Fond Farewell for a Leader

9th February 2010 at PETRONAS Twin Towers around 6pm.

Thank you Tan Sri Hassan Marican :) Simply, a great leader.

Nine.2

So close yet so far. That’s how I feel at the moment. Part of me wants baby to continue growing inside my tummy until perfectly 'fit' to launch while the other part hopes that labor will take place earlier than 5th march 2010. I now weigh 104kg. Seriously, heavy. Am not groaning over this blessing, don’t get me wrong. Am happy to carry this precious around. It’s more of the excitement of having u before my eyes, to hold and cuddle, oh I cant wait! Even ayah voiced his thought today, 'Deliver ms CNY xleh ke?' hehe.

Alhamdulillah all is well this week. Baby weighs 3773g, +-500g. So it’s roughly between 3.2 to 3.7kg. Ok kot? Doc's concern is more on her head and leg measurements. Both show the size of a 40 weeks! But since she hasn’t engage to the desirable position for labor, doc decided to give it another 2 weeks before making a call. I really hope she'll 'come down' by then. I definitely don’t want to undergo c-sect. Ok, ibu gotta do lots of walking for that

On the other note, I somehow found myself to online shopping. Oh my, I had no idea that it is so appealing! Rs mcm semua nak! Hehe to begin with, I ordered myself a nursing poncho. Surveyed few brands around kl but can’t seem to concur with the colour and design. After browsing through the online stores, I settled down with Fabulous Mom's nursing poncho. The delivery came a bit late, only 10 days after the order being made. But its ok, janji dapat

Wishlist

Friends have been asking on my wishlist for baby gifts. Honestly I dont have one! I've been eyeing and this for a long time. But its so expensive that I will only go and get it once I get my kutu. My niece also has one. Maybe I should seek my cousin's review on this product. Hmm..

Source

Meet Aunty Roe

Alhamdulillah, many loves u dearie. Last friday, we had heavy breakfast. A piece of NZ's roti telur, piece and a half of roti kosong and nasi lemak ayam, sponsored by caring officemates. They fed me with the same thing in mind,my baby :-) syukur. Wow, what a happy tummy!

Zul and I were touched. Baby got her first gift last wednesday. It was from a colleague at different operating unit, Roe. To see a greeting card and a purple-ly wrapped gift on ur desk after lunch break was so exciting indeed! its so special, that i wanted to capture it here, at my humble blog :-)

Thank you Roe!

The long weekend

Weekend is the most awaited, exciting part of the week. Especially to those who work. Its the time to celebrate and reward the effort being put on throughout the 5days of hardwork. Phew~ I used to love weekend so much but not anymore. It was the time for me to meet the husband, chill out and re-energize. Despite the long hours of traveling, its all worth it. The moment I lay my eyes on u, the hectic just went away :) Traveling up north every Friday had been my routine for the first 6 months of our
marriage. And it was fun! The next few months were the beginning of a new chapter of our life ;p

Now, I do not enjoy long weekend anymore. I tend to become bored and tired of not doing anything at home. Movement has its limitation nowadays. Even if I go out, it will not be as exciting as before. So I rather go to office and focus on my work, seriously. Do I sound pethatic? But of course I didnt. Heh...

Zul didnot come home this weekend. Gosh I miss u. Hope all is well overthere. Insyaallah. My prayer is always for the good to follow ur way.

My long weekend was occupied with the activities of cleaning the room, doing my laundry, shopping at the newly open Tesco at Rawang with family, hijacking lil Inara from her daddy's place to my uncle's house and finally vet through some documents tapau-ed from office. The last one is an accomplishment! Hehe tidak hangat2 tahi ayam disitu.

Mommyhood-preparation wise, I've started to pack my hospital bag. Need to get few things to get it over and done with. Mama bought the jamu and mandian herba mixture to be used during confinement (was quite surprised to know how much it costs). Also, my bengkung is ready! Mama made it for me, with Baba as the mastermind behind it. Oh I'm blessed to have great parents like them. Will i ever be one?

On the other note, its just so difficult to find outfit that fits me nowadays. Hope my wardrobe do me a big favor. Fit me for the next 5 weeks please. Maybe Mama can sew me a maxi? Hmm...

Ok I'm bored. Cant wait to get to work tomorrow!

