The first...

The movement to KL-base office officially took effect on 16 January 2012. Alhamdulillah, RA.UF can now see their father more often, if not everyday :) Ibu on the other hand, gets a new traveling partner accompanying to/from work. Yey!

First day

Our traffic experience on the first day was really bad. One that we never put our bet on ever again; to take the old route to work! Woke up extra early that morning. Heated up a bottle of EBM for Umar's first feeding session, packed my breast pump bag and ensure the kids' nursery bag was all in place. Just when we were about to leave the house, it was ready Subuh. After prayer, we sent the kids to the babysitter then off we went to work; around 6.15am.

We reached Pasar Borong Selayang at 6.40-ish am; and the smooth-flow traffic ended! It was awful, bump-to-bump condition for more than half an hour. Even the snail could finish its race faster! I was nervous, gauging whether or not can we arrive at MINDEF before the parade, scheduled at 8 am. My eyes kept on hunting for alternative routes. We just could not afford to stick to Jalan Kuching, not on the day my husband is reporting for duty! A while then I saw our savor, its DUKE! Plan B! No need to send the wife to KLCC, husband gets to be escorted first! Asked husband to switch lane to an escapade to Jalan Semarak. Phewww~

Just could not have enough of you, KL :)

Well, the conflict did not end there. Everybody knows the congestion one is expected to face at the Semarak exit. I knew, husband just won't be able to arrive on time. But it is much closer to MINDEF rather than the originally-planned route. I cannot stop the time. So I had a moment of silence. In my heart, I prayed hard; for His mercy perhaps the test stops there for the day. May the remaining hours of the day be better, especially on the day husband is reporting for duty. I prayed for the best to happen for him. Amin.

We reached his office at 8.05am; the parade was in session. I then left for work. Later that day, on our way back, husband shared his first day's experience. Alhamdulillah, yes the disaster ended at the office gate that morning. Berkat solat Subuh jemaah perhaps?

First week as BWM

Breasstfeedinf. Working Mother...Hectic! Yes, we still live under the same roof with baba and mama. As much as possible, we tried to manage our kids and house chores on our own. Opportunist is not something that we aspire to be, seriously. We know our responsibility but some time, we are glad to accept lending hand(s) from surrounding people. Thank you.

Work is beginning to piling up. It is challenging to cope between work and motherhood, especially with 2 kids to handle. During the weekdays, I will wake up as early as 4.30am, heat up a bottle of EBM, pack my breastpump bag, pack the kids' nursery bag, iron my workdress, take a bath and change the kids' diaper before leaving the house at 6.00am.

Nursery bag(s)

As I arrived at the office around 7.00am, I will go to the pantry and make myself a mug of hot milo then straight away to the mother's room for my first pumping session of the day. Gosh, keeping up with breastfeeding and expressing at work are becoming tougher by the day. I have to express 4 times (3 times at the office and once inside the car, otw back) to get around 18 to 20oz of milk. Now, i am happy if I could at least pump 3 times a day. Ibu is doing my best to keep you breastmilk-fed, dear Umar. So far, the stock in the freezer can last only for 2 days. I hope my breastfeeding journey will go a long way this time. Insyaallah. Dear gadget, work with me aite!

First encounter with distance

Bukit Beruntung to KL is approximately 64km away. About 45 minutes to 1 hour journey. I understand how the husband feel. After 4 years living in the military camp, it must be hard for you to adapt; the day has to start at least 1 hour earlier than others at the MQ and traveling is energy-consuming too. Well that's what yours truly have been facing; back then, during pregnancy, and now as a mother of two. It is always mind over matter. Give yourself some time, Insyaallah you will be fine. Irony, despite of the hectic schedule during the day, I find myself smiling whenever I see my beautiful daughter and son; you keep me going, kids! Alhamdulillah.

I wish everything will fall into place soon. May Allah grant our doa and lend us the strength to cope and adapt with the challenges ahead. Amin...

Hmm

Part of being a mom is about letting go. So here goes :( 

Tomorrow, Umar turns 3 months. For the past 2 nights, Umar had difficulty to sleep. He cried  so loud to the point that I felt stressed out and devastated. What's wrong, boy? Just now, mama threw an idea, "Nak puting kot Ja." Hmm, yes the feeding bottle starter kit I bought recently included a soother for 0-3 months. You didn't want ibu to waste it, might as well give it to you ya Umar?

Fine, as long as you are happy. Ibu hopes that it won't be for long...

Happy 3 months, Umar Faruqi!

 

p/s: Went to clinic last night. Guess how much does Umar weigh? 9kg :)

2011 in a nutshell

Alhamdulillah. All in all it has been a great year. Terima kasih atas rezeki dan nikmat mu Ya Allah. Aku redha akan segala dugaan dan cabaran yang menimpa. Semoga hari-hari kami sentiasa di bawah lindungan dan petunjukmu...

