2011 in a nutshell

Alhamdulillah. All in all it has been a great year. Terima kasih atas rezeki dan nikmat mu Ya Allah. Aku redha akan segala dugaan dan cabaran yang menimpa. Semoga hari-hari kami sentiasa di bawah lindungan dan petunjukmu...

Here are the highlights of my life, in 2011 :)


FEBRUARY 2011 Happy Birthday
Raudhah Amani turned 1 year old on 23.02.2011. Alhamdulillah. Ibu and ayah love you so much, girl!

MARCH 2011 Dream 'vacation'
Alhamdulillah. Thank you to ayah and mak, both Zul and I had the chance to perform umrah from 13-27 March 2011. Alhamdulillah, jejak tanah suci sebelum negara-negara selain Malaysia. It was amazing, penuh rasa syukur dan emosi; menatap Masjid Nabawi dan Kaabah depan mata. Terasa sungguh dekat denganNya. Tenang, walaupun hati berat merindu buahati Raudhah Amani di tanahair dan lemah menempuh fasa awal pregnancy di tempat asing. Ya, cubaan sangat besar buat ibu dan Raudhah. Tapi ini soal ibadah. Dan ibu tahu Raudhah anak yang tabah dan kuat. Setiap masa ibu doakan Raudhah dan Umar yang pada masa tu, masih kecil dalam kandungan ibu. Setiap kali ingat Raudhah, air mata mengalir. Dan untuk Umar, ibu kerap ke kedai beli canned Lychee in syrup buat hilang loya. Terbukti kita mampu laluinya, anak-anak sayang. Alhamdulillah. Ada rezeki, kita pergi satu family Insyaallah.

Terima kasih juga buat suami yang setia bantu isteri ketika itu. Lemah. Tawaf, sae semua perlu ditolak dari belakang. Kalau tidak, kaki longlai memberatkan langkah. Besar pahala abang. Insyaallah.

The end of my breastfeeding journey. After 2 weeks seperated by distance, Raudhah felt that she was big enough and convinced me that she doesn't need to be breast fed anymore. Tup tup (tutup) katanya bila ibu offer nenen :)

MAY 2011 Her first art work
Happy father's day ayah! Raudhah made a simple greeting card for ayah, with a little help from ibu :)



JUNE 2011 A year older
Officially 27 :) I am blessed to have loving family members and great friends to keep. Had few celebrations; at home with family and at the office with dear collegues and friends. Bliss!

OCTOBER 2011 3+1
The family gets bigger this year. Our sweetheart, Umar Faruqi bin Zulfadhli was born on 11.10.11, 20 months after our first child. The kids are getting along just fine. My heart melts seeing them together. Alhamdulillah :)

:)

This is Us

UFZ and RAZ

Got a BB before the baby was born. Thank you husband for the Blackberry, complete with data plan. Loving it to bits! I am now 24-7 connected to the net and can get many things done through phone :D

Nonetheless, I still keep my Samsung Galaxy S. Blogging comes in handy with Bloggeroid; one thing missing from BB world.

NOVEMBER 2011 Home sweet home
The biggest addition to our financial commitment this year onwards. Alhamdulillah, one of my resolutions for 2011 came true. Renovation work is going on at the moment. Hopefully all will turn out well.

messy ;p

Our marriage marks its third year's anniversary. Alhamdulillah. ILU ZI :)

My brother also got married in November. It was a beautiful celebration. I love family gatherings!

DECEMBER 2011 Welcome home
The official order is out. Alhamdulillah, ayah is moving to KL soon. What a beautiful way to end the year. Syukur.

Ayah finally turned 27 three days back. Happy Birthday! Wow, 27 with 2 kids, Alhamdulillah.

Alhamdulillah. May Allah bless us with good health, endless happiness and great achievements in 2012. Insyaallah.

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Rapid KL

Indeed. Time is golden. Especially when linked to development. In the world that we live in now, everything is expected to accelerate; increase or improve towards betterment.

I have been away from KL for 2 months due to maternity. Didn't expect to miss so much of KL and its isi perut :D

After 3 weeks of come back, today my path crossed with rapidKL LRT. Just a short distance; KLCC to Masjid Jamek then Plaza Rakyat. To my surprise, I am not familiar to the new ticketing system! Instead of the usual ticket, now it is in the form of token! Cool, I must say. Besides, the interface and navigation of the touch screen is integrated; for both Putra and STAR LRT. Amazed, experienced, impressed.



P/s: Hope the authority could have a look into the damage done at KLCC. Irresponsible taxi drivers park on the roadside causing unnecessary road block. Tarnish the image of the clan. Hey, my dad owns a taxi too so buzz off, I hate hearing complaints about the job that got me where I am today!

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Fenomena Gerhana Bulan

Dijangka berlaku pada esok malam, bermula sekitar jam 8.45malam dengan kemuncaknya dijangka pada jam 10malam.

Apa itu gerhana bulan? Ianya adalah suau fenomena di mana matahari, bumi dan bulan berada pada satu garis lurus yang sama, sehingga sinar matahari tidak dapat mencapai bulan kerana terhalang oleh bumi.

Ustaz Hanafiah Abdul Razak, Pegawai Falak di Jabatan Mufti Negeri Johor berkongsi di rancangan Al-Kuliyyah hari ini, fenomena gerhana bulan adalah keadaan di mana:
1. Bulan mengadap, hampir dengan bumi
2. Bulan berada di laluan matahari
3. Bumi mendapat cahaya penuh daripada matahari
4. Berlaku di pertengahan bulan, 14 malam 15 Muharram
5. Kekerapan berlaku sehingga 2 kali setahun

Sabda Rasulullah SAW : Sesungguhnya matahari dan bulan adalah tanda dari tanda-tanda kebesaran Allah. Kedua-duanya tidak gerhana disebabkan matinya seseorang atau disebabkan lahirnya. Tetapi kedua-duanya merupakan dua tanda dari tanda-tanda kebesaran Allah menakutkan hamba-hambanya. Apabila engkau melihat perkara tersebut hendaklah engkau solat dan berdoa sehingga gerhana itu hilang pada padangan“. (HR. Bukhari dari Abi Barkah).

Apa yang patut kita lakukan bagi menghayati fenomena ini? Ustaz sarankan ibadah dilakukan bagi mencari keredhaanNya serta dijauhkan dari kemurkaanNya. Amalan yang boleh dilakukan, mudah-mudahan Allah berikan kita kebaikan antaranya:
1. Solat sunat gerhana, sesudah jelas berlakunya gerhana.
2. Beristighfar
3. Berdoa sebanyak mungkin
4. Berinfaq

Hebat sungguh ilmu falak. Tahukah anda bahawa ada pengertian disebalik separuh awal bulan dan separuh akhir bulan dalam ilmu falak? Ustaz berkongsi, dari awal hingga tengah bulan adalah masa untuk mengisi. Manakala daripada tengah ke akhir bulan adalah masa untuk kembali reda. Dua contoh:

1. Kajian menunjukkan jika nelayan beroleh ketam antara awal hingga tengah bulan, isinya penuh. Sebaliknya, bagi tangkapan antara tengah hingga hujung bulan, kosong. Sama kisahnya dengan ikan.

2. Jika seseorang jatuh sakit antara awal hingga tengah bulan, antibodi kuat maka peluang untuk sembuh lebih baik. Sebaliknya, antibodi lemah pada setengah bulan terakhir.

Subhanallah, hebat ilmu falak ini. Sungguh cetek pengetahuan di dada hamba yang 27tahun ini.

