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September has come to an end. Oh my, how time flies. In couple of days I will be in labour already, Insyaallah. I am so fortunate to have supportive people around me throughout the pregnancy. Baba and mama helped a lot in giving an undivided attention and love to RAZ, especially at this very moment; where limitations deny the will. I owe BaMa so much, sanggup tido lewat teman cucu bermain. Padahal the next day masing2 nak bangun awal to get ready for work. You're the best, BaMa!

On the other hand, the in-laws also contributed in many ways. I have been told by my husband that the air selusuh for my near-labour-consumption is ready. Thank you ayah&mak for the doa.

Also, the backbone behind my motivation and strength, my hope and reason to be thankful for what I have...dearest Zulfadhli Ismail. I am plain zero without you. Thank you for the love and care :) Two hearts together, one love forever. Cant stop loving you hunny! Nak gi honeymoon la yg...hehe

Being a mother of one has changed my perspective about life. Subhanallah, besar nikmatMu. The feeling is just indescribable. RAZ completes us. Now its all about the young one(s). Apa2 pon pikir pasal anak2 dulu. Yes, at times it is tiring to juggle between work and motherhood. But irony, it is fun! Insyaallah lepas ni ayah and adik will join us in our very own home. Semoga Allah permudahkan urusan kita sekeluarga :)



The most hectic 3-month of the year has come to an end. Alhamdulillah. As much as I love my current function, I think its time to move to another portfolio. Now I have to concentrate on the job hand-over process before leaving for maternity. Hang in there adik. Honestly, ibu cant wait to meet you, boy.

Ya Allah, permudahkan urusan kami. Berkatilah usaha kami. Mudah-mudahan hari-hari kami sentiasa dibawah lindungan dan petunjukMu. Amin.

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Am at the medical centre for MGTT test. Took the opportunity to take time-off from work since office is quite empty today. Most of us are involved with the conference at Putrajaya and the meeting with the Union. Perfect, I love quiet office :)

Hmm I gained another 5kg since last check up. That accumulates to 37kg to date. Will I meet the KPI in two weeks time? My limit is 40kg, can I control my weight gain to 3kg only by next check up? We'll see :)

Adik weight is estimated at 3.75kg. This may vary by 500g, between the range of 3.25 to 3.75kg. Hope all is well inside, UFZ. You have not engaged and ready for labour just yet. Hang in there, give ibu 2 weeks ok. Job hand-over is in progress.

Come this weekend, 2 weeks ayah tak balik. Take care dear. We miss you :)

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Little mechanic

This is what the ex-CO would lable as 'anak mechanical engineering'. Off all the toys ibu and ayah bought for you, this kind of activity excites you more ye Raudhah? You and ayah would make a good team! Makin besar, makin nampak that your traits are keen toward ayah's. Ok, atleast taklah malas baca buku 'trick-full' macam ibu ;p

Well, does this qualify for a new laptop for ibu, ayah?

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Feeling lucky

Happy 19 months RAZ! Alhamdulillah, may you grow with good health, endless happiness and filled with love by people around you. Insyaallah. Ibu is so proud of her good girl! :)
Lucky = for having a daughter like you :)

Yesterday, the pelvic pressure striked again. It was crampy, or similar to menstrual cramps experienced by some ladies. This time, I had difficulty to even move my legs. And leaning on right or left side of the body is just not possible as it will only increases the pressure at 'down under'. Oh my, I did not experience such strong pressure during my 1st pregnancy. So, I got panic for a while, to the extent that I got up from bed, get my lumix's battery charged and memory card empty ;p But I knew labour just won't take place last nite; there was no contraction. Just strong pressure. Well, there goes my beautiful sleep :D Optimist, baby is coming soon, sleepless nights may make a come-back.