Here are the highlights of my life, in 2011 :)


FEBRUARY 2011 Happy Birthday
Raudhah Amani turned 1 year old on 23.02.2011. Alhamdulillah. Ibu and ayah love you so much, girl!

MARCH 2011 Dream 'vacation'
Alhamdulillah. Thank you to ayah and mak, both Zul and I had the chance to perform umrah from 13-27 March 2011. Alhamdulillah, jejak tanah suci sebelum negara-negara selain Malaysia. It was amazing, penuh rasa syukur dan emosi; menatap Masjid Nabawi dan Kaabah depan mata. Terasa sungguh dekat denganNya. Tenang, walaupun hati berat merindu buahati Raudhah Amani di tanahair dan lemah menempuh fasa awal pregnancy di tempat asing. Ya, cubaan sangat besar buat ibu dan Raudhah. Tapi ini soal ibadah. Dan ibu tahu Raudhah anak yang tabah dan kuat. Setiap masa ibu doakan Raudhah dan Umar yang pada masa tu, masih kecil dalam kandungan ibu. Setiap kali ingat Raudhah, air mata mengalir. Dan untuk Umar, ibu kerap ke kedai beli canned Lychee in syrup buat hilang loya. Terbukti kita mampu laluinya, anak-anak sayang. Alhamdulillah. Ada rezeki, kita pergi satu family Insyaallah.

Terima kasih juga buat suami yang setia bantu isteri ketika itu. Lemah. Tawaf, sae semua perlu ditolak dari belakang. Kalau tidak, kaki longlai memberatkan langkah. Besar pahala abang. Insyaallah.

The end of my breastfeeding journey. After 2 weeks seperated by distance, Raudhah felt that she was big enough and convinced me that she doesn't need to be breast fed anymore. Tup tup (tutup) katanya bila ibu offer nenen :)

MAY 2011 Her first art work
Happy father's day ayah! Raudhah made a simple greeting card for ayah, with a little help from ibu :)



JUNE 2011 A year older
Officially 27 :) I am blessed to have loving family members and great friends to keep. Had few celebrations; at home with family and at the office with dear collegues and friends. Bliss!

OCTOBER 2011 3+1
The family gets bigger this year. Our sweetheart, Umar Faruqi bin Zulfadhli was born on 11.10.11, 20 months after our first child. The kids are getting along just fine. My heart melts seeing them together. Alhamdulillah :)

:)

This is Us

UFZ and RAZ

Got a BB before the baby was born. Thank you husband for the Blackberry, complete with data plan. Loving it to bits! I am now 24-7 connected to the net and can get many things done through phone :D

Nonetheless, I still keep my Samsung Galaxy S. Blogging comes in handy with Bloggeroid; one thing missing from BB world.

NOVEMBER 2011 Home sweet home
The biggest addition to our financial commitment this year onwards. Alhamdulillah, one of my resolutions for 2011 came true. Renovation work is going on at the moment. Hopefully all will turn out well.

messy ;p

Our marriage marks its third year's anniversary. Alhamdulillah. ILU ZI :)

My brother also got married in November. It was a beautiful celebration. I love family gatherings!

DECEMBER 2011 Welcome home
The official order is out. Alhamdulillah, ayah is moving to KL soon. What a beautiful way to end the year. Syukur.

Ayah finally turned 27 three days back. Happy Birthday! Wow, 27 with 2 kids, Alhamdulillah.

Alhamdulillah. May Allah bless us with good health, endless happiness and great achievements in 2012. Insyaallah.

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Rapid KL

Indeed. Time is golden. Especially when linked to development. In the world that we live in now, everything is expected to accelerate; increase or improve towards betterment.

I have been away from KL for 2 months due to maternity. Didn't expect to miss so much of KL and its isi perut :D

After 3 weeks of come back, today my path crossed with rapidKL LRT. Just a short distance; KLCC to Masjid Jamek then Plaza Rakyat. To my surprise, I am not familiar to the new ticketing system! Instead of the usual ticket, now it is in the form of token! Cool, I must say. Besides, the interface and navigation of the touch screen is integrated; for both Putra and STAR LRT. Amazed, experienced, impressed.



P/s: Hope the authority could have a look into the damage done at KLCC. Irresponsible taxi drivers park on the roadside causing unnecessary road block. Tarnish the image of the clan. Hey, my dad owns a taxi too so buzz off, I hate hearing complaints about the job that got me where I am today!

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Fenomena Gerhana Bulan

Dijangka berlaku pada esok malam, bermula sekitar jam 8.45malam dengan kemuncaknya dijangka pada jam 10malam.

Apa itu gerhana bulan? Ianya adalah suau fenomena di mana matahari, bumi dan bulan berada pada satu garis lurus yang sama, sehingga sinar matahari tidak dapat mencapai bulan kerana terhalang oleh bumi.

