending.. ;p muahahha

.: ~TGIF~ :.

hey..its friday!!!yeeehaah..TGIF,gosh i've been fooled by the acronym before..haha its all JSP fault..and a fren of mine too becoz he asked about the meaning in the middle of my JSP-war.. harhar..for the sake of helping[coz he had problems with JSP as well], i even looked for it in my JSP reference book..oh God i feel so stupid rite now..kaka..even more when i knew that TGIF is actually stands for THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY~ ..hoho so much for programming s**t..uiks am i becoming a 'programming freak' ??well, not today-for sure..i still dont see the Monalisa in my codes yet..if i do...someone S.A.F.E M.E!!!

hmm the SPM result was out yesterday...gosh really missed those times...a lot!Form 5 was the greatest year of my life..lots of thing happened back then..most of them were bad, but 1 miracle turned them around..precious miracle it is [master Yoda style] not 'academically'..quite dissappointed with my result..it could have been better..but what to say..the big M was ruling me back then..in fact still ;p so much for comfort zone..btw,congratulation to Hazel dearie..great result!proud of u..

.: ~am i cursed??~ :.

haish....aicha!!got the feeling that today will be my lucky-not day..first,i woke up late..second,i forgot to bring my shoe locker key to work..thanks to that,instead of wearing the white rubber shoe,i'm now stuck with this blue-plastic-pointed shoe cover..feels like Aladdin..[only without the lucky lamp..wish i have one..then everything will be back to normal] third,i left my drawer key at home..and on top of all, i just dont feel lucky..huh!

life has been quite a mess lately..why?what else if it is not because of the M factor..M.O.N.E.Y is what makes the world goes round..and people are so much affected by it..its hard living in a money-no-no [what the hell is this?] situation.well,thats what i've been through for the past 3months.. financial has been extremely tight..at the end of the day,no shopping,no movies,no ronggeng excitement for me..kinda stress..but i rather not thinking bout it and just go with the flow!as long as i can smile-till-crampjaw and laugh my joy outloud..i'll survive...thats a promise!tough times will make u a stronger and better person[this is what SEMESTA taught me]..this is the fact of life..its not a bed of roses that u can choose from..come to think bout it,i realize that life is never F.A.I.R..hell no!!there is no such thing as P.E.R.F.E.C.T life..maybe yes for Paris H****n..but just like the Yin n Yang..good things[fortune] are always follow by bad things[obstacle] rite?if not equally balanced,atleast enough to prove that it exists..its what makes life C.O.M.P.L.E.T.E..put it in a JAquation, GOOD(+ve value)+BAD(-ve value) = HAPPY LIFE..let say i'm making good money this month but on the other hand, i have to spare it for iosg installment,the JAquation goes like this: 1 + (-1) = 0 ..hehe this indicates that my level of happiness is ok[unless if it goes negative,please someone..shoot me!] so in the case of Paris H****n,the JAquation goes like this: 50+(-1)=49 [huh!!the only reason i put (-1) there is because she's too skinny =p ..49,demn good for her]..on top of that,life is not a set of number that u can play with..i believe that no one rule that applies to all..except for those from Him..but this is how i picture my life.. although its kinda hideous and dreadful[the M part]..it doesnt stop me from being thankful.. looking at the bright side,i have my family,luving J,great friends..and most of all, i'm not stupid[i'll lead my life accordingly].. what more should i ask for??heh..happy life..just a happy life..=)

.: ~blogger disease~ :.

beware of this dangerous, no cure,procrastination-to-blame disease that has been spreading vigorously around the nation [hoh..sounds good-tokok bakk] this disease normally attacks those with high degree of boredness, technical-dont-know-how issues [me, to be specific], free due to on-leave sv [me again], and of course 'virus-infection' from earlier victims..gosh,i am now a B.L.O.G.G.E.R positive..thanks to the 'bariong monster'..within 2days, i have my own blogspot, 3posts [excluding this one] and a chatazz box..pretty 'bad' infection huh?so u guys out there..beware!get busy or get blogged!! ;p

.: ~rewang ke ding dong do~ :.

i'm depressed!!!hell yeah...the more i got into the coding the more problem unleashed...in the situation where by u're new n not familiar to how advance thing works,no one to turn to except my on-leave sv,and worst,i've been screwing myself with some rubbish 'word of art' ... i deserve a B.R.E.A.K ..this brain of mine is getting congested with the ??? sign,with no right answer,not even to get me on track again...hoho guess my weekend wont be as expected..till this prob is solved,P.E.A.C.E means N.O.T.H.I.N.G..like it or not,there is no choice,a task is a task and should be taken seriously...well here i go again~

.: ~friday blues~ :.

yup...i'm already here, in my office, in front of this weirdo pc..it kept on producing this freaking sound..as if it is about to explode..keBABOOOMMM!!haha well today is friday,what have i accomplished this week??hmm last week's report is still incomplete..the same goes to this week's..my program is not yet fulfilled the new requirements..i still do not have the solution to the errors that i have been facing for the past 3days..in short, i've learned N.O.T.H.I.N.G !!what a waste...huh~ to the fact that my eye balls are going to pop out soon, i'm sick of staring on the screen; doing programming, debugging the errors blablabla..strainful~ [mirc is a different case, u dont need to crack ur head up on the "chataz'ation code"] altho my sv once said to me that, programming is an art..to the extreme extend, one can even see a Monalisa in the coding block.. [huhh?? yeah, if u're crazy enough..] to me, programming is how u manipulate existing codes.. without ur own,u still can come up with a program..it can be a form of satisfaction if the desired objective is achieved..also, it has a high potential on increases the suicide and mental-disruption rate among IT student [count me in!!] to conclude, programming is H.A.Z.A.R.D.O.U.S~

.: ~the beginning~ :.

huh..thought of doing this blogger thing since last year but only ended up posting one today..how sad~ this internship thing really consume a lot of my 'ronggeng' time..now,weekend seems so short.. friday to the next monday is just like a few 'blinks' away..tadaaaa!!!i cant even finish saying the word 'pi-sang'..coz when i'm about to come to the 'sang' its already monday..see?weekend nowadays seems that short!!kiki..well i guess its fair enough coz weekdays also 'fly by' so demn fast..yey!oopppsss here comes the sv