Sekali sehari

at the mother's room

Dulu 3 hingga 4 kali pam sehari, di pejabat. Sekarang, production amat kurang. Hanya pam sekali sehari, biasanya pukul 3 atau 4 petang. Mudah-mudahan dapat terus breastfeed anak sayang. Insyaallah...

Remarkable-Raudhah

The Incredible 4

Raudhah Amani, tengok crossword tu. How strong your name is. Ayah, ibu dan adik semua perlu nama kakak untuk build the connection...

We love you, kakak! :-)

Moved out

19 May 2012

Decision has been made. We officially have moved to our own house today. A new place to call as home.

The kids were excited, as if they know this place is ours... A signal that tells "Hey ibu, let's adapt to the new sight, surrounding and routine together!" Insyaallah all will be just fine. Please be helpful and behave well kids!

The house still in a mess especially at the living room, upstairs. I never knew I have lots of clothes! They need to be arranged accordingly. As for the furniture, we just bought the basic first. To buy all at once ( we only own a queen sized bed and a medium sized wardrobe since married), is simply too expensive! Insyaallah, what we have now is enough ;) Alhamdulillah..

To atok, nenek and cuya, we could not thank you enough for your love and care. Ibu appreciates the love and undivided attention that all of you have given and  shown to both RAZ and UFZ :'-( Although we are only two blocks away, I can't help but feeling the blues. Too many memories were faced together; during the good and tough times. Got engaged, married and went through confinement (2 times) there. The house has witnessed me growing; from a teenager, adult and now a mother of two :-)

a fridge-note for baba, mama & eya

THANK YOU!

Are you insured?

A form of assurance, in case unfavorable events set in. There are lots of insurance product in the market nowadays. Of which vehicle, life and medical being among the top ones.

Believe it or not, having own an insurance policy for medical is an increasing trend in Malaysia. In developed countries, it has always appear important to the extend that medical treatment cannot be enjoyed should one does not enrolled any. We are fortunate that medical cost in Malaysia still being subsidised by the government. As low as RM1, Malaysian could enjoy medical treatment complete with medication for 1 to 3 months. Crazily cheap. Well, as crazy as the queuing crowd too. Appointments usually fixed once every 2 to 3 months depending on how critical the case is. Point to ponder, can you really wait?

I am fortunate for being employed by MNCs since graduated in 2007. These companies offer attractive medical perks; lavish. Thank you to my current employee, the whole family (husband, kids and I) is covered by ING. So technically, I am spoiled for having to enjoy good medicines and consultation in town. Until one day, I realized 'Hey, what if one day I am no longer with the employer? As much possible I want my kids to continue to get the best' That is when I thought of enrolling medical policy, especially for my kids. Alhamdulillah, I managed to get a policy for Raudhah as her 18months old gift, while Umar gets his as soon as he was born :) Having this resulted in the peace of mind for the mother. However, I am the only one in the family without alternative insurance coverage! Husband and kids are Takaful-ly protected! Hehehe Insyaallah will arrange for self-enrollment soon :)

Nobody wish to be sick. So do I. What more than not when it comes to my loved ones. From my recent experience, I highly encourage parents out there to enroll medical insurance for their children. Our recent hospital bill costs us 5-digits amount. Pheww. Lucky ING covered the expenses. Imagine if it was not? Honestly I don't have savings as much! Of course, going to government hospital is always free, with husband being an officer serving the government. No questions, the skilled specialist is there. But then again, few pull-factors lead us to private hospital. Quick respond, pleasant ambiance, satisfactory services.

Alhamdulillah, we had the advantage and access to great doctors and treatments. Again, I have no problem with government hospital. Hey, I was born in HKL! Just that being a parent, you can't help it but to give the best possible to your children as far as medical is concerned. Don't wait, get your own policy today! Ewah...

p/s: I chose to subscribe to PruBSN medical policy for my kids. You can enjoy the benefits with monthly installment as low as RM100. Let me know if you are interested. Maybe my agent can assist you. (I gain no commission from this. Just a strong believer in insurance)

Discharged

Alhamdulillah. After 9 days being away from home, we are finally here again. Alhamdulillah.