Ustaz Hanafiah Abdul Razak, Pegawai Falak di Jabatan Mufti Negeri Johor berkongsi di rancangan Al-Kuliyyah hari ini, fenomena gerhana bulan adalah keadaan di mana:
1. Bulan mengadap, hampir dengan bumi
2. Bulan berada di laluan matahari
3. Bumi mendapat cahaya penuh daripada matahari
4. Berlaku di pertengahan bulan, 14 malam 15 Muharram
5. Kekerapan berlaku sehingga 2 kali setahun

Sabda Rasulullah SAW : Sesungguhnya matahari dan bulan adalah tanda dari tanda-tanda kebesaran Allah. Kedua-duanya tidak gerhana disebabkan matinya seseorang atau disebabkan lahirnya. Tetapi kedua-duanya merupakan dua tanda dari tanda-tanda kebesaran Allah menakutkan hamba-hambanya. Apabila engkau melihat perkara tersebut hendaklah engkau solat dan berdoa sehingga gerhana itu hilang pada padangan“. (HR. Bukhari dari Abi Barkah).

Apa yang patut kita lakukan bagi menghayati fenomena ini? Ustaz sarankan ibadah dilakukan bagi mencari keredhaanNya serta dijauhkan dari kemurkaanNya. Amalan yang boleh dilakukan, mudah-mudahan Allah berikan kita kebaikan antaranya:
1. Solat sunat gerhana, sesudah jelas berlakunya gerhana.
2. Beristighfar
3. Berdoa sebanyak mungkin
4. Berinfaq

Hebat sungguh ilmu falak. Tahukah anda bahawa ada pengertian disebalik separuh awal bulan dan separuh akhir bulan dalam ilmu falak? Ustaz berkongsi, dari awal hingga tengah bulan adalah masa untuk mengisi. Manakala daripada tengah ke akhir bulan adalah masa untuk kembali reda. Dua contoh:

1. Kajian menunjukkan jika nelayan beroleh ketam antara awal hingga tengah bulan, isinya penuh. Sebaliknya, bagi tangkapan antara tengah hingga hujung bulan, kosong. Sama kisahnya dengan ikan.

2. Jika seseorang jatuh sakit antara awal hingga tengah bulan, antibodi kuat maka peluang untuk sembuh lebih baik. Sebaliknya, antibodi lemah pada setengah bulan terakhir.

Subhanallah, hebat ilmu falak ini. Sungguh cetek pengetahuan di dada hamba yang 27tahun ini.

Siapa nama?

Siapa nama? Ahmad.. Mau pergi mana? Chemor~

*Iklan tamat*

Alhamdulillah. Umar bangun awal pagi ni. As usual, ibu bawa Umar turun layan Indahnya Iman @ Astro Oasis. Pagi ni kami berkesempatan tonton slot Hadis Pilihan oleh Dato Hassan Din Al Hafiz. Menarik topik pagi ni, sesuai untuk ibu bapa muda seperti kami. Rasanya elok juga capture few points tadi untuk ingatan dan dikongsi bersama, tentang pentingnya nama.

Apa ada pada nama? Kan itu sekadar panggilan saja. Mungkin ada yang fikir begitu. Meleset sama sekali. Permulaan seseorang itu adalah pada namanya. Nama akan mempengaruhi perkembangan fizikal dan mental seseorang. Hebat bukan?

Pada permulaan episod, Dato Hassan Din berkongsi tentang sebuah hadis yang kurang lebih bermaksud begini:

"Nama yang mulia di sisi Allah swt ialah Abdullah dan Abdul Rahman. "

Abdul bermaksud hamba sementara Abdullah bermaksud hamba Allah. Hari ini, jarang sekali kita jumpa anak kecil bernama seperti atas di Malaysia. Kesedaran untuk memberi nama yang baik maknanya meluas, tidak ketinggalan juga yang gemar memberi nama berunsur glamour atau bunyi seperti mat salleh.

Selain Abdullah dan Abdul Rahman, nama yang disukai Allah swt ialah Muhammad, bermaksud yang terpuji.  Diriwayatkan bahawa, sekiranya seorang ayah mempunyai 3 anak lelaki dan tiada satu pun di antaranya bernama Muhammad, maka ayah tersebut adalah jahil. Satu ilmu baru buat saya hari ini. Padanlah dalam 3 orang adik beradik lelaki suami, ada seorang bernama Muhammad Ikhwan. Selebihnya Zulfadhli dan Amal Safwan. Barangkali ayah tahu tentang ini. Tapi ayah tak suarakan pada kami. Mungkin ayah yakin ada cucu lelaki lagi bakal menyusul nanti.