Eight.5

Ahhhh i'm so in love with this blog template! Proud military brat,with pink spread here n there. Nice!

2 weeks since my last visit to the med centre. I went there again, at 3.30pm today. Baba picked me up at the office and off we went to Prince Court. As usual the nurse took my BP reading, check on my weight and last but not least, did the urine test. At first my BP was quite high. No surprise, I was in a rush, to make sure I reach the med centre on time. And with the plus-size body, its becoming more difficult to move around.

A while later, I was called to the the doc's consultation room. As usual, the first question that was asked ; how much did u gain this time? Hehe..I'm so used to this, I laughed and answered i gained 3kg, so my new weight is 102kg! hehe we laughed.

Doc: "nnt husband awk lg kecik drpd awk mcm mane fiza? husband smart handsome je.." [aik??]
Me : "ala xpe doc,sy kan nak pegi London pasni..."
Doc: "oo yeke..bile"
Me : "hmm London Weight Management la doc..."
Doc: gelak menggile ;p

Haha moral of the story, i know i gained a lot but its not a big deal to me. As long as the baby is healthy. I'll find my way to slim down [gile ke nak gomok2...laki aku aska la]

Lil one is in a good shape, alhamdulillah. She is now 34 weeks and 4 days old. 39 days to go. Ok, i freaked out for a moment,realizing that i got less than 40days to get myself a new title...IBU!

Alhamdulillah, everything was fine. What amazes me was her size is a little bit bigger for a 34weeks, closer to 37weeks! During last checkup, her weight was 1859g. Now she has crossed 2kg, 2771g to be specific. Doc screamed when she measures the baby..

Doc: "Baby besar ni Fiza.."
Me : "Erk yeke doc? Sy nak deliver normal. Boleh ke?"
Doc: "Boleh2..kite monitor her progress. If besar sgt then can deliver awal"
Me : "Kalau camtu kite try weekend la doc. Leh my husband join"
Doc: "Sure2..unless baby nak kua earlier la.."

Oh this is such a great news. Zul was excited when i told him about the possibility to plan the birth of our first child. As much as possible, he wants to be involved. If the baby comes out during weekend then Zul would have the chance to be around. I'm touched over his jolly voice. Mudah2an hasrat ini tercapai. Insyaallah.

See u in 2 weeks time lil one :)

Eight

Week 33, 7 weeks to go before the expected due date. Based on my last menstruation date,the arrival of the little one would be on the 5th of MArch 2010. What is 7 weeks compare to 33. But somehow,it seems long! Guess i cant wait for your presence already :)

CHECKUP
Last week, i went for my 7th checkup. For the first time, Zul couldnt make it to the appoinment. Honestly, i didnt expect him to be there for the last 6 checkups. Not that i dont want to. Lets just say that i am familiar with the probability. Nonetheless, i am grateful that u made it til the 6th checkup, thanks dear. This month,bama n eya accompanied me to the med centre. Thanks bamaya. And the granny actually went to the consultation room and checkout her descendant on screen. Nice!
Its been 5 weeks since the last checkup. Guess what, i gained 10kg this time! Yup,that sums up to a total of 27kg to date. Oh my...oh my! Doc kept on asking why i gained so much. What can i say, work requires energy so i eat. How can i stay focus if i am hungry,kan? For a while there,i stressed out. If only Zul was around :) But that only lasts until i reached my uncle's house couple of hours later. I started to eat again! Haha

THE DEVELOPMENT
Alhamdulillah,baby is in a good condition. The growth of her body parts is at par,as expected over a 32 weeks. We had a glimpse look over her face. It seems that u love to cover ur face,dont u :) but i can tell that u inherit my nose. Hehe sorry ayah! Oh n yes,its a girl. She now weighs 1859g, 895g heavier from the previous checkup. Alhamdulillah. I am thrilled over her frequent movement,squirming especially at my lower abdomen. Geli..hehe. She would also do her thing when i am on the phone with Zul. Mcm tau2 je tgh ckp dgn ayah :)

Next checkup will be in 2 weeks time. Till then, keep on growing n stay healthy lil one!

Happy Birthday syg!

Happy birthday yg!

My wish is always for the best to follow ur way..

Be it in career, health, family and in every way..

Yes, it may not be easy as what the tv portrays,

But we shall not give in dear,come what may,

I luv u so much dear, may Allah answers my prayer someday..