Siapa nama?

Siapa nama? Ahmad.. Mau pergi mana? Chemor~

*Iklan tamat*

Alhamdulillah. Umar bangun awal pagi ni. As usual, ibu bawa Umar turun layan Indahnya Iman @ Astro Oasis. Pagi ni kami berkesempatan tonton slot Hadis Pilihan oleh Dato Hassan Din Al Hafiz. Menarik topik pagi ni, sesuai untuk ibu bapa muda seperti kami. Rasanya elok juga capture few points tadi untuk ingatan dan dikongsi bersama, tentang pentingnya nama.

Apa ada pada nama? Kan itu sekadar panggilan saja. Mungkin ada yang fikir begitu. Meleset sama sekali. Permulaan seseorang itu adalah pada namanya. Nama akan mempengaruhi perkembangan fizikal dan mental seseorang. Hebat bukan?

Pada permulaan episod, Dato Hassan Din berkongsi tentang sebuah hadis yang kurang lebih bermaksud begini:

"Nama yang mulia di sisi Allah swt ialah Abdullah dan Abdul Rahman. "

Abdul bermaksud hamba sementara Abdullah bermaksud hamba Allah. Hari ini, jarang sekali kita jumpa anak kecil bernama seperti atas di Malaysia. Kesedaran untuk memberi nama yang baik maknanya meluas, tidak ketinggalan juga yang gemar memberi nama berunsur glamour atau bunyi seperti mat salleh.

Selain Abdullah dan Abdul Rahman, nama yang disukai Allah swt ialah Muhammad, bermaksud yang terpuji.  Diriwayatkan bahawa, sekiranya seorang ayah mempunyai 3 anak lelaki dan tiada satu pun di antaranya bernama Muhammad, maka ayah tersebut adalah jahil. Satu ilmu baru buat saya hari ini. Padanlah dalam 3 orang adik beradik lelaki suami, ada seorang bernama Muhammad Ikhwan. Selebihnya Zulfadhli dan Amal Safwan. Barangkali ayah tahu tentang ini. Tapi ayah tak suarakan pada kami. Mungkin ayah yakin ada cucu lelaki lagi bakal menyusul nanti.

Beri nama yang baik satu. Sudah itu, perlulah juga dipanggil dengan nama yang baik. Ustaz kongsi, seorang yang hebat namanya sempana khalifah Abu Bakar tetapi dipanggil Burn. Rentung. Sempat berseloroh, jika masuk syurga insan ini, hairan penghuni syurga dibuatnya. Satu tamparan buat saya. Kami suami isteri punya nama 'manja' di rumah. Dan selalunya, dipanggil dengan nama itu. Walhal nama sebenar kami sungguh indah maknanya. Zulfadhli: yang mempunyai keistimewaan dan Nurhafiza: cahaya yang memelihara. Pernah sekali saya berbual dengan seorang staff berasal dari Sudan. Borak punya borak masuk bab keluarga. Lantas ditanya siapa nama suami dan anak. Mendengarkan jawapan saya, dia mengucap "Subhanallah, beautiful names. Beautiful family". Saya ingat ketika itu berkongsi dengannya, kalau ada anak lelaki nanti, mungkin akan namakan Salman Al-Farisi. Tapi lepas suami baca kisah Umar Abdul Aziz, teringin betul menamakan anak dalam kandungan saya ketika itu sebagai Umar.

Pada pengamatan saya, mereka yang punya nama lain biasanya mempunyai nama yang panjang. Saya sendiri mempunyai kesulitan menyebut nama sendiri ketika kecil. Nama Jaja itu saya sendiri yang panggil. Datang dari Za di hujung Nurhafiza. Melekat nama Jaja itu sampai beranak pinak. Mujur nama anak-anak berpangkalkan nama dua patah; Raudhah dan Umar. Tiada alasan untuk dipendekkan lagi. Cuma Raudhah, gemar bahasakan dirinya Ada. Insyaallah nanti dah pandai cakap eloklah tu.

Semoga anak-anak kita nanti besar menjadi insan berkeperibadian baik, mengambil berkat nama yang diberi. Insyaallah. Ayah dan ibu ambil ikhtibar daripada perkongsian ini. Alhamdulillah, berkesempatan tambah pengetahuan.

kepunyaan boyfriend suatu ketika dahulu :)

 

P/s: ada staff bernama Abdullah Aiman. Pandai ayahnya pilih. Suka pada nama, bukan orangnya. Harap maklum.

Money sense

The green note. Irony, the more we earn, the more we feel short of it. Insufficient, not enough. So what is the ideal salary do we need? Or it is something that WANTs out ruling the NEEDs?

I hate the fact how the green note influences how we live our life. With the factor of inflation, the value of money drops and resulted in higher cost of living. Oh my. This calls for proper planning and prudent spending especially when you have a family. Now that my family is bigger, I hope we could make do with the household income and live moderately happy if not lavish (kidding-on the lavish part).

$alary

Alhamdulillah. With both husband and wife working, the earning is sufficient. We made few expensive-big steps in 2011. These need fund. I hope to hear great news from the Management soon. And perhaps new salary scheme for the Armed Forces? We could use some extra notes!

$pending

The major spending is dedicated for the kids. The price of formulated milk is increasing day by day. Enfagrow A+ is now costs RM94 for a 1.7kg packing. Same goes to diaper. Even PetPet now costs RM34 per pack. All in all, a sum of RM1.5k is allocated for them beginning January 2012.

A new addition to our expenses is the house we bought. Inclusive renovation cost, the total price is RM200k++. The installment is significant. I wonder how on earth few friends of mine, with salary more or less at par, could afford buying RM450k and above houses. Wow. What a huge commitment! Something I don't feel worth doing. Cheapskate :p And don't see it as investment too. What's the point of it if I could not afford funding the loan. Take calculated risk, do financial standing analysis and decide; my philosophy.

Good news, no more hire purchase installment needed. Both cars are ours, debt free yippie!

Being the eldest in the family, I hope I can continue contributing to the parents. Looking at the current income, with the new house expenses, I can't afford to pay the installment of the parent's house anymore :( I could have if my promotion is on time. However, due to the downfall of my career in 2009, my promotion was delayed to 2013 :(  hopefully Allah murahkan rezeki untuk terus membalas budi baba and mama. I love them so much.

$avings/Investment

Insyaallah the salary deduction will be continued. It is the only way to save up, trust me. No such thing as kalau ada lebih nanti masuk tabung. Sheesh! Kalau ada lebih masuk tabung Mothercare ada la. We don't have a lot. Just sufficient to back up during emergencies.

Insurance for the kids-checked. Unit trust-checked. Monthly deduction-checked. Zakat-checked! And a few other investment products. But on top of all, I am glad that we have EPF. At least later after retirement, source of money is there :) hehe Account 2 has reduced, withdrawed due to the purchase of our-home-sweet-home. Alhamdulillah.

At the end of the month, no extra. Just enough to cover for the necessary. What went wrong? I don't think there is any. Being the eldest, we have commitment to the parents. What we gain, there should be a portion for them. I don't regret for not having to buy expensive clothes or live a lavish life like most of people at the towers do. Cause I believe that I spent portion of it to the right channel, my parents. Insyaallah berkat. And based on my experience, whenever emergency strikes, there is rezeki to drain it away. Berkat restu baba and mama. Alhamdulillah.

P/s: masih dalam mood belanjawan. Moga ada rezeki untuk isi perut rumah.