Beri nama yang baik satu. Sudah itu, perlulah juga dipanggil dengan nama yang baik. Ustaz kongsi, seorang yang hebat namanya sempana khalifah Abu Bakar tetapi dipanggil Burn. Rentung. Sempat berseloroh, jika masuk syurga insan ini, hairan penghuni syurga dibuatnya. Satu tamparan buat saya. Kami suami isteri punya nama 'manja' di rumah. Dan selalunya, dipanggil dengan nama itu. Walhal nama sebenar kami sungguh indah maknanya. Zulfadhli: yang mempunyai keistimewaan dan Nurhafiza: cahaya yang memelihara. Pernah sekali saya berbual dengan seorang staff berasal dari Sudan. Borak punya borak masuk bab keluarga. Lantas ditanya siapa nama suami dan anak. Mendengarkan jawapan saya, dia mengucap "Subhanallah, beautiful names. Beautiful family". Saya ingat ketika itu berkongsi dengannya, kalau ada anak lelaki nanti, mungkin akan namakan Salman Al-Farisi. Tapi lepas suami baca kisah Umar Abdul Aziz, teringin betul menamakan anak dalam kandungan saya ketika itu sebagai Umar.

Pada pengamatan saya, mereka yang punya nama lain biasanya mempunyai nama yang panjang. Saya sendiri mempunyai kesulitan menyebut nama sendiri ketika kecil. Nama Jaja itu saya sendiri yang panggil. Datang dari Za di hujung Nurhafiza. Melekat nama Jaja itu sampai beranak pinak. Mujur nama anak-anak berpangkalkan nama dua patah; Raudhah dan Umar. Tiada alasan untuk dipendekkan lagi. Cuma Raudhah, gemar bahasakan dirinya Ada. Insyaallah nanti dah pandai cakap eloklah tu.

Semoga anak-anak kita nanti besar menjadi insan berkeperibadian baik, mengambil berkat nama yang diberi. Insyaallah. Ayah dan ibu ambil ikhtibar daripada perkongsian ini. Alhamdulillah, berkesempatan tambah pengetahuan.

kepunyaan boyfriend suatu ketika dahulu :)

 

P/s: ada staff bernama Abdullah Aiman. Pandai ayahnya pilih. Suka pada nama, bukan orangnya. Harap maklum.

Money sense

The green note. Irony, the more we earn, the more we feel short of it. Insufficient, not enough. So what is the ideal salary do we need? Or it is something that WANTs out ruling the NEEDs?

I hate the fact how the green note influences how we live our life. With the factor of inflation, the value of money drops and resulted in higher cost of living. Oh my. This calls for proper planning and prudent spending especially when you have a family. Now that my family is bigger, I hope we could make do with the household income and live moderately happy if not lavish (kidding-on the lavish part).

$alary

Alhamdulillah. With both husband and wife working, the earning is sufficient. We made few expensive-big steps in 2011. These need fund. I hope to hear great news from the Management soon. And perhaps new salary scheme for the Armed Forces? We could use some extra notes!

$pending

The major spending is dedicated for the kids. The price of formulated milk is increasing day by day. Enfagrow A+ is now costs RM94 for a 1.7kg packing. Same goes to diaper. Even PetPet now costs RM34 per pack. All in all, a sum of RM1.5k is allocated for them beginning January 2012.

A new addition to our expenses is the house we bought. Inclusive renovation cost, the total price is RM200k++. The installment is significant. I wonder how on earth few friends of mine, with salary more or less at par, could afford buying RM450k and above houses. Wow. What a huge commitment! Something I don't feel worth doing. Cheapskate :p And don't see it as investment too. What's the point of it if I could not afford funding the loan. Take calculated risk, do financial standing analysis and decide; my philosophy.

Good news, no more hire purchase installment needed. Both cars are ours, debt free yippie!

Being the eldest in the family, I hope I can continue contributing to the parents. Looking at the current income, with the new house expenses, I can't afford to pay the installment of the parent's house anymore :( I could have if my promotion is on time. However, due to the downfall of my career in 2009, my promotion was delayed to 2013 :(  hopefully Allah murahkan rezeki untuk terus membalas budi baba and mama. I love them so much.

$avings/Investment

Insyaallah the salary deduction will be continued. It is the only way to save up, trust me. No such thing as kalau ada lebih nanti masuk tabung. Sheesh! Kalau ada lebih masuk tabung Mothercare ada la. We don't have a lot. Just sufficient to back up during emergencies.

Insurance for the kids-checked. Unit trust-checked. Monthly deduction-checked. Zakat-checked! And a few other investment products. But on top of all, I am glad that we have EPF. At least later after retirement, source of money is there :) hehe Account 2 has reduced, withdrawed due to the purchase of our-home-sweet-home. Alhamdulillah.

At the end of the month, no extra. Just enough to cover for the necessary. What went wrong? I don't think there is any. Being the eldest, we have commitment to the parents. What we gain, there should be a portion for them. I don't regret for not having to buy expensive clothes or live a lavish life like most of people at the towers do. Cause I believe that I spent portion of it to the right channel, my parents. Insyaallah berkat. And based on my experience, whenever emergency strikes, there is rezeki to drain it away. Berkat restu baba and mama. Alhamdulillah.

P/s: masih dalam mood belanjawan. Moga ada rezeki untuk isi perut rumah.

