Discharged

Alhamdulillah. After 9 days being away from home, we are finally here again. Alhamdulillah.

A note of appreciation

p/s: sampai rumah terus rasa nak collapse. RAZ on the other hand, seronok dapat keluar. Boring tawaf hospital hari-hari. Speedy recovery, kakak!

Ramai sayang

Bulan ni, kami diuji dengan ujian kesihatan lagi. Ya Allah, mohon dipermudahkan urusan, baik kesudahan semuanya. Buat anakanda tersayang, ibu sepenuh hati mendoakan keselamatan dan kesejahteraanmu. Insyaallah semua akan ok. Ibu is so proud of you for being such a strong kid. Mudah-mudahan Allah terus bantu. Sebak hati tak terkata,. Namun kita harus terus optimis dan percaya padaNya. Insyaallah...semua akan ok.

Ramai sayangkan anakanda. Ramai sangat. Alhamdulillah, ibu terharu. Ayah bagi idea bernas pada ibu; pakaikan anakanda baju sendiri. Motivation untuk rasa seperti biasa, mudah-mudahan cepat sembuh. Psikologi. Tapi baju yang ada semua jenis sarung, payah. Mana nak cari baju berbutang depan?

Alhamdulillah. Persoalan semalam selesai terjawab hari ni bila mana sepupu rapat ibu sanggup datang dari Shah Alam bawakan baju baru untuk anakanda, 4 helai semuanya. Ibu sangat seronok! Koleksi ini ditambah sehelai lagi oleh seorang rakan baik ibu; bestest friend tempat berkongsi suka duka. Bertuah. Daripada takda apa-apa, jadi 4 helai kemudian 5. Lumayan. Lebih lumayan lagi bila ibu dapat sms dari rakan-boleh-tahan-rapat inform esok nak singgah bagi pajamas buat anakanda. Ya Allah...ramainya bantu. Syukur alhamdulillah.

Mudah-mudahan berkat doa semua, anakanda cepat sembuh. Terlalu berat untuk ibu cerita kenapa, apa jadi pada anak tersayang kepada semua. Ibu tak mampu kawal emosi buat masa ini. Kalau kita ikhlas doakan kesejahteraan sesama insan, tak tau apa sebabnya juga boleh kan? Terima kasih kepada yang mendoakan anakanda Raudhah Amani. Semoga Allah balas jasa baik kalian. Insyaallah...

all received today :)

p/s: cepat sembuh ok kakak? Ibu loves you so much!

Doa Ibu

Andai ada amalan baikku selama ini, aku mohon diberikan pada mereka... Untuk keselamatan dan kesejahteraan mereka... Ya Allah...

In a time of test, family is the best...Alhamdulillah :)

20 First Date

How time flies. It seems too fast that i'm already in the 3rd week of my 60 days of maternity leave. A lot has taken place since then. Today,i am proud to say that i'm getting hold of the transformation,from a weekend wife to an everyday mother :-) Am not trying to show off (come on 20days to get familiarize is practically long,isnt it?) Just to motivate self after a looong day,at 'work'.

I must say,the body is not as strong as before yet. Help comes in handy especially in the new daily chores; heating up the batu tungku, boiling water for mum's and baby's bath and puting everything back in place. The wound and pain after labor plus the exhausion of sleepless nite result in a weak body. But alhamdulillah, the wound has healed and i now understand my baby better,to face the sleepless nites :-)

Confinement has been fun. The first week was being monitored by my dear mother. I owe this lady so much. Mama prepared everything from air rebusan mandi, delicious meals to Raudhah's affairs. At night,mama would come to my room everything Raudhah cries. Oh mama how could i ever pay you back. I wish i'd be a good mom to Raudhah just as good as you've been to me. Now,i'm on my own with my little sis who lends extra hand in my daily routine.

Knowing Raudhah by now, i'd make sure that i wake up early to take care of my personal business before she wakes up. From taking bath, bertungku and put on the bengkung. Then i take my breakfast before devoting the rest of the day to my precious lil one. One of the moments i enjoy the most is during her bathtime. Raudhah loves it. And the best part,she would make cute faces and so bubbly when ibu puts her clothes on.

The rest of the day will be her nenen time, as and when required. I tried to steal some time to start working on my EBM stock, but to no luck. Will work on it soon.