For us to live together, and that everything would b ok..

Get well soon syg,

No matter what, i'm here to stay..

How can i not miss you? Look at that face :)

Life is a test ground to mankind. Some are fortunate while some are not. The tests come in different ways. One thing for sure, Allah hanya turunkan ujian yg dia tahu kita mampu hadapi. Dan yakinlah bahawa setiap ujian itu ada hikmahnye.

I'm blessed to have you as a partner, to love and hold through bright and rainy days. Cant stop loving you! :)

My favourite pastime [hehe...i wish!]

Yes, I read, occasionally ;p

Last week, an officemate dropped by at my place with a book in her hand. 'This is the best pregnancy book i've ever read. Kelakar gile', she claimed, passes the book to me and left. Somehow,being pregnant simply means that u gonna get (some if not more) attention from people around u. Seriously, i'm flattered. Usually as a new comer to an organisation, acceptance from the fraternity may become an issue. This perfectly suits my case; from the policy maker office to implementer's. Although i've switched hat, the perceptions people had on my previous role remain. Well,that doesnt stop me from being nice. But mind u,i can be ur worst nightmare if u poke the wrong button.

Back to the book. Hillarious, straight to the point and reveals the most honest facts about pregnancy. Honest, thats the keyword. I was able to relate myself very well with what being shared by the author, Jenny McCarthy. Especially on gas problem, huge ass and the concern over 'poo-poo'ing during labor! And yes, it is not to get pregnant, to begin with. Not like what s** education taught us. McCarthy put her thoughts in simple words and used catchy title for each chapter in her 170-pager book. A must read, yes i agree! So ladies, go and get hold of this book soon! Reading is never my piece of meal, but i read the entire book, now u get the idea how interesting it is already?

Sharing is caring :)

Belly Laughs: The Naked Truth About Pregnancy and Childbirth

Seven

Its been so long since the last entry. Wow,how time flies. To my surprise,i'm actually in my third trimester already. This is my 28th week of pregnancy. Alhamdulillah,everything is good thus far and i hope good ending follows,closing the first chapter of motherhood soon. My second trimester was great. I was able to focus at work and had twice of my first trimester's strength to cope with my enormous deadlines. I had been travelling on business trip to kerteh n kuantan for several times and took charge of presentations and sharing sessions. I also came up with the lyrics and dance steps for our family day performance! Hehe tak padan dgn boyot. The point is,i'm happy for being able to bounce back and make up for anything that falls short during the first trimester,alhamdulillah.

On the other hand,life has been very interesting too. The thought of becoming a parent pulls zul and i closer. As an ever-organised n responsible person, he plans and remind me of what to do n always impress me with his thoughfulness. That reminds me of our first appoinment with our gynea. It was scheduled on saturday. Of all saturdays, its so happen that he was assigned as the duty officer for that week. Knowing the uncertainties,its possibility n the commitment level of my husband, i settled down on the fact that i might have to go to the med centre alone. But instead, zul actually swap his turn and arranged for a day trip to kl, just to be with his wife n pay his duty the next day.

28 weeks of pregnancy has turned me from an atheletic person to a marsmellow lady. I have gained 17kilos to date n i have 12 weeks to go. Nonetheless,i am happy and cheerful..more than i ever was 28 weeks back.

Last week,zul n i went for our monthly checkup.Alhamdulillah everything was ok. Baby is developing well. She now weighs 994g. Thats at par with the growth indicated by my pregnancy book and 149g above baby center's. Dr said that through her observation,we might be having a girl.

We have bought almost everything in lights of the arrival of our little one. To be exact,we started to do our shopping on 7th nov 2009,our way of commemorating our very first anniversary. Girl,ur gonna be wearing white a lot. Nonetheless,we'll make sure that u still look beautiful without pinkish outfit ok :-) I must say that we had successfully practiced prudent spending. U'll be surprised how expensive lil ones' stuffs are.sorry,we didnt buy expensive stroller for u but am sure the one we bought suits the purpose. That leads me to a question, am i a bad mothet if i didnt buy expensive goods for my child?