P/s2: pernah consult AKPK tentang pengurusan kewangan peribadi. 1) 10% of salary should go to savings 2) Benar, credit card is the culprit! Use it wisely. The quote "ukur baju di badan sendiri" says them all. That goes to you too, Jaja!

Tragedi

Dugaan. Benar bagai dikata, malang tak berbau. Sungguhpun kita sebaik mungkin menjaga keselamatan diri, dek silap orang lain, terkena juga tempiasnya. 25 November 2011 tarikh kejadian. Aku bersama suami dan Umar terlibat dengan kemalangan kecil. Kami baik saja. Tapi tertekan jugalah melihatkan kesan di kereta kecilku. Aduh. Mana silapnya. Yang pasti salah pemandu itu, bukan kami. Gagal memastikan jalan lengang sebelum mengundur. Siap leka pandang skrin telefon bimbit berdering. Nah, lihat hasilnya.




Sangka aku bila dah habis bayar pinjaman kereta minda jadi tenang. Meleset. Dugaan lain datang. Mungkin Allah nak bagi rezeki lain.

Sekarang kedua-dua mobil lama-tanpa-hutang kami 'cedera' di bahagian kiri. Civic1995 pon dilanggar jiran depan rumah 2 bulan lepas. Punyalah luas jalan. Bawa kancil pulak tu. Ish3. Sebab suaminya tolong baba potong pokok mangga depan rumah, kami anggap ganti rugi langsai.

Satria2003 kita hantar baiki atas kos pemandu cuai itu. Civic1995, ada duit lebih nanti kita baiki ok suami?

P/s: Masih merasakan ekonomi belum di paras lega untuk memiliki mobil baru. Masih selesa bersederhana begini

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Fuh. Home sweet home. Went to clinic to check on Umar just now. Ayah dah di Kuantan. Rasa patah sebelah kaki bila ayah tiada. Bukan manja tetapi belum hebat mengawal dua anak sendirian. Si kakak yang 21 bulan itu sedang melasak. Si adik yang hampir 2 bulan ini perlu dikendong sana sini. Walaupun ibu ala-ala tough, mengah juga dibuatnya memikul adik yang sudah lebih 7 kilo beratnya. Adik sudah 4 hari tak poopoop. Sebentar tadi ujian kemuncak. Adik tak boleh tahan lagi lantas menangis tak henti. Sebak. Dukung sudah, dodoi sudah, sapu minyak yuyi pon sudah namun tak berhasil. Last resort, satu rumah ikut ke klinik. Mujur atuk nenek sayang. Terima kasih BaMa! Alhamdulillah, Umar dah lega. Sedang asyik minum susu ganti tenaga yang hilang. Ibu lebih sepuluh kali ganda lega. Punya anak kecil beginilah. Susah hati bila si manja kurang sihat. Semoga Allah lindungi kalian.

Alhamdulillah anak bujang dah botak. Sempat ayah cukur rambut Umar petang tadi. Umar tegap, jadi ayah yakin nak cukurkan walaupun baru sebulan lebih. Raudhah dulu hanya botak pada usia 4 bulan. Raudhah turut sama tengok proses cukur. Sekali sekala Raudhah gelak. Geli hati barangkali.

RAZ & UFZ :)


Ibu perhati Raudhah lebih ceria akhir-akhir ni. Mungkin sebab ayah ada sama kita, seminggu bercuti. Allah saja tahu betapa senang hati ibu lihat anak mesra dengan ayahnya. Ayah pun pandai ambil hati. Secara tak langsung bantu ibu uruskan anak. Juga dalam urusan rumah yang lain. Terima kasih ayah. Bertuah dapat suami ringan tulang. Lepas ni kembali ke rutin asal. Semoga Allah permudahkan.

Subhanallah indahnya hari-hari bersama kalian. Mudah-mudahan ada rezeki untuk kita terus begini. Bahagia. Alhamdulillah, besar nikmatMu Ya Allah...

P/s: Giat menyusu badan tapi sudah datang bulan. Wah? Am now on IUCD

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Feeding bottle

My favourite ( the only brand I use so far) is MAM. I love MAM anti colic bottles as all parts can be opened and ensure that every inch of the parts is reachable during washing/bottle cleaning time. Walla!

Moreover, it is 'heavy duty'. Raudhah loves to throw away things, including her feeding bottles. So far alhamdulillah dok baling-baling pon boleh pakai elok lagi. Satu masalah je lagi. Tabiat gigit puting datang. Habis berlubang dibuatnya. Ibu terpegun kejap. Satu puting harga RM12 0_o. Kalau bagi puting lain tahu pula tu, reject.

Am thinking if trying Avent's feeding bottle. Is it good? Any reviews?



Assembled bottle ayah's way...this is FUSION. Mujur anak tak confuse ;p

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Birth Cert

Read through UFZ's birth certificate and suddenly it hits me...what?? not fair! 26 vs 27??? But we were born in the same year.