A note of appreciation

p/s: sampai rumah terus rasa nak collapse. RAZ on the other hand, seronok dapat keluar. Boring tawaf hospital hari-hari. Speedy recovery, kakak!

No 6

Thank you :)

Ramai sayang

Bulan ni, kami diuji dengan ujian kesihatan lagi. Ya Allah, mohon dipermudahkan urusan, baik kesudahan semuanya. Buat anakanda tersayang, ibu sepenuh hati mendoakan keselamatan dan kesejahteraanmu. Insyaallah semua akan ok. Ibu is so proud of you for being such a strong kid. Mudah-mudahan Allah terus bantu. Sebak hati tak terkata,. Namun kita harus terus optimis dan percaya padaNya. Insyaallah...semua akan ok.

Ramai sayangkan anakanda. Ramai sangat. Alhamdulillah, ibu terharu. Ayah bagi idea bernas pada ibu; pakaikan anakanda baju sendiri. Motivation untuk rasa seperti biasa, mudah-mudahan cepat sembuh. Psikologi. Tapi baju yang ada semua jenis sarung, payah. Mana nak cari baju berbutang depan?

Alhamdulillah. Persoalan semalam selesai terjawab hari ni bila mana sepupu rapat ibu sanggup datang dari Shah Alam bawakan baju baru untuk anakanda, 4 helai semuanya. Ibu sangat seronok! Koleksi ini ditambah sehelai lagi oleh seorang rakan baik ibu; bestest friend tempat berkongsi suka duka. Bertuah. Daripada takda apa-apa, jadi 4 helai kemudian 5. Lumayan. Lebih lumayan lagi bila ibu dapat sms dari rakan-boleh-tahan-rapat inform esok nak singgah bagi pajamas buat anakanda. Ya Allah...ramainya bantu. Syukur alhamdulillah.

Mudah-mudahan berkat doa semua, anakanda cepat sembuh. Terlalu berat untuk ibu cerita kenapa, apa jadi pada anak tersayang kepada semua. Ibu tak mampu kawal emosi buat masa ini. Kalau kita ikhlas doakan kesejahteraan sesama insan, tak tau apa sebabnya juga boleh kan? Terima kasih kepada yang mendoakan anakanda Raudhah Amani. Semoga Allah balas jasa baik kalian. Insyaallah...

all received today :)

p/s: cepat sembuh ok kakak? Ibu loves you so much!

Doa Ibu

Andai ada amalan baikku selama ini, aku mohon diberikan pada mereka... Untuk keselamatan dan kesejahteraan mereka... Ya Allah...

In a time of test, family is the best...Alhamdulillah :)

Wengurl: Wedding No. 4

Wengurl... A group of 10 hard working career women, who met each other 10 years back in a small, deserted area called Tronoh, Seri Iskandar.  A few gatherings pulled them closer, until a mutual agreement is established. Yes, we are sisters!

Time flies. The girls are now grown to beautiful ladies. Still, with different backgrounds and different characters. Thanks to the spirit of friendship, we compliment each other, we appreciate each other and we concern about each other.

Now, we don't live under the same roof. We have our own life's to concentrate on; family, work, boyfriends. But hey, no excuse. Technology makes companionship possible. We are now connected through Whatsapp! Cheer and laughter are just a text a way when you need it :D we love Whatsapp!

30 March 2012 marked another milestone; the forth wedding in the group. This time, Fira tied the knot! The reception was held at Lembaga Getah, Jalan Ampang. 8 of us came with husbands, kids and boyfriends. Alin, the bride #3 didn't make it. She just gave birth to a healthy baby boy early Mach. I am so thankful that Zul allowed me to be present, although it was a night-wedding. [first 3 weddings captured here]

The kids were well-behaved; Raudhah slept throughout the ceremony in the stroller while Umar, was so calm and patience. Thank you kids! Ibu misses ibu's girlfriends a lot.

Great companion to keep. Alhamdulillah.