I went to work today feeling terrible. My steps were just too slow to 'compliment' the pain. Oh, but I managed to get myself a chocolate-strawberry waffle for breakfast, yummy! Thought of dropping by the hospital for a quick check. But the doc said its normal. So lets just hang in there ok ibu.
Lucky = to have some time to do work-handover

Today, the company hosted its annual Raya celebration. This year, it was held at the Corus Hotel, very near to KLCC. At a very last minute, I decided to go to the event. Left office at 3pm with a pregnant-friend, with a mission to enjoy good food :D Well food was ok. Bonus, I won the lucky draw. Dapat rice cooker Elba. Macam tau2 je nak masuk rumah nnt :) and our department got the consolation prize for kad raya design contest. Ok la. As always, the doorgift is interesting. Toiletries bag suitable for traveling purposes. Yeay!
Lucky = rice cooker for ibu + toiletries bag for ayah

I feel so lucky today, Alhamdulillah.

Ayah kate ibu cun in the picture below. Hehe si gembol naik kembang! ;p

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:)

Rindunyeeeee

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You, weekend and I

10.09.11, both ibu and RAZ had our checkup at PCMC. Alhamdulillah, ayah was able to come home and accompany his girls. I just could not imagine chasing RAZ around the Woman & Child department alone without Zul's assistance. She enjoys her trip to the medical centre. Running here and there, make friend with older kids, invading the play room, are among the must do and expected of her. Well, at this moment ibu is torn between chasing RAZ and managing the 'havoc' UFZ is making inside. Thank you for being around, dear husband :) My heart melts whenever I see the father-daughter bond. An evidence of how distance just make love grow stronger. Ayah balik once a while tp anak still recognize. Syukur.






WEEK 33
I gained another 5kg, accumulated to 32kg to date ;D I give myself another 8kg max. Let's not exceed the baseline weight ok ibu.

UFZ made a tremendous progress. 'Fiza, baby is big'. The same statement from the same doc back then, when I was pregnant with RAZ. Usually the development is at most 2 weeks ahead. Surprisingly, since last checkup 3 weeks back, UFZ is now 4 weeks ahead of his 'age'. I was supposed to be in my 33rd week when the reading in the screen shows 37! Oh my, ibu byk makan planta kot adik? Baby weight was estimated at 3.2kg. Hmm I did not know how to react. If I compare the progress with RAZ's record, her weight at 34th week was 2.8kg. RAZ was born at 38th week weighing 4kg. So whats next? Since baby has not engaged and has not reached his full term, doc suggested that ibu come again in 3 weeks for next assessment. The decision will be made then. Let's pray for the best. Insyaallah, dgn izinNya.





A beautiful weekend with my favourite company; my bestfriends, my love...my ZI, RAZ and UFZ :) besar nikmatMu, Alhamdulillah.

Hmm kaki dah bengkak. Teruk kan?

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Revenge

These two days have been stressful. It is the time of the year; the annual budget review for financial year 2012. This is my second year leading the budget team of HR division. The budget review started yesterday and having the portfolio closest to one's heart, HR was given the limelight to present first before the other business core divisions. Great. And in the absence of my immediate superior, the GM entrusted me to deliver the presentation. Wait, the management committee members were there and the MD/CEO chaired the meeting. Wow.

Manpower cost and operating expenditure budget are expected to increase in next FY. Frankly, my superior and I have predicted that the alarming cost will attract much concern. True enough, to the extent that at one point the MD/CEO said 'I am not comfortable to present this to the Board. I am not going in. You present this to the Board, Jaja'. *Glurppp* How would you feel if you were in my shoes? Suddenly the huge body felt sooo tiny, almost invisible infront of the bosses of the company. So we had to re-present the budget this morning.

Being a subsidiary company, there are costs that are cascaded by the mother company for the initiatives conducted for the groupwide. It is like a 'given' instruction. So we had to budget for the expenses whether we like it or not. And for having to be questioned over something beyond my control, it was the most depressing 60minutes of my life!

Went back to my workstation and summarized everything in 2 slides to address the concern raised during the meeting.