Reality, husband is younger than me by 6 months. I am already 27 while he is still enjoying his 26th.Sorry Umar, it is recorded in your official document that your ibu is older. Sobs. Not fair hunny ( ni namanya takda hal cari hal. But hey, age does matter). On the other hand, I can feel good about it apa. Look at Aidil Zafuan and Rita Rudaini. Kelas akak macam Rita dah ( you seriously need to go to work Ja. Dah macam minah gosip ko ni).

Next babies, let's plan for the EDD to be between January and May. So we can share the same age on the birth certificate ok husband? Dengan izinNya, Insyaallah.

Yikes. Why am I talking about next babies, now? 0_o

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08.11.08

Alhamdulillah..

Two hearts together, one love forever... :)

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4some

The whole family went for UFZ's 1 month checkup last Saturday. First time, all four of us. Bliss. Raudhah loves going to PCMC. The only place where we let her run her heart out, jump here and there and most of all, have fun. Tempat main lagi dikenang, inikan pula tempat tumpah darah ibu ;p I feel safe to let her run and play, as most of the walkway is covered and injury is less expected. Go ahead girl, run. Ayah teman. You are too fast for me :) cair tengok the father-daughter bonding.

Cut story short. Alhamdulillah everything was ok. UFZ got his 1st jab. And he now weighs 6.3kg and is 58cm long. Wow. That was RAZ's size when she was 2 months. Padanla ibu cepat penat sampai stress.

Less than a month to go and I have yet to start stocking up the precious EBM. Ya Allah, limpahkanlah rezeki untuk anakku membesar dengan susu ibunya...

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MQBB

What on earth is it? Well, it is actually a dilemma that we are facing. Married quarters or own house, which is our next destiny?

It is the second week of his attachment program here in KL. So far, looking at the schedule, it is not convenient to commute back and forth, KL-BB, +-60km everyday, especially by a 125cc two-wheeler. Sheesh! So we came into an agreement that he shall come back whenever the changing schedule permits. Ingat dok unit dahsyat rupanya dok HQ lagi hebat.

This situation leads to a road block (ceh macam The Amazing Race pulak :p ) What is next, Jaja1 and Jaja2? Eh apa kau merepek ni labu. Mana ada merepek, kat ATMA orang panggil Zul as Jaja jangan tak tau. Ha sudah, short circuit dibuatnya fikir proposal hala tuju empat beranak. Senang, Yang Dipertua Parlimen sign approval ja nanti ;p hoh baru cuti sebulan dah tulis gaya tak professional. Bikin malu.

This calls for a comparison; cost-benefit analysis for the family. Both MQ and BB have its pros and cons. But at the end of the road, something needs to be sacrificed.

Option A: MQ

1. Distance
Definitely, it is near to workplace for both of us. Traveling is not an issue. Budget for traveling can be reallocated elsewhere.

2. Family bonding
We can see each other everyday, no matter how tight the schedule is. Maybe I can join the badminton session. Jom lawan tengok siapa terer *love*

3. Facilities
Fully furnished, 4 bedroom apartment. Wow. $$$ saver!

4. Babysitter
Can be expensive. Plus, I have problem to spare my trust to strangers. What more to leave my adorable kids to someone I barely knew. RAZ is soo going to playschool. And that costs 50% extra on top of current babysitter fee. How about UFZ? With skill not proven, I am scared to take risk. Baby choked while feeding is my major concern. I loss hope for nursery and afraid to switch babysitter. Yikes!

Option B: BB

1. Distance
60km away from workplace. Traveling seems affordable only by a two-wheeler. But Jaja1 said it is not suitable for Jaja2 to follow him on a 125cc. So Virago vrooom vrooom jom? Once a while, traveling by car is tolerable provided that we take the old route, not the highway.

2. Family bonding
Jaja1 will only be at home for 2 or 3 times during weekdays. Jaja2 will take over household affair.

3. Facilities
All on our own. But hey, atleast we own them instead of on loan :)

4. Babysitter
First class. Not only that they are being looked after but RAZ and UFZ will be loved by opah and family. Worth our RM300! (per person that is). And what's more important is to feel such peace at heart when leaving your kids for work.

So option A or option B? Can you guess which option that I am keen to choose?

Well, until the tansfer is finalized this remains open. Deep down, I really hope that the transfer will be materialized soon. Amin.

P/s: Zul kata "Askar ni sayang bini Ja...". Ja kata, " Of course you guys should. After all the operasi and kursus, kena tinggal lama-lama, bini la dok setia menunggu..." none of us is in a better position. Masing-masing kena sacrifice to work things out. Rindu tu lumrah rumah tangga sekalian milik negara, lebih-lebih lagi si baju hijau. Mudah-mudahan sabar dan setia terus tersemat dalam hati kita. Jangan satu hari, bila dah senang kita lupa pengalaman ini. Lupa siapa yang susah bersama. Lupa betapa hebat dugaan merindu. Nauzubillah, moga dijauhkan dari dugaan begitu. It has been 3 years. Will you tango with me for the next 30 dear Zulfadhli? ILU :)

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The end...isn't it?