One thing i love so much is the clothes cabinet/drawer for the baby. The design is simple and it suits the colour of the stuffs in our small bedroom. When we first saw it,the design was perfect. But grey was just not my idea for a baby stuff. I voiced my thought but yeah,we decided to take it jugak. So the promoter went off to get the stock and came back saying,ade colour putih je.yeay!Thats exactly the colour that i had in mind. I was so happy..

Here's how a happy dad-to-be looks when he preparing the room for his new member :)

BEN10! Kurusnye kite time tu kan?

Fixing the cabinet/drawer [whatever u call it] Its fixed! yeay!

The excitement of getting a baby sometimes being challenged by the giving birth facts. Maybe going to antenatal class was not good idea afterall. hehe we chickened out after seing the videos on child birth and not forgotten,the process of getting the epidural in u.aaaaaaa...some things are better left unknown..haha

@ Hospital Pakar Metro, Sg Petani for antenatal class...

12 weeks to go and my feet are swelling badly. At this time,i really2 miss zul. If he's around,he'd love to pamper me with foot massage.

"B, sbr byk2...abg phm b tgh lalui tough time...tmbh pulak abg xde same2 dgn b. hopely b tabah n sentiasa igt Allah. dugaan2 ni nk persiapkn diri b utk jd ibu yg baik"

Thank u for ur love n support.muah!

Love note

Our marriage marks its first anniversary today. Alhamdulillah,wow how time flies! It feels like only yesterday we tied the knot, celebrating our love in a simple yet adorable ceremony. I still can recall how calm u looked that day...and how happy i was,waiting for the moment to be pronounced as a wife to my dream guy, Zulfadhli Ismail.

It feels so easy to bound to a commitment with u. And as u feel the same way,it doubles my happiness. Yes,i'm grateful for this blessing. Its not easy to be away from ur other half most of the time. Nonetheless,its irony how distance pulled us together...stronger and happier each day. Syukur,alhamdulillah.

Distance has brought us to a long journey, to where we are today. How we appreciate every miliseconds that we spent and make the best out of it. Ur philosophy n mine are intact. Dear, I love u so much :-)

Yes,many think that i am a tough lady. But i do cry at times. Especially when i reflect on how blessed i am to have u. Thank u for making me feel so special.

This relationship means a world to me n u. Until the next anniversary, two hearts together, one love forever...

First raya together

Ramadhan ends and now comes Syawal. Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all. This year, we celebrated raya at my in-laws’ place, Sepang. Unlike last year, this year Zul had the chance to come home early for the celebration. The given leave from 17th until 22nd of September allows us to experience the preparation phase and also the first day of raya together. Alhamdulillah, this year we had the chance to take on our lemang raya project just like what we had during our lover dovey days, in 2006 and 2007. We made 100 of lemangs, with supply of buluh from a loyal provider, brader lobai at sg besi [askar jugak ni ;p]

The lemang project was headed by Mr Husband. Even ayah turun padang to help with the kayu api. As a result, this project brought the siblings together and offered the opportunity to learn and experience the not-so-common, alienated skills today.

Interesting =)

.The prep work.

Well, here goes our raya pics. Em takde gamba belah Bukit Beruntung pon. Maybe next year dgn ahli baru? ;p

.The family line-ups.

Zul&Jaja

=)

3 days to go before Raya strikes its excitement. I am at the office, not feeling so good. This headache has been bugging me since I woke up this morning. Oh my. I just can’t focus. As my new job involves lots of reading, it hits me bad!

So I find my way to this blog of mine, which has been neglected for months now. Why? Coz I’ve been keeping a secret from many. And perhaps now is not a bad time to tell and share…

The beginning

It was Monday, 20 days after my birthday. I just came back to office from awesome yet challenging days of Karnival Keluarga PETRONAS 2009. My instinct was trying to tell me something that morning. The incident we had last Saturday suddenly became a big issue to me. [Zul arranged for a quick meet-up with colleagues of him at Bukit Beruntung exit. He needed a favor from them. As a return, we tapau KFC, all the way from Rawang and waited for them to arrive. So we had the KFC with us along the way. The car didn’t smell like a car no more. Yup, the smell of fried chicken was all over the space and it drove me crazy! As we reached the parking bay near the exit, I immediately got out and throw-up. Uikss..]

I started to feel uneasy. At 10.00am, I rushed to the pharmacy to get myself the toolkit that used to be a MUST have. As soon as I reached the office, I made the attempt to undergo the ‘examination’. And to my surprise, the additional line that never made an appearance before made its debut! OMG, it’s positive! I became nervous. I don’t know how to react! Immediately, I called Mr Husband to join me in the ‘surprising land’.