14.09.2011 is my victory day. 'This is clearer. Kalau u present macam ni semalam kan senang Jaja..' I just nodded and smiled. Hey, the previous slides were presented to my manager and GM way way before the budget review. So the lesson is not solely mine to digest :P I guess it is better for the MD/CEO to nag me rather than my manager or GM. If not, diorang lagi malu. Atleast I am just a 4-year-experienced executive. Telan je la labu.

The presentation last for only 5 minutes. Not long after leaving the meeting room, I received an sms from the Finance Executive. 'Jaja, can u email the softcopy of ur waterfall chart. MD/CEO wants every division to follow HR's slides :)'

I got my revenge. Senyum sampai telinga! At the end of the day, the hardwork paid off. I think I should frame the waterfall chart, the victory. What say u? Haha

One thing for sure, I understand it is not easy to assume an MD/CEO position. As much as how depressing it was during the first day, I tried to remain optimist about the challenge. Sengih je, apa susah ;p

Alhamdulillah :)

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Merah

Coincidence...tiga beranak berbaju merah malam ni. Rumah sukan ibu back then, masa mula-mula in relationship with ayah :) ibu merah (Zuhal) while ayah kuning (Musytari). Merah kuning=Selangor=hometown kami. Teringat kenangan di sekolah. During one of the afternoon prep sessions, ibu pakai bj sukan rumah kuning sbb bj ibu basuh. So pinjam kawan punye. Bile sampai kelas tgk ayah pulak pakai bj sukan rumah merah...ehh???? Hehe senyum malu-malu dibuatnya. Memories pull the tie stronger. Once a while kene refresh the memories so that rs sayang semakin kuat. Tambah lg dah nak masuk 2 org anak kan? :) mudah-mudahan kasih sayang ini terus jd milik kita.




From my observation, whenever husband is home, during bedtime our girl always has the tendancy to be closer to her ayah. Even if ayah switch side with ibu, she knows where to head for her ayah. Ayah ada bau ke? Nonetheless, seing them together is such a wonderful sight. Sejuk hati ibu :) alhamdulillah..

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Huge isnt it? Hehe ibu yg membesar lebih ni ;p cant wait for the next checkup this Saturday. Hope ur doing well inside there UFZ :) Insyaallah...



A snapshot of UFZ at his 25th week. Ada rupa RAZ. Syukur alhamdulillah :)

Ramai kata RAZ mcm ayah. Agaknya UFZ ikut siapa ye :)

Semoga urusan kelahiran anak ini dipermudahkan dan baik kesudahannya. Amin...

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Nightale

Oh what a night. Tired. Exhausted. On top of all, trying to maintain the composure despite the challenges faced. Hey, this is life :)

Asthma strikes again. Weezing chest, difficult to breathe. Poor baba. We brought him to Sg Buloh hospital for treatment. Reached there around 10pm. The crowd was quite big. Luckily asthma patient gets the priority. No queue, straight to the specific room for asthma treatment. Alhamdulillah everything was ok. We arrived home around 12.30am. Yes, this 100kilo pregnant lady is exhausted. Nonetheless, a daughter has to do what a daughter has to do. Especially for the one-of-a-kind father. Syukur, he felt better...much better.

Adding on to that, my patience was again tested as I was about to go to sleep. My love Raudhah Amani suddenly throwed up on the bed. Oh noooo. This only means that a little bit more 'work' is required before calling the night off. Sheeesh. Angry? Amazingly, not! So there goes the cleaning work before bedtime.

Boleh ke nak marah? Comel je muka tu :)

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Kumohon

Every cloud has a silver lining. Setiap perbuatan yang baik, ada ganjaran yang menanti.

Ya Allah andai layak ganjaran itu buatku, doaku agar Kau kurniakan yang terbaik untuk suami dan anak-anakku; kesihatan yang baik, ketenangan hati dan kesempatan untuk terus berada di landas yang benar. Amin.. :)

Love is all I have for you, sayangs.