I think this is the end of my first laptop :( RAZ did it again, last night. This time, she took out the rubber that hold the keypad and the keyboard together. This laptop means so much to me. A gift from my boyfriend (or ex-boyfriend in present). A gift that allows me to do work in mobile, regardless of location. Heartbreaking. I do not opt for replacement as much as I want u forever, ex-boyfriend. Oh RAZ...

Ex-boyfriend, forgive me will u?

P/s: terpaksalah pinjam toshiba biru if nak buat keje kat rumah, please...

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1 month on a special date

Alhamdulillah UFZ turns 1month today. This means the paid leave is down to 30 days to its end. Part of me, I cant wait to get back to work and start thinking, arguing, analysing and justifying again. Its basically a headache and somehow I am missing it. Gosh, I am not sick do I? ;p

Funny, it has only been 20 months since my last confinement. But it feels like my first. How on earth could I forget how it is like. The weak body, the sleepless nights and the changing baby schedule. Oh my. All I remember is how refreshing the bertungku, urut and mandi air daun were. Ingat pantang ni macam spa ke?

True, every kid is different. Same applies to RAZ and UFZ. UFZ consumes much much more than RAZ. He can still take 3oz of formula after 3oz of EBM and an hour of breastfeeding. Yes, I have loss the battle from day 1. Enfalac has been helping me to cope with UFZ's needs. As long as you grow healthy young boy, bring it on.

The first month has been a sleepless nights galore for me. One day, Umar would wake up at 12am and only went off to sleep at 6am. And on another day, he woke up at 2am and went back to sleep at 6am. But last night, he didnt wake up at all. I guess he knew that I need a break.

During this confinement, I am a bit weak spiritually. I didnt have enough rest that I became stress especially after all the efforts made, Umar still cries. Heartbreaking. It is not easy to juggle between RAZ, UFZ and some of the house chores. But this is what I should expect from today and onwards. So wake up and adapt, Jaja!

Today, I felt terrible for letting the stress took me down. The article below says them all...

BESARNYA PAHALA SEORANG IBU... :')
1. Dua rakaat solat wanita yang hamil lebih... baik dari 80 rakaat solat wanita yang tidak hamil.

2. Wanita yang hamil dapat pahala puasa disiang hari & pahala ibadat di malam hari.

3. Wanita yang bersalin dapat pahala 70 thn solat & puasa serta setiap kesakitan pada satu uratnya, Allah bagi satu pahala haji.

4. Sekiranya wanita meninggal dunia dalam masa 40 hari selepas bersalin ia dikira sebagai mati syahid. …

5. Wanita yang beri minum susu badannya kepad anaknya akan dapat 1 pahala daripada tiap titik susu yang diberikannya.

6. Wanita yang beri minum susu badannya kepada anaknya yang menangis maka Allah beri pahala satu tahun pahala solat & puasa.

7. Kalau wanita menyusui anaknya hingga cukup tempoh 2 setengah tahun, maka malaikat dilangit khabarkan berita bahawa syurga wajib baginya.

8. Seorang ibu yang menghabiskan masa malamnya dengan tidur yang tidak selesa kerana menjaga anaknya yang sakit dapat pahala seperti membebaskan 20 orang hamba.

9. Wanita yang tidak cukup tidur pada malam hari kerana menjaga anaknya yang sakit akan di ampunkan oleh Allah akan seluruh dosanya & bila dia hiburkan hati anaknya Allah beri 12 tahun pahala ibadat.

Subhanallah, besar ganjarannya. 

After reading this, I text the husband, "Habis pahala Ja sebab stress, tak sabar and tak bersyukur :( " Come to think about it, I am human too and no matter how optimist and motivated I am, there are times that I am the otherwise. Bottom-line, I must bounce back and quickly realize that such feelings should not prolonged.

I hope I can improve after this. Insyaallah. Mind over the tired body and mixed emotion.

1 month old UFZ

Happy 1 month, Umar Faruqi :)

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A place called HOME

Alhamdulillah, today the house is officially ours. Now boleh pandang-pandang, boleh pegang-pegang. Takda lah tinjau dari jauh lagi :)

Together you, me, daughter and son, yes? Insyaallah :)

Syukur alhamdulillah...

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The big-spender(sometimes) in me

OK. I am broke until the next pay. Indulged myself with shopping again. But this time, for a noble purpose :) Hope everything turns out great. Insyaallah.

If it is not meant to be...

I accidently spilled my precious milk this morning. 2oz easily. For a mother with low milk supply like yours truly, it is devastating. Well, it is not meant to be ours, UFZ. Perhaps next time...

p/s: Somehow my confidence towards bumblebee storage bottle becomes really really low... be extra careful, ibu!

Tuah...

Kata pepatah; tuah ayam nampak di kaki, tuah kita siapa yang tahu.