“Kak, saya mesti pergi klinik sekarang!”, I told my subordinate. Off I was to TTMC. I explained the situation to the doctor, had a urine test and again, amused by the answer she gave…”Congratulations, you are pregnant.” How did I take it? Let see, that means, I was pregnant when I represented Gas Business netball team during KKP? I was and still SPEECHLESS.

That was on 29th June 2009

Days and weeks after

I was in denial during the early days. Reason being, just like other newly weds, I wished to get pregnant soon after the big day. So I hope, and hope until one day, I stopped. I always believe that to have baby is a dream come true. I always wanted to have babies. But when the day came, I was stunt. Stunt of the responsibilities and changes that await!

Alhamdulillah, the idea of becoming a mummy soon slowly blends into my mind. It was not easy to face the early pregnancy moments alone, with Zul away most of the time. But syukur, everything went well. I couldn’t have made it without the support from people around me. Now, I am in week 16 and just ‘recover’ from a challenging morning sickness. Fuh~

The baby is still small to react to daddy’s touch or voice. At this moment, she’s just 10cm long. Tremendous development since I first met her at 8.9mm! That was at week 6. Zul raised his thought to me. It seems that the baby reacted to Zul’s presence in different way. He noticed that whenever he’s home/around, my sickness gets worse. I started to get all kind of symptoms whenever Zul is coming home or going back to Sg Petani. Hehe anak ayah, he said :)

Well, raya this year is so meaningful as I get to celebrate it with a husband and a baby inside my tummy. One thing for sure, I don’t look the same. I’m getting chubbier and my tummy is growing bigger!

Haaaa...see my face is so bulat! =)

Quarter of a century young

Today is my birthday! Gosh, dah 25 la...hehe Alhamdulillah. I share the same birthdate with Shanana's and Sal's mother (drop the year eh..hehe). What a coincident! This only tells me one thing, that i'm gonna be a good mother (like Shanana's and Sal's) and perhaps will have good daughters like them :) hehe and no, i'm not yet pregnant :p

Happy 25th Birthday Jaja!

I’m blessed to have a loving husband & family, great friends as a company, and healthy mind and body… May this wealth takes me to a good end and hinders me from being arrogant and immodest…

Alhamdulillah… :)



p/s: thank you for the thoughts and birthday wishes...am blessed to have great friends to keep :)

this time...7 months back

Today our marriage turns seven, months of age. Hehe... How time flies. Words just couldnt express the happiness I felt. I am so lucky to get into Semesta back in year 2000 and meet the love of my life in 2001. Alhamdulillah...

"The greatest thing we'll ever learnt is to love and be loved in return".

Love you dear husband :)


Pictures taken during Ake&Eda's wed at Meru...pengantin-tak-berapa-baru in action!

Ake & Eda’s wedding

They were our schoolmates, way back in the old days at Semesta. One of the pioneer Semesta9701 couples. We were so glad that we had the chance to attend the wedding. Apes called me on Thursday to ask for direction to one of the tamans in Bukit Beruntung. Haha…screw me I don’t have the answer for that. I asked “takde org ke kat situ yg ko boleh tanye?”. “Jaja, lelaki don’t ask for direction”, he responded. “Ego!”, amek ko sebijik. The query followed by the invitation. “Ko tak g wedding Ake ke minggu ni”. So I informed Apes that Zul is around, and we might be able to make it. BUT he has to call Zul himself and let Zul knows. As far as I’m concern, I’m ok with it. Semesta9701 folk has arranged for football match, at 5.00 pm the same day as Ake’s wedding. Nice, an opportunity to meet and catch up with the rest of Semesta9701 species.

The first appearance of ZulJaja to Semesta9701 events! Cool. I almost forget how hilarious semestarians are, especially my batch. This also reflects their value towards friendship…Amazing! After 8 years leaving school, they are still well informed about each other, the bond is in tact. This explains what life has taught them throughout the 5 years in school. Well, it was good to meet you guys. Till we meet again in the next events, Insyaallah :)

The Parade 6th June 2009

Venue : Dataran Merdeka
Mood : Mesmerize by the formality, both actions and appearance.