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Syawal 1, 1432H

1) Alhamdulillah, tiga beranak bulat-bulat tahun ni :)

2) Alhamdulillah, ibu puasa penuh tahun ni

3) Alhamdulillah, ayah cuti 1st phase lagi tahun ni

Besar nikmatMu Ya Allah...syukur alhamdulillah

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cousins :)

Hey, it is Raya's eve and I am in the office...practically not doing anything for the past 1 hour :P sheeesh!

Came across this picture of my cousin and I, carrying our baby girl during my brother's engagement. Hehe the mothers are smiling while the little girls masaaammm je.. panas eh girls? :) picture was taken almost a year back..how time flies!

.Ibu.Raudhah Amani.Mama.Inara.

Talking about Raya, I guess this year we will miss these moments (refer the pictures below). It's daddies turn this year. Takpe, next year Insyaallah Umar pon join :)

With PakLong's family..the closest family we have

Raudhah Amani and her cousin, Inara

p/s: Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir & Batin :)

Ramadhan, 27th

Subhanallah, time flies. It has been 27 days of fasting. Alhamdulillah, so far I have not missed a day. Hopefully my wish to fast for the whole month is possible. Insyaallah :)

Husband is already at home. Bliss, having him around together with the little one. Today, just like any other Saturdays, its spring cleaning day! This is the day when I do the laundry, arrange folded clothes into the cupboard, clean the room and paying more attention to the little one. Honestly, work has been so demanding, a lot of thinking and energy-consuming activities were carried out during the day. That left me with a tired mind and body, to continue the remaining hours of the day with the girl who is so attached to her ibu :) ibu felt really bad for having to let grandma took care of you, especially when fatique came into picture. Cant help it. Soon, ibu wont be able to carry you as often. Ibu's tummy is getting bigger and so do you cik Raudhah Amani. But ibu promise, ibu will cuddle you everyday...ibu loves you so much :)

I look forward to the celebration, to spend time with my sweet little family, visit relatives and catching up on life, take pictures and of course I cant wait to enjoy delicious food!! Oh ayam masak merah, rendang, kuah kacang and kuah lodeh!! Slurrrrpppp :D

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Simple wish

I am a very simple person. Do not hurt my feelings and we will tag along just fine. Yes, I seem rough as far as appearance is concerned. Deep down inside, I am soft as silk! I do not wish for anything more. But what if there is more? Then, its a bonus. Get it? Appreciate before you loose it. Maybe not today or tomorrow. But definitely, someday it will...

Missing u

I miss u...terribly. I remember during our recent date, u said "Cara Ja pandang abg still sama mcm masa bercinta dulu..." and u smiled. Bliss. It has been 10++ wonderful years. I still love u, in fact more than I used to back then. Oh jiwang pulak. I miss the school days when I get to see u everyday. I miss the time when I patiently waited for ur phone call every Wednesday (although most of the time it didnt happen). I miss the time when I picked u up at ATMA along with old newspapers and went to recycle center before going out for a date. I miss my 5.45pm bus trips to Sg Petani every Friday evening, 4 to 5 hour journey just to soend time with u during the weekends. I miss my bestfriend, my love, my husband.

Thank God, ur miniature is around to accompany. Tak payah mintak, she'll hug and kiss me sincerely.



I just cant stop loving u, ZI!

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30

Alhamdulillah...my pregnancy has reached its 30th week. Went for monthly checkup this morning. Alone, without ZI and RAZ along. Felt different, nonetheless its ok. Its time to 'meet' UFZ and know his progress.

Alhamdulillah, at 30weeks UFZ weighs 1.85kg. I browsed through RAZ's red book. Coincidentally, during one of the checkups, RAZ weighed the same, at her 32nd week :) Doc SSS (the coolest gynae ever) projected that UFZ will weigh more than RAZ. She estimated RAZ to weigh around 3.8kg at birth, when the actual weigh was 4.0kg. This time, lets just wait and see. I just hope that SVD is possible, insyaallah.

