Sayu

Asyik melihat suami dan anak ketika ini, di kamar, menunggu masa dibuai lena. Dua insan yg amat ku sayang. Dua insan pelengkap semangat untuk menempuh hari-hari dgn optimis. Sebak... Dua insan ini punya dugaan masing-masing. Jauh di sudut hati, ibu sgt sebak diuji dugaan berganda ini. Namun ibu janji, tidak akan berhenti berharap dan ibu yakin setiap dugaan Nya punya hikmah tersendiri. Insyaallah...Mudah-mudah ada sinar menanti kita; ayah, ibu dan anak..

Esok umat Islam akan memulakan ibadah puasa. Ramadhan tiba lagi. Syukur padaNya ada peluang buat kita untuk beribadah. Esok juga hari yg sgt mendebarkan buatku dan suami. Anak akan berdepan dgn mesin besar itu lg. Ya Allah, hajat dihati ini ingin melihat anak membesar dgn sihat dan menjadi insan yg berguna pd agama dan bangsa kelak. Sempena bulan baik ini, aku pohon padamu Ya Allah, kau jauhilah suami dan anak-anak ku dr penyakit yg merbahaya. Peliharalah mereka di bawah lindunganmu Ya Allah. Permudahkan urusan kami dan jauhi kami dr sebarang yg melalaikan.

Anak, ibu doakan anak kuat menghadapi dugaan ini. Mudah-mudahan keputusan pemeriksaan esok berita baik untuk kita. Ibu syg anak, kasih tidak terhingga banyaknya. Hati, bertahanlah walau mata berlinangan lg...Ya Allah...lemah sungguh hambamu ini.

Suami, isteri akan gagah berdiri disisimu walau apa terjadi. Kau kusayang dulu, kini dan Insyaallah sampai akhir nanti. Isteri yakin suami akan sembuh. Bila, bukan kita yg tentukan. Yg pasti, kita tidak boleh putus asa. Anak-anak perlukan kita. Janji, kita usaha sama-sama ya?

Ya Allah...aku barangkali sudah lama tewas dek dugaan ini jika tidak keranaMu. Mana mungkin aku kuat berdepan dgn masalah kesihatan dua insan ini di kala diuji hebat dgn penilaian prestasi kerja. Kekuatan ini adalah milikMu. Kau pinjamkanlah kekuatan ini untuk aku terus berdiri, berusaha dan
bertawakal demi kesudahan yg baik Ya Allah...keranaMu, aku tenang. KeranaMu, aku tabah. Di ketika ini, aku mohon dipermudahkan urusan, diringankan dugaan...

Air mata sudah tidak terbendung. Bertahanlah wahai hati. Islam kata, setiap dugaan yg menimpa, Allah tahu kita mampu hadapinya.

Ya Allah, lindungi kami hambaMu yg lemah. Semoga dugaan ini baik kesudahannya, Amin...

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Ibu's little helper

Just like her ayah, an explorer and a great helper at home :)

Maybe its time for us to move in together, kan ayah? Distance is killing me :(

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Missing you...

I cannot have you by my side at the office, but today I have your watch to accompany my busy day :)

Love you!

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Motherhood

It has been almost 17 months now since I gave birth to our first edition. How time flies. Motherhood has taught me a little bit more about life. An on-going lesson that in the end make you become a better person.

Sacrifices have taken place before the baby was even born. Just imagine the attempts that our mothers had gone through to where we are today.

I remember the moment in the labor room. I was fortunate, for having the opprtunity to give birth at a 5 star hospital. Your wellbeing is well taken care of and access to all sort of medications are readily available as you wish.

My 45 minutes experiencehh in labor room is considered as an easy one. Of course, with epidural in the picture. Still, I felt every bit of the needle tip that went through my skin, at the private part! But what is that compared to natural birth, kan?

Well, that is just the beginning of being a superwoman behind a well raised child. Then comes the sleepless nights, breastfeeding, going back to work dilemma, babysitter, which formula to choose (breastmilk is always the best), leaving your baby for outstation work, colic, teething and so many more.

I must admit that it is not easy being a working mother. Time is a factor that needs to be managed wisely. Another challenge is to keep your emotions at peace. Work nowadays is very demanding that sometime it drives you nuts. Work in KL just adds in the stress with bad traffic in the picture. This is where you have to manage the stress. The moment you reached home, that is the end of it (stress) and the happy hours of the day continue. Well, of course house chores await! Cleaning the feeding bottles, doing the baby's laundry, packing for tomorrow's baby bag and of the best part, catching up with your little one. See? 'Work' doesnot end at the office, there is more of it at home for supermom! Indeed, if not carefully managed one can end up stressful easily. This is where helpful husband comes in handy.

One thing I realize during this motherhood journey is to learn to let go. I used to be a kind of organized person, seriously. I hate seing things out of order and find messy-ness irritating. At this stage, babies or toddlers is exploring their surrounding through different ways. They pick up things and put them inside their mouth, throw things here and there, spill their milk and laugh about it. And throughout these stages, I learned to let go the organized side of me, be patient and enjoy the moments with my child :) let them do the mess and only cleans the mess later. No point of doing the cleaning work early, avoid double work.

I guess the key message is about being flexible. Why burden your mind on small things when you have so many things to be happy about? Just my 2 cents worth :)

Ibu loves you, RAZ!

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My 1st three C!

Today, at 27 years and a month old, I have indulged myself to the Coach! :D yeay! Here's to the hardwork & hardship throughout 2010.

I am a rough person. I hope I would be able to treat my C's accordingly.

If you're reading this ayah, please excuse ibu for being such-a-spender. Once a while ok kan?

Happy belated birthday Jaja :)

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Reflection

Life. How could this short and simple word has different meaning to every single one of us. Everyone has their own story to tell. Some, chose not to talk about it and rather keep it to themselves as secret.

Life. I bet no one dreams of living in the bitter part of it. Just like a fairy tale, we wish to close the chapter by living happily ever after. The FACT is life is not a fairy tale. We could have planned everything but the ultimate destiny is no where within our reach.

Subhanallah, Engkau Maha Agong. Setiap hambamu punya kelebihan dan kekurangan dalam meniti kehidupan masing-masing. Kesenangan dan kesusahan adalah ujianmu. Akhirat kelak perhitungan yang pasti.

Alhamdulillah atas kurniaanmu ya Allah. Jauhilah kami dari kesenangan yang melalaikan. Ringankanlah dugaanmu yang tidak tertanggung oleh kami. Pinjamkanlah kekuatan untuk kami terus bertahan. Jauhilah kami dari bahana hasad. Permudahkanlah urusan kami.Semoga kami tidak tergolong di kalangan hambamu yg lupa. Amin...

Ibu loves you both, dear ayah and Raudhah Amani. Insyaallah ada sinar untuk kita semua. Amin :)

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DUKHMIMU?

Look forward to meeting you soon, love! :-*

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5S day

It was a quiet day. The 5S was planned to be conducted after lunch hour. But my workstation needed 5S badly. So I started early, immediately after tazkirah.

The workstation looks tidy now. Good! Hope it lasts long ;p budget activities are coming up soon; keeping things in order usually is a challenge during the 'cycle' of the year. Nonetheless, its the way it should be. Good luck in keeping the workstation tidy and orderly, Ja. Lets clock in a month as a start, shall we? Longchamp as the motivation. What??? Thats a bit too much kan..expensive! ;p

Here's the new look, the place where obligation meets responsibility.

My battle field :)


Going places; souvenirs from friends


My world


My motivation :)

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