Alhamdulillah. Raudhah Amani, we love you ao much. Ayah always express how weekend is too short to spend with you and ibu. Hope we could move in with ayah soon. And here's the pictures of you throughout our 20 first date, ibu's personal favourite :-) Oh,ayah said ibu has slim down fairly...yey!

Now its the 3 of us...

The Call

It was on Monday,22nd Feb 2010.There was something about the appointment,i sensed.maybe its time...the hospital bags were all prepared.The night before,i told my mum on the plan.Mama brought one bag to work while i brought the other.I was on my 38th week.Birth can take place anytime now.

So i went to meet my gynae that day.Baby was in good condition.Her weight has reached 3.8kg.This left me with no choice, 'either u check in today or we have to undergo operation later.Baby is big' yikes!I made myself clear that i wanted to undergo normal delivery.Yes,i chose to check in later that evening.

Mixed Feeling

It was almost lunch time when i arrived at the tower.I was scared,couldnt believe that the time has come.I burst into tears few times since i let zul know bout it back at the med centre.As i reached the office,i break the news to fellow officemates and emailed my 9 bestgirlfriends.Oh i also went for lunch with Fatin!Wow..i couldnt concentrate on work anymore.Plus tears kept finding its way to come out.So i decided to take a walk..long walk to friends places at level 61,63 and 74.Wow,i never knew that people care.The words of encouragements,support and tips were overwhelming!I only came back to my place around 5pm,took sometime to prepare the handover notes and only left around 8.15pm.

Ready or not,here goes

Arrived,registered,checked in at my single suite.Zul was on his way from johor.ETA 2am.I was so glad that the officers considered our situation and helped Zul to get his leave,even longer than expected!Alhamdulillah.The moment i checked in,I was told to clean up.My BP reading was taken and at 10.45pm the first magic tablet was inserted to my v.To my surprise the show was there already.Later,i was connected a machine that keep tracks of the contraction.Contraction?Very mild at that moment..hehe.Zul arrived at 1.30am.Mama also accompanied me that night.To get good rest,was the mission.Its gonna be a long day tomorrow..

Happy Birthday, 23rd Feb 2010

My gynae came to check on me at 7.30 am.Yup,i was already 2cm dilated.She then induced another magic tablet into me.I wished Zul was there to witness the scene.He went out to buy breakfast for mama.Pain?Yeah,a bit but its tolerable.At 11am i was 3cm dilated.After being advised by the gynae and few experienced friends,i decided to take epidural to ease up the labor pain.So i was moved to the labor room to begin.

The anesthetist took quite sometime to get the process done.According to him,my skin layer was thick.He had to repeat the steps,i think 5 times! Moral of the story,dont put on too much weight :p around 12pm,i was asked to get some rest.The gynae expected that labor will take place around 5pm...NOT!! At 2pm,i started to feel disturbing sensation at my lower abdomen.I kept on bugging Zul with question, 'whats my contraction reading?' and surprisingly,it was not high.The feel was getting more painful as time goes by.Cannot be!I asked Zul to call the nurse.I became panic when the nurse confirmed that i was already 8cm dilated!She went out to call the gynae,she said.So there i was with Zul..we had our moments,mintak maaf,mintak dipermudahkan.Ouch..the pain was getting stronger n the gynae was no where in the picture.Zul went out of the room again and this time,i was fully dilated.Ok,its time!I felt a very strong pressure down there.Oh my.I tried to maintained calm and not push until instructed.Soon the gynae and her team arrived.Everything happened so fast.I pushed once..twice..until the fifth attempt only i heard the magical sound,the sound that i now hear everyday..my baby was born at 2.45pm!Zul was my hero.He guided me through the labor.He reminded me to stay calm and cited zikir while i was in pain..pain?Oh no its not over!Moments after labor i felt sharp tip making its way into my skin!How can this happen? Am i feeling needle on my private part?I thought i wasnt supposed to feel anything.Gosh i was so wrong.The pain was horrible,tripple the labor pain!This was the time when i cried out loud.I cried like a baby!It was painful and i am not kidding u!A while later everything was done.From distance i saw baba n mama making their way to reach me.I was still crying at that time...and they joined me in tears.Moreover when they lay their eyes on their granddaughter.Alhamdulillah...Alhamdulillah baby is safe.She weights 4kg and the damage reflect :p