Congratulations dear Fira! :)

House-headache

It has been 2 weeks since the date that we expected the house to be ready for occupancy. Disappointed, yes. There are a lot more work to be done before we can move into our own house. To date, I would say that the progress is at 80 percent. The stairs has yet to be covered, pending tile installation on the upper floor, ceiling painting and refurbishment of the toilet. The main concern is on the insufficient tile; stock will only arrive in April. I hope by April, the contractor means early April. Oh the heavy duty tile installed at the porch keeps on bugging me. I don't think I chose that design. But I decided to shut up since I have no evidence of noncompliance. Janji siap.

The renovation has taken place for almost 4 months now. All should be ready by 15 March 2012. And we have already committed the necessary purchase of electrical appliances, furnitures and cabinet. Due to the delay, we had to bag the salespersons of the electrical appliances (all the way from Seremban) and furniture (cap Bukit Beruntung) to extend the storage period, keeping our stuff at their premises. Finalization of kitchen cabinet measurement, design and costing will be done this weekend. The material will be ABS, instead of my-dream-glass-kitchen; expensive. Kitchen cabinet anganku musnah~

One thing unusual about the house is the colour. Gosh I am so not adventurous when its comes to wall-paint colours. I prefer white. BUT, our crib is mustard-yellowish-coloured, people! And my vision of creamy-themed inside turned out to be yellowish also!  Haha well, I kinda like it though. I am sure you will too; once we fill up the spaces that is. We will find things that complement the colours, no worry.

outside, no budget for roof-painting. Nasib la even byk black-spot pon :D

kitchen area

House-headache, I hope happy ending will colour our life soon. May all place into place, Insyaallah.

P/s: harap physical movement of the whole outfit to outside KL tak jadi. We need you here, ayah...

Powerful phrases

Doesn't cost you a penny. Doesn't consume much energy. Just sincere thought and appreciation. A note of apology for what turned out wrong.

.Sorry. Well done. Thank you.

Imagine world with sincerity, the spirit of togetherness and the fall of the Yang called ego. Wouldn't we be happier?

Say sorry for the damage done; even if it is a small one.

Say well done for the achievements, make people feel acknowledged once a while.

Say thank you for the kindness and support, the thought lasts in a long run.

Appreciate self, appreciate others.

Beautiful world for you and me :)

Reflection

Pejam celik, diam tak diam sudah setahun jarak masa sejak aku jejak tanah suci itu. Subhanallah. Hati jadi seronok tiap kali mendengar khabar teman-teman akan ke sana. Terlalu indah perasaan mengenang perjalanan ibadah di rumahMu.

Hati tersentuh. Semalam, semasa sesi tazkirah, bersempena topik perbincangan berkisar tentang sabar, boss kongsi pengalamannya menunaikan haji tahun lepas. Apa yang dikongsi dapat aku bayangkan. Aku sendiri punya ujian semasa menunaikan umrah di sana. Tambah dengan keadaan diri yang kurang upaya, penangan morning sickness. Tanpa disedari, air mata bergenang. Aku jadi sebak. Ya Allah, dah setahun. What have I achieved? Have I been a better person? Have I improved as far as ibadah is concerned? Ya Allah, Ya Allah...aku rindu. Rindukan ayat-ayatMu, rindukan ketenangan hati mendengar bacaan ayatMu. Betapa aku hanyut dalam deras arus masa. You seriously need to pull yourself together, Ja. Application Quran kan ada?

Semat azam lagi. Mathurat sudah lama tak berusik, sehinggalah semalam. Make time Ja, make time. Baiki diri.

P/s: Raudhah, Umar cepat besar ya. Ibu rasa nak ke sana lagi. Kali ni ibu harap semua ikut. Cukuplah lara tinggal Raudhah setahun lepas.

P/s2: Kadang terfikir, mata bulat Umar ni ikut siapa? Mungkin juga terkenan pada baby boy ibu jumpa semasa solat di Masjidil Haram. Ibu tak segan nak tegur, rindu anak yang ditinggal di Malaysia. Abdul Rahim namanya. Juga anak seorang tentera dari Syria kalau tak salah. Peramah ibu dan neneknya :) Siap tunjuk gambar ayah Abdul Rahim. Hehe ibu pon tayang gambar ayah sama, handsome! :p

1 down 3 to go

Time flies. March is approaching to the end. That leaves us with the remaining 3 quarters; 9 months of 2012.