P/s2: pernah consult AKPK tentang pengurusan kewangan peribadi. 1) 10% of salary should go to savings 2) Benar, credit card is the culprit! Use it wisely. The quote "ukur baju di badan sendiri" says them all. That goes to you too, Jaja!

Tragedi

Dugaan. Benar bagai dikata, malang tak berbau. Sungguhpun kita sebaik mungkin menjaga keselamatan diri, dek silap orang lain, terkena juga tempiasnya. 25 November 2011 tarikh kejadian. Aku bersama suami dan Umar terlibat dengan kemalangan kecil. Kami baik saja. Tapi tertekan jugalah melihatkan kesan di kereta kecilku. Aduh. Mana silapnya. Yang pasti salah pemandu itu, bukan kami. Gagal memastikan jalan lengang sebelum mengundur. Siap leka pandang skrin telefon bimbit berdering. Nah, lihat hasilnya.




Sangka aku bila dah habis bayar pinjaman kereta minda jadi tenang. Meleset. Dugaan lain datang. Mungkin Allah nak bagi rezeki lain.

Sekarang kedua-dua mobil lama-tanpa-hutang kami 'cedera' di bahagian kiri. Civic1995 pon dilanggar jiran depan rumah 2 bulan lepas. Punyalah luas jalan. Bawa kancil pulak tu. Ish3. Sebab suaminya tolong baba potong pokok mangga depan rumah, kami anggap ganti rugi langsai.

Satria2003 kita hantar baiki atas kos pemandu cuai itu. Civic1995, ada duit lebih nanti kita baiki ok suami?

P/s: Masih merasakan ekonomi belum di paras lega untuk memiliki mobil baru. Masih selesa bersederhana begini

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Fuh. Home sweet home. Went to clinic to check on Umar just now. Ayah dah di Kuantan. Rasa patah sebelah kaki bila ayah tiada. Bukan manja tetapi belum hebat mengawal dua anak sendirian. Si kakak yang 21 bulan itu sedang melasak. Si adik yang hampir 2 bulan ini perlu dikendong sana sini. Walaupun ibu ala-ala tough, mengah juga dibuatnya memikul adik yang sudah lebih 7 kilo beratnya. Adik sudah 4 hari tak poopoop. Sebentar tadi ujian kemuncak. Adik tak boleh tahan lagi lantas menangis tak henti. Sebak. Dukung sudah, dodoi sudah, sapu minyak yuyi pon sudah namun tak berhasil. Last resort, satu rumah ikut ke klinik. Mujur atuk nenek sayang. Terima kasih BaMa! Alhamdulillah, Umar dah lega. Sedang asyik minum susu ganti tenaga yang hilang. Ibu lebih sepuluh kali ganda lega. Punya anak kecil beginilah. Susah hati bila si manja kurang sihat. Semoga Allah lindungi kalian.

Alhamdulillah anak bujang dah botak. Sempat ayah cukur rambut Umar petang tadi. Umar tegap, jadi ayah yakin nak cukurkan walaupun baru sebulan lebih. Raudhah dulu hanya botak pada usia 4 bulan. Raudhah turut sama tengok proses cukur. Sekali sekala Raudhah gelak. Geli hati barangkali.

RAZ & UFZ :)


Ibu perhati Raudhah lebih ceria akhir-akhir ni. Mungkin sebab ayah ada sama kita, seminggu bercuti. Allah saja tahu betapa senang hati ibu lihat anak mesra dengan ayahnya. Ayah pun pandai ambil hati. Secara tak langsung bantu ibu uruskan anak. Juga dalam urusan rumah yang lain. Terima kasih ayah. Bertuah dapat suami ringan tulang. Lepas ni kembali ke rutin asal. Semoga Allah permudahkan.

Subhanallah indahnya hari-hari bersama kalian. Mudah-mudahan ada rezeki untuk kita terus begini. Bahagia. Alhamdulillah, besar nikmatMu Ya Allah...

P/s: Giat menyusu badan tapi sudah datang bulan. Wah? Am now on IUCD

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Feeding bottle

My favourite ( the only brand I use so far) is MAM. I love MAM anti colic bottles as all parts can be opened and ensure that every inch of the parts is reachable during washing/bottle cleaning time. Walla!

Moreover, it is 'heavy duty'. Raudhah loves to throw away things, including her feeding bottles. So far alhamdulillah dok baling-baling pon boleh pakai elok lagi. Satu masalah je lagi. Tabiat gigit puting datang. Habis berlubang dibuatnya. Ibu terpegun kejap. Satu puting harga RM12 0_o. Kalau bagi puting lain tahu pula tu, reject.

Am thinking if trying Avent's feeding bottle. Is it good? Any reviews?



Assembled bottle ayah's way...this is FUSION. Mujur anak tak confuse ;p

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Birth Cert

Read through UFZ's birth certificate and suddenly it hits me...what?? not fair! 26 vs 27??? But we were born in the same year.




Reality, husband is younger than me by 6 months. I am already 27 while he is still enjoying his 26th.Sorry Umar, it is recorded in your official document that your ibu is older. Sobs. Not fair hunny ( ni namanya takda hal cari hal. But hey, age does matter). On the other hand, I can feel good about it apa. Look at Aidil Zafuan and Rita Rudaini. Kelas akak macam Rita dah ( you seriously need to go to work Ja. Dah macam minah gosip ko ni).

Next babies, let's plan for the EDD to be between January and May. So we can share the same age on the birth certificate ok husband? Dengan izinNya, Insyaallah.

Yikes. Why am I talking about next babies, now? 0_o

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08.11.08

Alhamdulillah..

Two hearts together, one love forever... :)

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4some

The whole family went for UFZ's 1 month checkup last Saturday. First time, all four of us. Bliss. Raudhah loves going to PCMC. The only place where we let her run her heart out, jump here and there and most of all, have fun. Tempat main lagi dikenang, inikan pula tempat tumpah darah ibu ;p I feel safe to let her run and play, as most of the walkway is covered and injury is less expected. Go ahead girl, run. Ayah teman. You are too fast for me :) cair tengok the father-daughter bonding.

Cut story short. Alhamdulillah everything was ok. UFZ got his 1st jab. And he now weighs 6.3kg and is 58cm long. Wow. That was RAZ's size when she was 2 months. Padanla ibu cepat penat sampai stress.

Less than a month to go and I have yet to start stocking up the precious EBM. Ya Allah, limpahkanlah rezeki untuk anakku membesar dengan susu ibunya...

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MQBB

What on earth is it? Well, it is actually a dilemma that we are facing. Married quarters or own house, which is our next destiny?

It is the second week of his attachment program here in KL. So far, looking at the schedule, it is not convenient to commute back and forth, KL-BB, +-60km everyday, especially by a 125cc two-wheeler. Sheesh! So we came into an agreement that he shall come back whenever the changing schedule permits. Ingat dok unit dahsyat rupanya dok HQ lagi hebat.

This situation leads to a road block (ceh macam The Amazing Race pulak :p ) What is next, Jaja1 and Jaja2? Eh apa kau merepek ni labu. Mana ada merepek, kat ATMA orang panggil Zul as Jaja jangan tak tau. Ha sudah, short circuit dibuatnya fikir proposal hala tuju empat beranak. Senang, Yang Dipertua Parlimen sign approval ja nanti ;p hoh baru cuti sebulan dah tulis gaya tak professional. Bikin malu.

This calls for a comparison; cost-benefit analysis for the family. Both MQ and BB have its pros and cons. But at the end of the road, something needs to be sacrificed.