The Name

Zul and i had the inspiration to the perfect name for our daughter in Dec 2009. I must say,its not as easy as it seems.Earlier i wanted name that starts with Z.I always like Zara Zulfadhli.A package; universal,simple and has meaning.But zara is one of the common names nowadays,just like adam,arif,alya,humaira and the list goes on.We wanted name that reflect us,no offense..so lets go back to history!The name is a symbolic of our love journey.It started in March 2001.Zul's parents went to perform hajj that year.And there was a list of 10 wishes.I only knew this after a while.If not,i'd love u more Mr Zulfadhli!Apparently,one of Zul's wishlist in 2001 was Nurhafiza Rosly...who that?Its me!! I guess his mom's doa at Raudhah on this makbul. There goes ur first name, dear Raudhah.Wait,i felt incomplete.Sounds quite tough huh the name?So we picked a few soft-sounded names and settled down with Amani..finally, Raudhah Amani bt Zulfadhli which means taman cita-cita.Indeed,u are our aspiration lil one!

Our first family picture, credit to Shasha :)

Alhamdulillah :-)

p/s: I asked Zul on how did he feel during the labor process..he said, 'sangat mengINSAFkan..' I couldnt agree more :) Mr Zulfadhli, although the damage [koyak] is big, i can stand another 4 rounds of this. Seing ur happy face whenever ur with Raudhah means a lot to me..I LOVE YOU!!

Eight.5

Ahhhh i'm so in love with this blog template! Proud military brat,with pink spread here n there. Nice!

2 weeks since my last visit to the med centre. I went there again, at 3.30pm today. Baba picked me up at the office and off we went to Prince Court. As usual the nurse took my BP reading, check on my weight and last but not least, did the urine test. At first my BP was quite high. No surprise, I was in a rush, to make sure I reach the med centre on time. And with the plus-size body, its becoming more difficult to move around.

A while later, I was called to the the doc's consultation room. As usual, the first question that was asked ; how much did u gain this time? Hehe..I'm so used to this, I laughed and answered i gained 3kg, so my new weight is 102kg! hehe we laughed.

Doc: "nnt husband awk lg kecik drpd awk mcm mane fiza? husband smart handsome je.." [aik??]
Me : "ala xpe doc,sy kan nak pegi London pasni..."
Doc: "oo yeke..bile"
Me : "hmm London Weight Management la doc..."
Doc: gelak menggile ;p

Haha moral of the story, i know i gained a lot but its not a big deal to me. As long as the baby is healthy. I'll find my way to slim down [gile ke nak gomok2...laki aku aska la]

Lil one is in a good shape, alhamdulillah. She is now 34 weeks and 4 days old. 39 days to go. Ok, i freaked out for a moment,realizing that i got less than 40days to get myself a new title...IBU!

Alhamdulillah, everything was fine. What amazes me was her size is a little bit bigger for a 34weeks, closer to 37weeks! During last checkup, her weight was 1859g. Now she has crossed 2kg, 2771g to be specific. Doc screamed when she measures the baby..

Doc: "Baby besar ni Fiza.."
Me : "Erk yeke doc? Sy nak deliver normal. Boleh ke?"
Doc: "Boleh2..kite monitor her progress. If besar sgt then can deliver awal"
Me : "Kalau camtu kite try weekend la doc. Leh my husband join"
Doc: "Sure2..unless baby nak kua earlier la.."

Oh this is such a great news. Zul was excited when i told him about the possibility to plan the birth of our first child. As much as possible, he wants to be involved. If the baby comes out during weekend then Zul would have the chance to be around. I'm touched over his jolly voice. Mudah2an hasrat ini tercapai. Insyaallah.

See u in 2 weeks time lil one :)

Eight

Week 33, 7 weeks to go before the expected due date. Based on my last menstruation date,the arrival of the little one would be on the 5th of MArch 2010. What is 7 weeks compare to 33. But somehow,it seems long! Guess i cant wait for your presence already :)

CHECKUP
Last week, i went for my 7th checkup. For the first time, Zul couldnt make it to the appoinment. Honestly, i didnt expect him to be there for the last 6 checkups. Not that i dont want to. Lets just say that i am familiar with the probability. Nonetheless, i am grateful that u made it til the 6th checkup, thanks dear. This month,bama n eya accompanied me to the med centre. Thanks bamaya. And the granny actually went to the consultation room and checkout her descendant on screen. Nice!
Its been 5 weeks since the last checkup. Guess what, i gained 10kg this time! Yup,that sums up to a total of 27kg to date. Oh my...oh my! Doc kept on asking why i gained so much. What can i say, work requires energy so i eat. How can i stay focus if i am hungry,kan? For a while there,i stressed out. If only Zul was around :) But that only lasts until i reached my uncle's house couple of hours later. I started to eat again! Haha