24.10.11

Alhamdulillah, tuah kami hari ini 'nampak' pada dua saluran:

1) Maybank2u
Menjadi kebiasaan orang makan gaji, tiap hujung bulan mesti hadap Maybank2u. Jumaat lepas di hospital dah perasan. Eh kenapa banyak pulak amaun masuk bulan ni. Tapi sebab kejarkan appoinment Umar, misi menyiasat tertangguh sampailah hari Sabtu. Godek punya godek, hati terdetik. Kalau tengok amaun yang extra ni, macam tahu apa dia. Tapi takda apa-apa notification pun. Betul ke firasat di hati ni? Eceh. Sempat update hubby, separa excited. Hari Isnin baru boleh cek, hujung minggu pejabat tutup. Buang masa dan tenaga je kalau terlebih proaktif.

Hari ni, pagi-pagi dah call lawyer's office. Boleh pulak puan yang handle file kami tu dah berhenti kerja. Rasanya baru Isnin lepas call dia. Semak punya semak, sah betul jangkaan kami. Amaun extra tu ialah deposit yang kami dulukan untuk beli rumah idaman kami. Alhamdulillah, proses pembelian hampir selesai. Syukur syukur. Nampaknya cuti bersalin ibu bakal bertambah sibuk. Umar sudah tentu fokus utama, selainnya kerja-kerja perangkaan budget 2012 empat beranak dan projek renovasi rumah. Sebelum kerja renovasi rumah bermula, ibu perlu finalize perbelanjaan bulanan keluarga. Baki yang ada bakal tentukan banyak mana yang boleh diubahsuai. Lepas tu, boleh fokus kat design or layout rumah. Ayah dah bagi mandat kat ibu selaku PA berwibawa. Ayah audit saja nanti; apa yang dirancang, berapa peruntukan, cost efficiency dan impact nya. Seronok! Walk in closet satu! Heheeee boleh susun berderet uniform ayah and baju-baju messnite ibu. Eceh. Tak banyak pun. Tapi awas, dah kurus nanti ibu nak baju kurung baru. Itu motivasi. Multipurpose pulak tu. Boleh pakai ke semua majlis. Berbaloi kan? (sebenarnya kain nya dah bersusun dalam almari nenek, tinggal nak tempah). Hehe kantoi. Kalau si perajurit punya strategi pertahanan, si isteri juga perlu bijak berstrategi. Tapi strategi yang baik-baik je, JANJI.

Seronok ya, saspen pun ya. Kos masuk rumah umum tahu tidak murah. Lagi-lagi macam kami yang tinggal tidak sebumbung ni. Banyak barang yang belum ada; perabot, dapur, barangan elektrik, etc. Tapi periuk belanga usah gusar. Hadiah kahwin tiga tahun lepas masih tersusun rapi di stor nenek. Tukang masak saja belum berapa nak pandai. Tapi berdasarkan pengalaman, kalau masak dengan ikhlas dan penuh kasih sayang, ikan bilis berlada pun rasa sungguh mengancam. Insyaallah, sikit-sikit kita usahakan bersama isi perut rumah kita.

Benih pokok kelapa pandan dan pokok mangga jangan lupa. Esok ibu mengidam lagi senang, ayah petik je kat laman nun. Hehe.

Syukur, target 2011 tercapai. Harapnya urusan ubahsuai juga lancar dan dipermudahkan.

2) Blackberry

Lewat petang tadi ayah terima message dari teman di KL. Khabarnya nama ayah shortlisted untuk satu perjawatan di KL. Ayah selalu cerita pasal jawatan tu kat ibu. Kebetulan, seorang senior Kapten di unit ayah pernah pegang jawatan tu. Baik, committed dan capable orangnya. Kagum. Jawatan tersebut kebiasaannya disandang oleh pegawai-pegawai yang hebat rekod perkhidmatannya. Nervous kejap ayah dibuatnya. Normal. Bila kita dah selasa di satu tempat, pasti kupu kupu mula memenuhi perut tatkala perubahan dituntut. Yang shortlisted 2 orang pegawai. Ayah dan seorang senior bawah naungan briged yang sama, tetapi bertugas di Kuantan. Tidak kurang hebat orangnya.

Congratulations for being shortlisted yg! It is an achievement already. Punyalah ramai calon tapi hanya 2 terpilih. Macam angkasawan negara. Just do your best and enjoy the experience. Kita usaha, dapat tidak Allah tentukan rezeki. Factor pemilihan kadang luar kawalan kita. May the best officer gets the post. Bottomline, I have no doubt on you and you will always have our support. Semoga urusan dipermudahkan, ditenangkan hati dan dilapangkan fikiran ayah sepanjang tempoh percubaan. Amin.

Syukur, dua berita baik hari ini.

P/s: This calls for a celebration, ibu carik hadiah tambahan sempena shortlisted dan anniversary ketiga yang jatuh pada hari pertama tempoh percubaan itu. Oh I miss KLCC already!

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