Option A: MQ

1. Distance
Definitely, it is near to workplace for both of us. Traveling is not an issue. Budget for traveling can be reallocated elsewhere.

2. Family bonding
We can see each other everyday, no matter how tight the schedule is. Maybe I can join the badminton session. Jom lawan tengok siapa terer *love*

3. Facilities
Fully furnished, 4 bedroom apartment. Wow. $$$ saver!

4. Babysitter
Can be expensive. Plus, I have problem to spare my trust to strangers. What more to leave my adorable kids to someone I barely knew. RAZ is soo going to playschool. And that costs 50% extra on top of current babysitter fee. How about UFZ? With skill not proven, I am scared to take risk. Baby choked while feeding is my major concern. I loss hope for nursery and afraid to switch babysitter. Yikes!

Option B: BB

1. Distance
60km away from workplace. Traveling seems affordable only by a two-wheeler. But Jaja1 said it is not suitable for Jaja2 to follow him on a 125cc. So Virago vrooom vrooom jom? Once a while, traveling by car is tolerable provided that we take the old route, not the highway.

2. Family bonding
Jaja1 will only be at home for 2 or 3 times during weekdays. Jaja2 will take over household affair.

3. Facilities
All on our own. But hey, atleast we own them instead of on loan :)

4. Babysitter
First class. Not only that they are being looked after but RAZ and UFZ will be loved by opah and family. Worth our RM300! (per person that is). And what's more important is to feel such peace at heart when leaving your kids for work.

So option A or option B? Can you guess which option that I am keen to choose?

Well, until the tansfer is finalized this remains open. Deep down, I really hope that the transfer will be materialized soon. Amin.

P/s: Zul kata "Askar ni sayang bini Ja...". Ja kata, " Of course you guys should. After all the operasi and kursus, kena tinggal lama-lama, bini la dok setia menunggu..." none of us is in a better position. Masing-masing kena sacrifice to work things out. Rindu tu lumrah rumah tangga sekalian milik negara, lebih-lebih lagi si baju hijau. Mudah-mudahan sabar dan setia terus tersemat dalam hati kita. Jangan satu hari, bila dah senang kita lupa pengalaman ini. Lupa siapa yang susah bersama. Lupa betapa hebat dugaan merindu. Nauzubillah, moga dijauhkan dari dugaan begitu. It has been 3 years. Will you tango with me for the next 30 dear Zulfadhli? ILU :)

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The end...isn't it?

I think this is the end of my first laptop :( RAZ did it again, last night. This time, she took out the rubber that hold the keypad and the keyboard together. This laptop means so much to me. A gift from my boyfriend (or ex-boyfriend in present). A gift that allows me to do work in mobile, regardless of location. Heartbreaking. I do not opt for replacement as much as I want u forever, ex-boyfriend. Oh RAZ...

Ex-boyfriend, forgive me will u?

P/s: terpaksalah pinjam toshiba biru if nak buat keje kat rumah, please...

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1 month on a special date

Alhamdulillah UFZ turns 1month today. This means the paid leave is down to 30 days to its end. Part of me, I cant wait to get back to work and start thinking, arguing, analysing and justifying again. Its basically a headache and somehow I am missing it. Gosh, I am not sick do I? ;p

Funny, it has only been 20 months since my last confinement. But it feels like my first. How on earth could I forget how it is like. The weak body, the sleepless nights and the changing baby schedule. Oh my. All I remember is how refreshing the bertungku, urut and mandi air daun were. Ingat pantang ni macam spa ke?

True, every kid is different. Same applies to RAZ and UFZ. UFZ consumes much much more than RAZ. He can still take 3oz of formula after 3oz of EBM and an hour of breastfeeding. Yes, I have loss the battle from day 1. Enfalac has been helping me to cope with UFZ's needs. As long as you grow healthy young boy, bring it on.

The first month has been a sleepless nights galore for me. One day, Umar would wake up at 12am and only went off to sleep at 6am. And on another day, he woke up at 2am and went back to sleep at 6am. But last night, he didnt wake up at all. I guess he knew that I need a break.

During this confinement, I am a bit weak spiritually. I didnt have enough rest that I became stress especially after all the efforts made, Umar still cries. Heartbreaking. It is not easy to juggle between RAZ, UFZ and some of the house chores. But this is what I should expect from today and onwards. So wake up and adapt, Jaja!

Today, I felt terrible for letting the stress took me down. The article below says them all...

BESARNYA PAHALA SEORANG IBU... :')
1. Dua rakaat solat wanita yang hamil lebih... baik dari 80 rakaat solat wanita yang tidak hamil.

2. Wanita yang hamil dapat pahala puasa disiang hari & pahala ibadat di malam hari.

3. Wanita yang bersalin dapat pahala 70 thn solat & puasa serta setiap kesakitan pada satu uratnya, Allah bagi satu pahala haji.

4. Sekiranya wanita meninggal dunia dalam masa 40 hari selepas bersalin ia dikira sebagai mati syahid. …

5. Wanita yang beri minum susu badannya kepad anaknya akan dapat 1 pahala daripada tiap titik susu yang diberikannya.

6. Wanita yang beri minum susu badannya kepada anaknya yang menangis maka Allah beri pahala satu tahun pahala solat & puasa.

7. Kalau wanita menyusui anaknya hingga cukup tempoh 2 setengah tahun, maka malaikat dilangit khabarkan berita bahawa syurga wajib baginya.

8. Seorang ibu yang menghabiskan masa malamnya dengan tidur yang tidak selesa kerana menjaga anaknya yang sakit dapat pahala seperti membebaskan 20 orang hamba.

9. Wanita yang tidak cukup tidur pada malam hari kerana menjaga anaknya yang sakit akan di ampunkan oleh Allah akan seluruh dosanya & bila dia hiburkan hati anaknya Allah beri 12 tahun pahala ibadat.

Subhanallah, besar ganjarannya. 

After reading this, I text the husband, "Habis pahala Ja sebab stress, tak sabar and tak bersyukur :( " Come to think about it, I am human too and no matter how optimist and motivated I am, there are times that I am the otherwise. Bottom-line, I must bounce back and quickly realize that such feelings should not prolonged.

I hope I can improve after this. Insyaallah. Mind over the tired body and mixed emotion.

1 month old UFZ

Happy 1 month, Umar Faruqi :)

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A place called HOME

Alhamdulillah, today the house is officially ours. Now boleh pandang-pandang, boleh pegang-pegang. Takda lah tinjau dari jauh lagi :)

Together you, me, daughter and son, yes? Insyaallah :)

Syukur alhamdulillah...

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The big-spender(sometimes) in me

OK. I am broke until the next pay. Indulged myself with shopping again. But this time, for a noble purpose :) Hope everything turns out great. Insyaallah.

If it is not meant to be...

I accidently spilled my precious milk this morning. 2oz easily. For a mother with low milk supply like yours truly, it is devastating. Well, it is not meant to be ours, UFZ. Perhaps next time...

p/s: Somehow my confidence towards bumblebee storage bottle becomes really really low... be extra careful, ibu!

Tuah...

Kata pepatah; tuah ayam nampak di kaki, tuah kita siapa yang tahu.

24.10.11

Alhamdulillah, tuah kami hari ini 'nampak' pada dua saluran:

1) Maybank2u
Menjadi kebiasaan orang makan gaji, tiap hujung bulan mesti hadap Maybank2u. Jumaat lepas di hospital dah perasan. Eh kenapa banyak pulak amaun masuk bulan ni. Tapi sebab kejarkan appoinment Umar, misi menyiasat tertangguh sampailah hari Sabtu. Godek punya godek, hati terdetik. Kalau tengok amaun yang extra ni, macam tahu apa dia. Tapi takda apa-apa notification pun. Betul ke firasat di hati ni? Eceh. Sempat update hubby, separa excited. Hari Isnin baru boleh cek, hujung minggu pejabat tutup. Buang masa dan tenaga je kalau terlebih proaktif.