THE DEVELOPMENT
Alhamdulillah,baby is in a good condition. The growth of her body parts is at par,as expected over a 32 weeks. We had a glimpse look over her face. It seems that u love to cover ur face,dont u :) but i can tell that u inherit my nose. Hehe sorry ayah! Oh n yes,its a girl. She now weighs 1859g, 895g heavier from the previous checkup. Alhamdulillah. I am thrilled over her frequent movement,squirming especially at my lower abdomen. Geli..hehe. She would also do her thing when i am on the phone with Zul. Mcm tau2 je tgh ckp dgn ayah :)

Next checkup will be in 2 weeks time. Till then, keep on growing n stay healthy lil one!

Seven

Its been so long since the last entry. Wow,how time flies. To my surprise,i'm actually in my third trimester already. This is my 28th week of pregnancy. Alhamdulillah,everything is good thus far and i hope good ending follows,closing the first chapter of motherhood soon. My second trimester was great. I was able to focus at work and had twice of my first trimester's strength to cope with my enormous deadlines. I had been travelling on business trip to kerteh n kuantan for several times and took charge of presentations and sharing sessions. I also came up with the lyrics and dance steps for our family day performance! Hehe tak padan dgn boyot. The point is,i'm happy for being able to bounce back and make up for anything that falls short during the first trimester,alhamdulillah.

On the other hand,life has been very interesting too. The thought of becoming a parent pulls zul and i closer. As an ever-organised n responsible person, he plans and remind me of what to do n always impress me with his thoughfulness. That reminds me of our first appoinment with our gynea. It was scheduled on saturday. Of all saturdays, its so happen that he was assigned as the duty officer for that week. Knowing the uncertainties,its possibility n the commitment level of my husband, i settled down on the fact that i might have to go to the med centre alone. But instead, zul actually swap his turn and arranged for a day trip to kl, just to be with his wife n pay his duty the next day.

28 weeks of pregnancy has turned me from an atheletic person to a marsmellow lady. I have gained 17kilos to date n i have 12 weeks to go. Nonetheless,i am happy and cheerful..more than i ever was 28 weeks back.

Last week,zul n i went for our monthly checkup.Alhamdulillah everything was ok. Baby is developing well. She now weighs 994g. Thats at par with the growth indicated by my pregnancy book and 149g above baby center's. Dr said that through her observation,we might be having a girl.

We have bought almost everything in lights of the arrival of our little one. To be exact,we started to do our shopping on 7th nov 2009,our way of commemorating our very first anniversary. Girl,ur gonna be wearing white a lot. Nonetheless,we'll make sure that u still look beautiful without pinkish outfit ok :-) I must say that we had successfully practiced prudent spending. U'll be surprised how expensive lil ones' stuffs are.sorry,we didnt buy expensive stroller for u but am sure the one we bought suits the purpose. That leads me to a question, am i a bad mothet if i didnt buy expensive goods for my child?

One thing i love so much is the clothes cabinet/drawer for the baby. The design is simple and it suits the colour of the stuffs in our small bedroom. When we first saw it,the design was perfect. But grey was just not my idea for a baby stuff. I voiced my thought but yeah,we decided to take it jugak. So the promoter went off to get the stock and came back saying,ade colour putih je.yeay!Thats exactly the colour that i had in mind. I was so happy..

Here's how a happy dad-to-be looks when he preparing the room for his new member :)

BEN10! Kurusnye kite time tu kan?

Fixing the cabinet/drawer [whatever u call it] Its fixed! yeay!

The excitement of getting a baby sometimes being challenged by the giving birth facts. Maybe going to antenatal class was not good idea afterall. hehe we chickened out after seing the videos on child birth and not forgotten,the process of getting the epidural in u.aaaaaaa...some things are better left unknown..haha

@ Hospital Pakar Metro, Sg Petani for antenatal class...

12 weeks to go and my feet are swelling badly. At this time,i really2 miss zul. If he's around,he'd love to pamper me with foot massage.

"B, sbr byk2...abg phm b tgh lalui tough time...tmbh pulak abg xde same2 dgn b. hopely b tabah n sentiasa igt Allah. dugaan2 ni nk persiapkn diri b utk jd ibu yg baik"

Thank u for ur love n support.muah!