I left home at 6.45 am that morning and arrived around 7.20 am. The atmosphere at Dataran Merdeka was so inspiring. I like uniforms and love almost everything about army (for some obvious reasons…my husband is one of them that’s why!). I’ve been to their training sessions twice. Yes, they worked hard for the big day. Congratulations, the hard work paid off. Oh my boy(s) is(are) so joining the army. Just like the father! :)

Weddings…

Anis & Ideal 30th May 2009

Tiffany blue wedding. Held at KGPA, this garden wedding is beautiful. Anis and Ideal looked gorgeous together, sama cantik sama padan! Congratulations Anis, happy always!

Shafiq & Mazlina 31st May 2009

Zul and I arrived at the wedding around 4 pm. At that time, the bride and groom were already headed to the next agenda, getting to know the family members. The hall was so beautiful. The maroon-brownish theme was an unusual but classically awesome. Congratulations. Kami dating tunjuk muke je, sorry.

p/s: Fatin off to perform umrah. Gonna miss u babe!

fun Saturday

My weekend last week was fun. After so many weekends spent in SP, last weekend plus the next 2, i'll be in KL. Zul has been assigned to a 2-week task in KL. If all is well, he'll might be joining the parade on 6th June 2009 at Dataran Merdeka, in conjunction with the celebration of Agong's birthday. All the best dear!

Last Saturday was a packed day for us. PGB held its family day for staff stationed at the head office. Location, Sunway Lagoon yeay! How exciting is that! We took part in the sukaneka and 'illegally' made an early-escape to find our way to its wild water slides and other attractions in both wet & dry park. We had so much fun from 8.30 am till 3.30pm. The best thing is, i think i didnt get the expected sunburn this time...save it for KKP09!



Later that day, we headed to my aunt's house at Gombak. We had a wedding invitation at Dewan Perdana Felda that night. Neither Sepang nor Bukit Beruntung is within the desire distance for us to settle down before the ceremony. So we decided to visit my aunt, took a quick break and geared up for the wedding. There, we sat at table 17, together with Kimi & Sha and Norli & Amirul. The hall was so beautiful, i like! Congratulations to Ayol & Amin. Selamat Pengantin Baru.

Before we took off that night, we took a group photo. Amirul&Norli, Sha&Kimi, Zul&Jaja and Ira&Apai. Semua dah kahwin except for Ira & Apai..tak lame lg tu :) Lame gile tak lepak dgn Ira & Fatin...i miss u girls!



Apparently, more and more friends are getting married this weekend. I may make an appearance to Anis's and Peet's wedding. Insyaallah...Congrats to Anis, Peet, Hana and Farah.


p/s: Yes, i gained weight a.k.a fat. so what?

Last Friday, during lunch time, I went for shopping to get a farewell token for Zul’s second man in charge in the battalion. We decided to give something that he and wife can use, something meaningful. At first, I proposed to buy a woodcraft token available at ARCH KLCC. But Zul voiced his concern that it might go to waste, kumpul habuk je. So based on my previous experience being farewell-ed , we settled down with exclusive pen for them! We truly like the idea and we know that Mej Nizam is happy with the gift. Yeay! Regimental dinner was held to celebrate outgoing officers as well as the new comers. But I couldn’t believe myself that we did not take any duo pictures that night! Only group photos, maybe I’ll upload some later.

While the sales lady was preparing the gift, I took a walk around the shopping mall. To my surprise, I met an old friend who at that moment was having her lunch with her officemate. It’s been so long since we talk to each other. The last time we had long conversation was almost a year back, during KKP. And to know that she is getting married soon, we kept on talking, denying the existence of full stop. We talked about hows life changes, with everyone entering new phases in their on ways. For instance, after 6 months, I still couldn’t believe that I’m married! No I’m not living in denial nor able to explain the rationale behind this. You gotta experience it yourself… one thing for sure, personally, the best thing about marriage is when you and partner perform solat together. You’ll feel complete and peaceful; it keeps your inspired and motivated to go through the day.

The old friend, Sal mentioned that she read my entry on the wedding day and highlighted there were no pictures on the wedding held at Zul’s side. Well, here goes…To Sal, I enjoyed talking to you since forever. May the wedding goes very well. You’ll be a good wife, no doubt!

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Jaja & Zul