Hari ni, pagi-pagi dah call lawyer's office. Boleh pulak puan yang handle file kami tu dah berhenti kerja. Rasanya baru Isnin lepas call dia. Semak punya semak, sah betul jangkaan kami. Amaun extra tu ialah deposit yang kami dulukan untuk beli rumah idaman kami. Alhamdulillah, proses pembelian hampir selesai. Syukur syukur. Nampaknya cuti bersalin ibu bakal bertambah sibuk. Umar sudah tentu fokus utama, selainnya kerja-kerja perangkaan budget 2012 empat beranak dan projek renovasi rumah. Sebelum kerja renovasi rumah bermula, ibu perlu finalize perbelanjaan bulanan keluarga. Baki yang ada bakal tentukan banyak mana yang boleh diubahsuai. Lepas tu, boleh fokus kat design or layout rumah. Ayah dah bagi mandat kat ibu selaku PA berwibawa. Ayah audit saja nanti; apa yang dirancang, berapa peruntukan, cost efficiency dan impact nya. Seronok! Walk in closet satu! Heheeee boleh susun berderet uniform ayah and baju-baju messnite ibu. Eceh. Tak banyak pun. Tapi awas, dah kurus nanti ibu nak baju kurung baru. Itu motivasi. Multipurpose pulak tu. Boleh pakai ke semua majlis. Berbaloi kan? (sebenarnya kain nya dah bersusun dalam almari nenek, tinggal nak tempah). Hehe kantoi. Kalau si perajurit punya strategi pertahanan, si isteri juga perlu bijak berstrategi. Tapi strategi yang baik-baik je, JANJI.

Seronok ya, saspen pun ya. Kos masuk rumah umum tahu tidak murah. Lagi-lagi macam kami yang tinggal tidak sebumbung ni. Banyak barang yang belum ada; perabot, dapur, barangan elektrik, etc. Tapi periuk belanga usah gusar. Hadiah kahwin tiga tahun lepas masih tersusun rapi di stor nenek. Tukang masak saja belum berapa nak pandai. Tapi berdasarkan pengalaman, kalau masak dengan ikhlas dan penuh kasih sayang, ikan bilis berlada pun rasa sungguh mengancam. Insyaallah, sikit-sikit kita usahakan bersama isi perut rumah kita.

Benih pokok kelapa pandan dan pokok mangga jangan lupa. Esok ibu mengidam lagi senang, ayah petik je kat laman nun. Hehe.

Syukur, target 2011 tercapai. Harapnya urusan ubahsuai juga lancar dan dipermudahkan.

2) Blackberry

Lewat petang tadi ayah terima message dari teman di KL. Khabarnya nama ayah shortlisted untuk satu perjawatan di KL. Ayah selalu cerita pasal jawatan tu kat ibu. Kebetulan, seorang senior Kapten di unit ayah pernah pegang jawatan tu. Baik, committed dan capable orangnya. Kagum. Jawatan tersebut kebiasaannya disandang oleh pegawai-pegawai yang hebat rekod perkhidmatannya. Nervous kejap ayah dibuatnya. Normal. Bila kita dah selasa di satu tempat, pasti kupu kupu mula memenuhi perut tatkala perubahan dituntut. Yang shortlisted 2 orang pegawai. Ayah dan seorang senior bawah naungan briged yang sama, tetapi bertugas di Kuantan. Tidak kurang hebat orangnya.

Congratulations for being shortlisted yg! It is an achievement already. Punyalah ramai calon tapi hanya 2 terpilih. Macam angkasawan negara. Just do your best and enjoy the experience. Kita usaha, dapat tidak Allah tentukan rezeki. Factor pemilihan kadang luar kawalan kita. May the best officer gets the post. Bottomline, I have no doubt on you and you will always have our support. Semoga urusan dipermudahkan, ditenangkan hati dan dilapangkan fikiran ayah sepanjang tempoh percubaan. Amin.

Syukur, dua berita baik hari ini.

P/s: This calls for a celebration, ibu carik hadiah tambahan sempena shortlisted dan anniversary ketiga yang jatuh pada hari pertama tempoh percubaan itu. Oh I miss KLCC already!

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Sebelas

Hari ni Umar cukup 11 hari. Ibu rasa, first two weeks ni hectic sikit. Asyik pergi-balik hospital sebab kuning. Alhamdulillah, Umar tak apa-apa dan tak perlu admitted. Mungkin ibu yang risau lebih. Nampak semacam, walaupun orang kata sikit ibu tetap nak pergi hospital nun kat KL. Hanya confirmation from doctor mampu buat hati ibu senang. Maaf, doktor atok and doctor nenek. Tang ni, ibu degil sikit. BUT it is only for our benefits. Itu satu kisah. Lagi satu hal yang menggemparkan jadi Khamis lepas. FYI, Umar dah sunat seawal umurnya 2 hari. Mengikut kata Dr Faisal, selalunya kaedah yang dilalui Umar ambil masa 10 hingga 14 hari untuk sembuh. Tapi nak jadi cerita, hari kesembilan (tujuh hari lepas sunat), lepas mandi petang sedang ibu pakaikan baju tiba-tiba Umar menangis kuat. Ibu cek-cek tengok plastic bell tanggal and berdarah. Ibu panik! Risau kalau Umar kesakitan. Siap ibu pun menangis sekali. Ibu yakin ibu tak kasar masa handle Umar. Salah ibu ke? Malam tu jugak ibu haruk atok nenek ke emergency PCMC. Tapi malang, GP tak mampu bagi advice. Esoknya ibu ke sana semula bawa Umar jumpa Dr Faisal. Thanks Cuya, teman kami. Nanti ibu bagi upah, tapi tak semewah dulu k.

Sampai je kat consultation room, doc cek bebird Umar. "Molek." Itu saja komen doc. Syukur. Ibu tak sanggup if Umar kena go through procedure lain pulak. Doc sempat tegur Umar kuning sikit. Siap share experience kesemua lima anak-anaknya pun begitu. Ramah. Takpa, dah kurang kuningnya kan anak bujang ayah? Syukur :) Lepas ni jangan marah if ibu bedung. Since tali pusat tanggal hari kelapan and bebird pon dah sembuh hari kesembilan, ibu rasa Umar tak sakit dah if ibu ikat sikit kaki tu. Ok boy?

Anak dua orang selang setahun tapi bila sorang nangis, sorang lagi ikut sama. Sorang tak sihat, sorang lagi ikut juga. Macam kembar pulak. Si kakak Raudhah gatal-gatal badan. Kita rajin-rajin sapu ubat k.

Fuh keluar 'berjalan' saja ibu 11 hari ni. Hopefully Raudhah and Umar sihat saja lepas ni. Ibu pon tak sabar nak sihat balik. Rindu nak main dengan anak-anak :) Pergerakan masa pantang ni agak terbatas. Boring. Kalau tak boleh jugak kita visit ayah di SP. Rindu. Seriklah jauh macam ni ayah. Lepas ni Insyaallah ayah posting mana-mana ibu nak ikut. Hopefully ada rezeki kita nak duduk sama. Fikir-fikir sayang jugak nak tinggal kerja. Kos sara keluarga bakal bertambah. Kami pun baru beli rumah. Kalau ayah dapat posting KL dapat merasa duduk rumah sendiri, tanam-tanam sikit, guling-guling empat beranak di hujung minggu. Pergi kerja kita rempit naik moto sama-sama. Auwww macam bercinta you. Haha. Rindu lagi.