My energy has slowly geared down nowadays. I am heavy, so I get tired easily. Despite this, I still managed to do some shopping for raya and daily use. Hehe go go ibu! Last Thursday, I had the opportunity to drop by at Sogo while waiting for mama to finish work. Shopped few pieces of RAZ's baju raya at the kids department. Guess what, she now wears 3-4y sized apparels (anakku je)! My goodness! I purposely bought bigger size so that can last longer. But turns out the clothes fit her nicely. Hehe same goes to her baju kurung, size 4. Betul anak askar... And what excites me the most was Enfagrow is in stock at Sogo! Yey! Our previous visits failed us with the unavailability of stock, few times not once! I guess Enfa-parents already knew that Sogo offers the best price in the market. RM6 to RM7 cheaper, easily. So I bought 3tins at one go (1.7kg each), without realizing that it was raining outside and forgetting that baba waited for me at Medan MARA..quite a distance walk for a 97kilos. Hehe demi anak :) oh yes, I managed to find baju raya for myself too. Lantakla mcm sarung nangka pun. I must not miss the once a year picture moment with ZI and RAZ. This year's theme; blue (again...ayah taknak bj melayu baru) and brown. Weee

Plus minus, 10weeks to go. I hope my major tasks will be completed way before the due date. Work hard,ibu! :)

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Selesai

Alhamdulillah, he is ok too. August brings hope to the family. May both of you be in good condition,always. Insyaallah, dgn izinNya.

I've fulfilled my promise. In fact today, I joinned one of the parties for iftar at the Intercontinental hotel (formerly known as Nikko Hotel). I was impressed with the capability that these young 'Al-Hafiz' in the making have. The best achievement that the Darul Quran Ittifaqiyah had was to develop a Hafiz within 2 and a half years period. Subhanallah, these kids are gifted with such memory. May Allah protect them from bad influence and keep them on the right track.

I was so fortunate to have the opportunity to meet the resident of Darul Quran Ittifaqiyah. We're like the sky and the ground, living a different way of life. Nonetheless, ustaz Zahid didnot see that as a barrier. And our hope to contribute to the foundation was accepted with much appreciation. Semoga PGB untung besar lg thn ni...Insyaallah. Berkat sumbangan kebajikan dan zakat yg dihulurkan.

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7 days and counting...

Alhamdullillah, it has been 7 days since 1st Ramadhan. Thank God for the blessings; for the opportunity to perform ibadah during this holy month...for the opportunity to reflect on what have we done wrong in the past and continue improving self towards a betterment. I managed to fast these 7 days. Hopefully fasting throughout the remaining days is possible this year, Insyaallah.

Alhamdulillah, the 1st day of Ramadhan brought good news to our family. No surgery is required at the moment, and yes I wish it never will. Follow up checkup in three months time. Insyaallah, Allah bantu kita. Ibu, remember your nazar? Fulfill the nazar soonest possible ok...
Tomorrow, its ayah's turn. Unfortunately ibu will not around to accompany ayah. Hang in there, love. Our prayers will always follow you.

Amazingly, despite of my current condition, I found myself more energetic than ever in this fasting month :) No more sleeping during the day, filled with fun activities and of course homework ;p oppss, the annual budget cycle is here again! My major task before leaving for maternity leave. Hmm come to think about it, both RAZ and UFZ went through the budget cycle with me. Hehe no wonder RAZ loves to inspect my purse! As long as it doesnot involve spending, it is ok hunny :D

Today, the parents had to leave home to attend a funeral at Shah Alam. Al-Fatihah to arwah atok Makman. I had to take care of few things for the husband,so I didnt tag along. And I managed to cook for breakfasting today. Haha simple and yet, delicious! Seriously ;p I guess this is what happen when you cook with love *wink wink* Actually, the motivation behind this was the husband. It happens that my neighbour is going to Zul's place tomorrow. So here's sambal ikan bilis for you sayang! :D

Plus, my cooking needs practice. Look forward to my own kitchen soon :)

Sardin masak kicap.Sawi carrot sos tiram.Sambal berlada ikan bilis

Rindu

Gosh...boyfriend, i miss u. So so badly :(

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