With quarter-end comes quarterly reporting work. Nice. Here goes the workload; data-downloading, analysis and justifying the over/under utilisation of the green note. Perfect. Satisfaction.

Life has been hectic at work. Planning-related work usually is at peak during 1) the beginning of the year when direction, target and KPI are set and 2) middle of the year when the budget cycle kicks in.

Two events were conducted in Q1 alone. Headache. I love event management, seriously BUT not when change of directions is in the picture, resulted in last minute preparation = pain in the ass. Saya lah prepare slide, saya lah buat montage, saya lah compile semua material, saya lah MC dan saya lah facilitate group activity. Pening. Nonetheless, our recent away day was well-accepted by the bosses and colleagues. We received great remarks and that definitely worth the hassle; made my day. Alhamdulillah. Kurang lah ralat tinggal suami dan anak-anak di rumah.

I miss having the trust to run the show my way. Fuh, ko ingat ko boss ke apa Ja? But I had the opportunity to run an event for the Young Executives, based on my flavour. My ex-boss is so cool. Thank you for the avenue and trust given, to prove my worth. I captured the moment here.

Am working on 1 important proposal at the moment. Critical, involving millions of RM. I hope the MD/CEO will not jump over the not so good news. Haish, orang lain pakai budget, orang lain justify the reasoning, orang lain dapat nama. Takpalah, dapat kerja dengan MD/CEO pon dah cukup honoured. Great leader. MD/CEO pernah marah and suruh saya sendiri present case in Board meeting, awak ada? Hehehe

Work, despite of the challenges, it brings so much satisfaction to me. Lagi-lagi bila company declare incentive. Alhamdulillah, ada rezeki isi perut rumah :)

Another anniversary

sweet office

Hari ini, ulang tahun kelima aku berkhidmat dengan majikan tercinta. Mengikut kontrak, perlu 4 tahun perkhidmatan lagi sebelum pembiayaan pelajaran yang aku terima pada tahun 2002, langsai. Alhamdulillah.

5 tahun ini banyak mengajarku tentang hidup; tinggi rendah langit biru dan merupakan antara faktor yang mematangkan fikiran dan emosi. Jujur, aku pernah berputus harap tak lama dulu. Kenapa lambat dapat tawaran; tak layak kah diri ini? Sedangkan teman-teman yang lebih rendah pointer CGPA nya jejak menara megah itu sebelumku.

Akur, aku terima ini soal rezeki. Hikmahnya, aku ditawarkan jawatan tetap di sebuah syarikat yang juga one of the big players in the industry. Rezeki, aku tak pernah apply kerja itu; penghargaan buat bahagian Hal Ehwal Pelajar universiti, banyak bantu 'market' resume pelajarnya. Tak ramai dapat peluang bergelar permanent staff berbanding secara kontrak. Syukur; bertuah badan. Culturenya sungguh berbeza. Gaji pokok ketika itu pon tinggi berbanding di menara. Alhamdulillah, hujung bulan dapat guna bantu keluarga; dapat bayar itu ini.

Impian untuk terus di EM punah bila mana aku terima panggilan daripada majikan kini, bertegas supaya aku pulang berkhidmat dan membalas jasa baik mereka. Sempat 5 bulan di EM. Berat hati, terkilan pon ada. Kenapa hanya 2 minggu sebelum 6 months waiting period tamat? Kalau aku tunggu dan berharap dulu jawabnya 5 bulan poket kosong tanpa isi. Anak sulong ni punya hajat tinggi, bantu keluarga. Hati ini kupujuk, ada hikmahnya. Percayalah.

Tanggal 5 tahun ini, hati senang untuk mengakui; benar semua punya hikmah. Masakan tidak. Duit belanja majlis bertunang, kahwin, melahir dan membesarkan anak puncanya dari kerja yang satu ini. Belanja kahwin pon dapat aku adakan berkat rezeki dari kerja ini. Alhamdulillah, tak susahkan baba dan mama.

Membesarkan anak-anak dewasa ini tinggi kosnya. Mujur, hal ehwal perubatan semua di bawah tanggungan insurans yang dicarum majikan. Salah satu benefits yang melapangkan hati. Rezeki anak-anak. Kalau tidak, mungkin aku tak mampu ke situ. Kos bersalin normal senang-senang melangkau hampir 2 bulan gaji. Terima kasih majikan.