Oh berat badan dah turun 15kg. 25kg lagi nak achieve target. Jom ayah, kita kurus bersama. Hehe :D

Sebetulnya ibu sangat boring hari ni. For obvious reason, ayah tak balik sebab turn duty jatuh pada hari ni. Perhaps next week boleh jumpa? :)

Bebeeelll je :D

P/s: Jangan selfish Ja, kita rindu dia di sana. Dia lagi berat merindu isteri dan 2 anak di sini. Semoga kita anak beranak terus tabah. Syukur ada nikmat berkasih sayang :)

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The birth story

The Plan

Based on baby's progress discovered through the regular check-ups, doctor (again) called for early admission to the hospital. Same like my first pregnancy, doctor proposed for induction to take place at 38th week due to the size of the baby. And this year, 38th week happened to be on 11th October 2011 :) The decision was made on 29th September 2011 and admission letter was prepared for the big day. I was expected to check in a day before, Monday 10th October 2011 by 22:30H.


Knowing when to deliver is like going against the nature. Child birth is usually unpredictable, a sudden urge that brings an indescribable bundle of joy to a couple after 40 weeks (some maybe lesser) of waiting. But in my case, both were planned.

Things happen for a reason. With planned birth comes planned leaves. Alhamdulillah, the husband again managed to join me during the labour. The one which was different from the first attempt o_0 yikes!

Nampak tak botol besar kat belakang tu? Itulah air selusuh saya. Doctor sgt impressed :D
The Pain

To our surprise, I was already 3cm dilated the moment we arrived at our suite. Wow. No pain at all. So this is how natural birth works. That was at 22:30H. Induction did not take place at all. At 05:30H, another examination was done, with an opening confirmed at 5cm. Phewww~ half way to go.

Doc came later at 07:30H that morning, on 11 October 2011. Everything was ok. But baby is a little bit high from the uterus. That may delay labour. Time was still at my side. Hopefully baby will come down as the dilation progresses. I was then rushed to the labour room to undergo the procedures to get the epidural in me. Painful? A bit, yes. I was then asked to get some rest before the 'show' began. Oh the doc broke the waterbag after the procedures completed. Macam empangan pecah. Air ketubanku banyak~

09:00H the pain started to chip in. I was still at 5cm. The pain was bearable. But the question was, how come I could feel it when the epidural was already took effect? Wait, does this means that it is not working?? Glurppp* I tried to remain calm and optimist that it will be ok soon. Boy, I was wrong!

10:00H Contraction was observed at every minute. No progress, dilation was still at 5cm; still a long way to go. It was my first encounter with contractions. Never in my pregnancy that I experienced any, especially without epidural on. This is as good as natural birth. I struggled to fight the pain. Just as I was about to settle down, another contraction came to say hi. Oh my, I never felt such pain before. PAINFUL, no joke! The nurse suggested that inhaling the gas would help during the contraction. I tried. Fine, it worked but for an every-minute-contraction-situation, it made me drowsy and sleepy. So I stopped taking gas. At that point, I almost gave up. Zul was in shocked, did not know how to help and most of all terrified seing his tough-wife in pain. "Abg, doakan Ja ye", mohon restu pada suami. Air mata tak berhenti mengalir. Lemah betul hambaMu ini Ya Allah... Indescribablely painful. Macam nak kena cabut peranakan ni. The urge was too strong.

I felt helpless. Mulut ni tak putus berdoa and zikir. Doc came in to check. Everyone seemed to be worried looking at my condition. Not that I shameless-ly cried, screamed or what so ever. I was helpless, quietly fighting the pain, in tears. "Macam mana ni Fiza. You're only 5cm dilated. How can we proceed with normal delivery macam ni", said the doc as I refused to take another round of epidural as suggested. Worried big time, yes.

Not long after the doc left the room, Ms Kalai the staff nurse rushed to my bed and said, "Pn, ambil la epidural sekali lagi. Sempat ni Pn...." I was touched with her concern. My worry was on the contractions, which was then observed at every half a minute! Again, I was only 5cm dilated and I foresee if I did not undergo the second procedures, I will run out of energy by the time labour sets in and operation might be the best option. Oh no as best possible I will not opt for operation. So I agreed with her suggestion. And Alhamdulillah, no contraction was felt during the procedure.

The second procedure was done by another anesthetist, the one who helped me during my first delivery. I would say that he is faster and efficient in doing his job. I can feel the painkiller in my nerves immediately as he finished. Alhamdulillah the second procedure was a success. At 12:00H pain was hardly felt and I was able to recharge before the 'battle'. "Umar turun ye..." sambil usap perut, itu je doa ibu at that time. Dah habis air mata lawan sakit tadi. I settled down, and told mama how painful it was when she came into the room. Mulia sungguh hati seorang ibu. Belum makan, tapi insist nak jenguk anaknya yang satu ni. Mama nampak sedih, tengok aku in that condition. Insafnya.."Nanti Ja sakit nak beranak ma keluar eh. Ja tak nak ma tengok Ja sakit". Mama angguk je.

Doc came in again. "Good decision, she said" It was closed to 13:00H. "You're ready for labour". Baby's head was so close to the entrance. Alhamdulillah, Umar dengar doa ibu. I looked at Zul and smiled. Everything happened so fast. Ms Kalai guided me on how to push. "ok, macam tu Pn. Kita cuba lagi sekali ya". Ada main cuba-cuba pulak hehe. Reason being, usually while on epidural people tend to feel numb and do not feel the urge to push. Alhamdulillah not in my case.

After the first push, baby's head was already out. Doc siap pause kejap, suruh ayah ambil gambar. Bila tengok balik, serammmmm. Second push, baby popped out. 13:03H Umar Faruqi bin Zulfadhli was born safely into this world. The 'party' did not stop there. Everyone was amazed with the size of Umar. "Cuba teka berapa kilo??", the doc raised the question. There were 3 staff nurse together in the labour room. And there were 4 answers. I just smiled seing the joy. If I recalled correctly, the highest answer was 4.13kg. Not long after that Ms Kalai's voice conquered the room, " Doctor, 4.6kg!!" I joined them in laugh and cheer. Alhamdulillah! Surprisingly, the 'damage' was mild compared to my first delivery. Very very mild. Syukur, semuanya dipermudahkan.

The connection...mother & son

The Name

Zul was the one who proposed the name of our son. At first, Zul suggested that we name our son as Umar Abdul Aziz, after the name of one of the khalifahs. Yes, I understand his intention. However, I wish it could be shorter. So we kept Umar as the first name, followed with Faruqi. Which means, khalifah pembeza antara yang benar dan yang batil. Zul's father raised that the meaning is a little bit too strong. Zul and I on the other hand had our reason. Hopefully, in a situation to decide, to choose between right and wrong, Umar will make a good choice and judgement based on his knowledge and the religion's perspective, atleast for himself. Itu harapan ayah dan ibu buat Umar. Insyaallah...

The Praise

Syukur padaMu Ya Allah, dipermudahkan urusan kelahiran, dipinjamkan kekuatan.

I could never have done it without the help and doa from family and friends, thank you.

Zulfadhli Ismail, I love you so much :) Thank you for being by my side throughout the process. Alhamdulillah, anak kita dah dua yang! :)

Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah...

Some of the baby gifts received. Hilang sikit rasa sakit! Thank you! :D

P/s: buat masa ni, sy serik. Next in 4 years time ok tak? Rest dulu :)

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11.10.11

Alhamdulillah...now, its FOUR instead three of us :)
Umar Faruqi bin Zulfadhli has safely arrived.

Thank you for the doa and wishes. We are blessed to have great people as friends :)

Blessed

My day began with a presentation on tender plan for technical manpower at 9-ish am. Fuh! I was caught off guard when the procurement executive said, "Jaja, you present la" only as we were about to enter the meeting room. Haha bertuah betul. Kalau sound awal-awal kan senang. Hari baru nak mula, tak payah la banyak songeh kan. Besides, I have presented to MD/CEO before. What could have been worse? Hehe GM yang chair meeting pagi tadi pon kenal muka 'Executive sorang ni' yang kena tembak depan Management tempoh hari. Selamba :D *I love my job*

Post meeting, amendment to the paper is required as we are meeting the Executive Vice President tomorrow afternoon. Hopefully all is going to be ok. MD/CEO pon ikut. Hehe tengoklah muka 'Executive sorang ni' lagi :D

Started agressive in the morning, the later part of my day was full of surprises. Looks like UFZ is already loved by many. Dapat 2 lagi hadiah hari ni. One from my new boss and another one from Shaz, a sister I never had. Thank you so much. I am flattered!



As today is the last working day of the week for counterparts at Kertih, I took the opportunity to send an email to the whole fraternity before leaving for maternity. Will be on MC beginning Monday. The response from them? I am touched. Masih ramai yang sayang :)

Alhamdulillah, what a balanced day.

It is going to be a long day tomorrow. Hopefully I will be able to keep up with my checklist.

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Penyabar, yeke?

One of the support staff raised her opinion about me today, "Jaja ni penyabar betul. Kalau akak tu, mesti anak dah kene cubit..." she was referring to RAZ's 'project-X' (refer the entry on Little Mechanic )

Itu baru satu. Combat girl ayah ni dah pandai macam-macam lately. But come to think about it, yes I rarely scold her for the things she did. Penyabar? Ibu-ibu lain pon sama je kot :)

As a working mother, I feel guilty for not being able to give all the attention in the world to my girl. Most of my time is spent at work. Keluar seawal 6.15pg, sampai di rumah semula paling awal jam 6.45ptg. Balik usually dah penat. Tapi, urusan tak habis di situ. Malam masuk shift motherhood pulak. Basuh feeding bottles, pack bag anak, kissing, cuddling and catching up with the little one. The time to 'spoil' RAZ for the 'opportunity lost' to something essential for a living, called WORK. Siang ibu kerja, malam ibu layan awak k. Tidur lambat, nak tgk dvd, scribbling conteng-conteng kertas, panjat kerusi, campak baling mainan semua ibu ikutkan. Tapi bukan ikut-ikut kosong. Kalau tak betul kena tegur tapi bukan dengan kaedah pukul. Oh memang tuntut kesabaran yang tinggi. But I believe that at this age, kids are in the exploring stage. Scolding or screaming at them will only shut off the skills to imagine and explore. So I choose to smile rather than screaming at her.

Danger. Potential emotional hazard.









Ibu loves you so much dear RAZ! :)

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Cloth Diaper

Tinggal harapan. Pernah pasang niat untuk berjimat dengan penggunaan cloth diaper untuk anak-anak. Selesa, mesra alam dan mesra 'poket'. Namun, harapan tidak tercapai. Opah (panggilan untuk pengasuh RAZ) , tidak menyokong hasrat ibu. Disposable diaper lebih mudah dan serasi dengannya. Akur.

Comel sungguh design-design CD di pasaran. Anak-anak turut sekali nampak comel :)

Satu-satunya CD kepunyaan RAZ. Sukanya ibu :)


Tempoh hari, seorang teman pejabat yang baik hati sampaikan hadiah buat UFZ in advance. Syukur ibu punya teman-teman yang pemurah. Persoalannya, what is the arrangement going to be, Ja? Mungkin boleh digayakan pada hujung minggu atau malam hari. Now that I have 8 of them :)

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9/12

September has come to an end. Oh my, how time flies. In couple of days I will be in labour already, Insyaallah. I am so fortunate to have supportive people around me throughout the pregnancy. Baba and mama helped a lot in giving an undivided attention and love to RAZ, especially at this very moment; where limitations deny the will. I owe BaMa so much, sanggup tido lewat teman cucu bermain. Padahal the next day masing2 nak bangun awal to get ready for work. You're the best, BaMa!

On the other hand, the in-laws also contributed in many ways. I have been told by my husband that the air selusuh for my near-labour-consumption is ready. Thank you ayah&mak for the doa.

Also, the backbone behind my motivation and strength, my hope and reason to be thankful for what I have...dearest Zulfadhli Ismail. I am plain zero without you. Thank you for the love and care :) Two hearts together, one love forever. Cant stop loving you hunny! Nak gi honeymoon la yg...hehe

Being a mother of one has changed my perspective about life. Subhanallah, besar nikmatMu. The feeling is just indescribable. RAZ completes us. Now its all about the young one(s). Apa2 pon pikir pasal anak2 dulu. Yes, at times it is tiring to juggle between work and motherhood. But irony, it is fun! Insyaallah lepas ni ayah and adik will join us in our very own home. Semoga Allah permudahkan urusan kita sekeluarga :)



The most hectic 3-month of the year has come to an end. Alhamdulillah. As much as I love my current function, I think its time to move to another portfolio. Now I have to concentrate on the job hand-over process before leaving for maternity. Hang in there adik. Honestly, ibu cant wait to meet you, boy.

Ya Allah, permudahkan urusan kami. Berkatilah usaha kami. Mudah-mudahan hari-hari kami sentiasa dibawah lindungan dan petunjukMu. Amin.

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Am at the medical centre for MGTT test. Took the opportunity to take time-off from work since office is quite empty today. Most of us are involved with the conference at Putrajaya and the meeting with the Union. Perfect, I love quiet office :)

Hmm I gained another 5kg since last check up. That accumulates to 37kg to date. Will I meet the KPI in two weeks time? My limit is 40kg, can I control my weight gain to 3kg only by next check up? We'll see :)

Adik weight is estimated at 3.75kg. This may vary by 500g, between the range of 3.25 to 3.75kg. Hope all is well inside, UFZ. You have not engaged and ready for labour just yet. Hang in there, give ibu 2 weeks ok. Job hand-over is in progress.

Come this weekend, 2 weeks ayah tak balik. Take care dear. We miss you :)

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Little mechanic

This is what the ex-CO would lable as 'anak mechanical engineering'. Off all the toys ibu and ayah bought for you, this kind of activity excites you more ye Raudhah? You and ayah would make a good team! Makin besar, makin nampak that your traits are keen toward ayah's. Ok, atleast taklah malas baca buku 'trick-full' macam ibu ;p

Well, does this qualify for a new laptop for ibu, ayah?

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Feeling lucky

Happy 19 months RAZ! Alhamdulillah, may you grow with good health, endless happiness and filled with love by people around you. Insyaallah. Ibu is so proud of her good girl! :)
Lucky = for having a daughter like you :)

Yesterday, the pelvic pressure striked again. It was crampy, or similar to menstrual cramps experienced by some ladies. This time, I had difficulty to even move my legs. And leaning on right or left side of the body is just not possible as it will only increases the pressure at 'down under'. Oh my, I did not experience such strong pressure during my 1st pregnancy. So, I got panic for a while, to the extent that I got up from bed, get my lumix's battery charged and memory card empty ;p But I knew labour just won't take place last nite; there was no contraction. Just strong pressure. Well, there goes my beautiful sleep :D Optimist, baby is coming soon, sleepless nights may make a come-back.