5 tahun, sepatutnya melayakkan ku untuk promotion ke gred seterusnya. Tapi tak kesampaian. 2 tahun sudah polisi penilaian prestasi dirombak. Aku kena tempiasnya. Maka promotion digantung. Ada rezeki, tahun depan baru dapat. Ini hikmah. Tamparan yang aku rasa merubah persepsi aku terhadap hidup. Aku jadi semakin tenang berdepan masalah; matured. Ujian ini menebalkan semangat positif dalam diri. Ya, benar aku ambil masa untuk kembali stabil. Kesal dengan nasib itu tidaklah setinggi kesalku terhadap respon pihak pengurusan. Pengecut. Buang duit pergi kursus mahal-mahal. Sudahlah pengecut, bias pula. Segelintir, bukan semua. Terkilan sampai peringkat nak letak jawatan. Kejap, kenapa nak buat macam tu? Aku bukan pengalah. Dek kecewa kerja penat seolah tak dihargai, aku telah develop perangai suka shopping mengubat lara. Parah! Hehe

Tak apalah, ada rezeki tak ke mana. Kalau tak dapat kat aku, mungkin dapat kat suami dan anak-anak. Benar, saat aku jatuh, suami sukses dalam kerjayanya. Dua kursus YO dia muncul best student dan best academic recognition. B grading lagi (dalam askar B grading tu payah nak dapat, tak macam kita civilian ni). Exam Kapt ke Major pon dah lulus. Kan hikmah tu? Alhamdulillah.

Aku pernah impikan kerjaya yang hebat. Tapi aku sedar, it does not work one way. Ada faktor-faktor luar kawalan yang ada impak ke mana arah kerjaya seseorang; selagi ada campur tangan manusia yang hasadnya pelbagai. Aku ambil pendekatan ini; terus berikan yang terbaik untuk perkhidmatan, selebihnya aku serah padaNya. Yang pasti, RA.UF dan Zulfadhli adalah semangatku. Ibu is so fortunate to have all of you in ibu's life. Saat diuji, I will take a step back and reflect how I am blessed with so many happiness. Jadi kenapa perlu bersedih dengan secalit dugaan?

Happy 5th Anniversary to us, Petroliam Nasional. May successs follows our way. How I have grown wiser serving you :)

Alhamdulillah.

P/s: Selamat Hari Tentera Darat :)

Kedua

Alhamdulillah. Tanggal 23 Februari lepas, genap usia Raudhah Amani 2 tahun. Bermakna sudah 2 tahun jugalah saya dan suami bergelar ibu dan ayah. Syukur ke hadratmu Ya Allah.

Pengalaman indah pertama kali bersua saya abadikan di entry ini.

Dear Raudhah Amani, ibu dan ayah doakan Raudhah terus membesar dengan sihat dan ceria. Mudah-mudahan jadi anak yang solehah, baik sahsiahnya, cemerlang peribadi menghadapi keperluan dunia dan tuntutan di sana kelak. Amin.

fantastic four :)

Ibu sayang kakak, sangat sangat sayang :)

Beautiful doa

Am touched by the beautiful words shared by a friend and wish to capture them here for my future reference.

"Ya Allah, give us eyes that see the best in people, 

hearts that forgive the worst, 

minds that forget the bad 

& 

a soul that never loses faith in You."

 Thank you :)

Teaser of the day

Source: Facebook.

Any comment? :) Well life is not a fairy tale. But one can choose how to make the most out of it.

Life is too short, so whats with the fuss?

The game of LOVE. You never knew what you have until you lose it. Question, what if it is too late?

Peace.

Pleasing the Princess

Yesterday, adik had the most attention; clinging to ibu for his precious milk. Kakak, felt unattended; cranky and a bit violent towards her baby brother.

So today ibu brought kakak for a quick outing. We went to Tesco to get some groceries and later to baby store. Guess what, the feeding bottle teat needs replacement, again! Hehe

It was fun spending time together, just the two of us. The first stop we made when we arrived was at the kid's section. There, ibu picked up a gardening tool set and a bubble gun. Ah, can't wait to play with my girl in the evening... :) On the way back, we shared Chocolate ice-blended. Yummy! That sure 'glued' her at the seat all the way home.

bubble time

tolong siram rumput atok ;p

picnic, Bukit Beruntung style :D

She had fun, I am so glad!

seminggu sendiri

Dah 8 hari suami kerja luar kawasan; di Temerloh. First time kena tinggal since the transfer. Rindu datang lagi. Perjalanan pergi balik ke pejabat seminggu lepas terasa sepi, sendiri. How I wish you were there; especially during the traffic jams. Ada juga teman bicara :) Lumrah manusia, bila ada depan mata nampak biasa. Dah jauh baru mencari. Rugi. Kita jangan macam tu la ok? Setiap detik itu sungguh bermakna.

Sekarang jam 3 pagi. Anak-anak masih belum tidur lagi. Rindu ayah juga mungkin. Kedua-duanya minat menonton macam ayah. Boleh mengadap tv atau laptop berjam-jam lamanya. Ibu bagi peluang. Hari ni seharian Raudhah puasa-tv, giliran atok tonton perkembangan semasa. Sangka ibu Raudhah meragam kerana sibling-rivalry. (Sorry kakak, adik nak menyusu tak henti. Bila kenyang tak tidur, celik pula dia. Terbatas plan ibu nak jenguk kakak.) Rupanya amuk tak dapat bersua dengan Disney Junior. Nah, tontonlah sampai puas hati. Ibu teman, mujur esok cuti.

RA.UF dan youtube

Kesal. Seboleh mungkin nak luangkan masa sama-rata, secukupnya dengan 2 anak kecil ni. Tak beri ruang pada sibling rivalry. Betul, keadaan ni normal tambah lagi dengan kehadiran orang baru. Tapi ini bukan alasan untuk bersenang hati. Harus terus perhati dan ambil langkah awal bendung hal-hal kecil hati ini. Hari ni saja, macam-macam gaya protes kakak. Tepuk perut, tepuk kepala, baling mainan... Kecut perut ibu. Mujurlah adik tough orangnya. Lebih sedih, kakak bertindak pukul diri sendiri. Signal kurang perhatian ya nak? Ibu kerja, balik lambat, balik penat... Tapi semua itu amanah. Suami, anak-anak, kerja itu berhak ke atasku. Belum lagi masuk tang baba dan mama. Ya, masih banyak ruang for improvement. Trust me, it is not easy as it seems; coping with work and bigger family. It is not bad either. The philosophy that drives me is simple; 'It is hard when I have to, it is easy when I want to'. Islam pon ajar setiap dugaan yang menimpa itu, Allah tahu kita mampu hadapi.

Come on Ja, this is not dugaan. This is blessing. Look how beautiful they are. Subhanallah, Alhamdulilah...

Let's work things out dear husband :)

P/s: I am not complaining. This entry serves as a self-reflection for improvement. Peace.

NGV-ed

Due to our bad experience with the old route to KL, we agreed to take the highway to work everyday. This costs on RM13.20 a day. Now how do we lower the monthly expenses for traveling? Exactly, by using NGV!

Read a little bit about NGV here.

Being meticulous about engineering and the related matters, husband did his research first; in terms of the specifications, costs and testimonials. Baba, being the experience NGV user for more or less 10 years now, act as our advisor. Baba also helped us to find the reliable workshop for installation. Thank you Baba!

The car was sent to the workshop on 3rd February and the installation completed on the next day. So far, we are satisfied with the performance and the reduction in fuel cost. Our journey to work costs us RM15 for petrol daily. Thanks to NGV, it is now RM6 to RM8 daily. But, the tank needs to be filled daily. So husband has to make a pit stop at the NGV station everyday before heading to office.

so long storage space...

interested? you know the number to call :)

We are still in the observation period. Hopefully everything is smooth as silk. Our cute car has been really good to us and our pocket, since day 1. Alhamdulillah. Use good motor oil; PETRONAS Syntium 800 - semi synthetic pon dah cukup baik. Dapatkan di pasaran ok? Hehe promo pulak.