I went to work today feeling terrible. My steps were just too slow to 'compliment' the pain. Oh, but I managed to get myself a chocolate-strawberry waffle for breakfast, yummy! Thought of dropping by the hospital for a quick check. But the doc said its normal. So lets just hang in there ok ibu.
Lucky = to have some time to do work-handover

Today, the company hosted its annual Raya celebration. This year, it was held at the Corus Hotel, very near to KLCC. At a very last minute, I decided to go to the event. Left office at 3pm with a pregnant-friend, with a mission to enjoy good food :D Well food was ok. Bonus, I won the lucky draw. Dapat rice cooker Elba. Macam tau2 je nak masuk rumah nnt :) and our department got the consolation prize for kad raya design contest. Ok la. As always, the doorgift is interesting. Toiletries bag suitable for traveling purposes. Yeay!
Lucky = rice cooker for ibu + toiletries bag for ayah

I feel so lucky today, Alhamdulillah.

Ayah kate ibu cun in the picture below. Hehe si gembol naik kembang! ;p

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:)

Rindunyeeeee

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You, weekend and I

10.09.11, both ibu and RAZ had our checkup at PCMC. Alhamdulillah, ayah was able to come home and accompany his girls. I just could not imagine chasing RAZ around the Woman & Child department alone without Zul's assistance. She enjoys her trip to the medical centre. Running here and there, make friend with older kids, invading the play room, are among the must do and expected of her. Well, at this moment ibu is torn between chasing RAZ and managing the 'havoc' UFZ is making inside. Thank you for being around, dear husband :) My heart melts whenever I see the father-daughter bond. An evidence of how distance just make love grow stronger. Ayah balik once a while tp anak still recognize. Syukur.






WEEK 33
I gained another 5kg, accumulated to 32kg to date ;D I give myself another 8kg max. Let's not exceed the baseline weight ok ibu.

UFZ made a tremendous progress. 'Fiza, baby is big'. The same statement from the same doc back then, when I was pregnant with RAZ. Usually the development is at most 2 weeks ahead. Surprisingly, since last checkup 3 weeks back, UFZ is now 4 weeks ahead of his 'age'. I was supposed to be in my 33rd week when the reading in the screen shows 37! Oh my, ibu byk makan planta kot adik? Baby weight was estimated at 3.2kg. Hmm I did not know how to react. If I compare the progress with RAZ's record, her weight at 34th week was 2.8kg. RAZ was born at 38th week weighing 4kg. So whats next? Since baby has not engaged and has not reached his full term, doc suggested that ibu come again in 3 weeks for next assessment. The decision will be made then. Let's pray for the best. Insyaallah, dgn izinNya.





A beautiful weekend with my favourite company; my bestfriends, my love...my ZI, RAZ and UFZ :) besar nikmatMu, Alhamdulillah.

Hmm kaki dah bengkak. Teruk kan?

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Revenge

These two days have been stressful. It is the time of the year; the annual budget review for financial year 2012. This is my second year leading the budget team of HR division. The budget review started yesterday and having the portfolio closest to one's heart, HR was given the limelight to present first before the other business core divisions. Great. And in the absence of my immediate superior, the GM entrusted me to deliver the presentation. Wait, the management committee members were there and the MD/CEO chaired the meeting. Wow.

Manpower cost and operating expenditure budget are expected to increase in next FY. Frankly, my superior and I have predicted that the alarming cost will attract much concern. True enough, to the extent that at one point the MD/CEO said 'I am not comfortable to present this to the Board. I am not going in. You present this to the Board, Jaja'. *Glurppp* How would you feel if you were in my shoes? Suddenly the huge body felt sooo tiny, almost invisible infront of the bosses of the company. So we had to re-present the budget this morning.

Being a subsidiary company, there are costs that are cascaded by the mother company for the initiatives conducted for the groupwide. It is like a 'given' instruction. So we had to budget for the expenses whether we like it or not. And for having to be questioned over something beyond my control, it was the most depressing 60minutes of my life!

Went back to my workstation and summarized everything in 2 slides to address the concern raised during the meeting.

14.09.2011 is my victory day. 'This is clearer. Kalau u present macam ni semalam kan senang Jaja..' I just nodded and smiled. Hey, the previous slides were presented to my manager and GM way way before the budget review. So the lesson is not solely mine to digest :P I guess it is better for the MD/CEO to nag me rather than my manager or GM. If not, diorang lagi malu. Atleast I am just a 4-year-experienced executive. Telan je la labu.

The presentation last for only 5 minutes. Not long after leaving the meeting room, I received an sms from the Finance Executive. 'Jaja, can u email the softcopy of ur waterfall chart. MD/CEO wants every division to follow HR's slides :)'

I got my revenge. Senyum sampai telinga! At the end of the day, the hardwork paid off. I think I should frame the waterfall chart, the victory. What say u? Haha

One thing for sure, I understand it is not easy to assume an MD/CEO position. As much as how depressing it was during the first day, I tried to remain optimist about the challenge. Sengih je, apa susah ;p

Alhamdulillah :)

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Merah

Coincidence...tiga beranak berbaju merah malam ni. Rumah sukan ibu back then, masa mula-mula in relationship with ayah :) ibu merah (Zuhal) while ayah kuning (Musytari). Merah kuning=Selangor=hometown kami. Teringat kenangan di sekolah. During one of the afternoon prep sessions, ibu pakai bj sukan rumah kuning sbb bj ibu basuh. So pinjam kawan punye. Bile sampai kelas tgk ayah pulak pakai bj sukan rumah merah...ehh???? Hehe senyum malu-malu dibuatnya. Memories pull the tie stronger. Once a while kene refresh the memories so that rs sayang semakin kuat. Tambah lg dah nak masuk 2 org anak kan? :) mudah-mudahan kasih sayang ini terus jd milik kita.




From my observation, whenever husband is home, during bedtime our girl always has the tendancy to be closer to her ayah. Even if ayah switch side with ibu, she knows where to head for her ayah. Ayah ada bau ke? Nonetheless, seing them together is such a wonderful sight. Sejuk hati ibu :) alhamdulillah..

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33

Huge isnt it? Hehe ibu yg membesar lebih ni ;p cant wait for the next checkup this Saturday. Hope ur doing well inside there UFZ :) Insyaallah...



A snapshot of UFZ at his 25th week. Ada rupa RAZ. Syukur alhamdulillah :)

Ramai kata RAZ mcm ayah. Agaknya UFZ ikut siapa ye :)

Semoga urusan kelahiran anak ini dipermudahkan dan baik kesudahannya. Amin...

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Nightale

Oh what a night. Tired. Exhausted. On top of all, trying to maintain the composure despite the challenges faced. Hey, this is life :)

Asthma strikes again. Weezing chest, difficult to breathe. Poor baba. We brought him to Sg Buloh hospital for treatment. Reached there around 10pm. The crowd was quite big. Luckily asthma patient gets the priority. No queue, straight to the specific room for asthma treatment. Alhamdulillah everything was ok. We arrived home around 12.30am. Yes, this 100kilo pregnant lady is exhausted. Nonetheless, a daughter has to do what a daughter has to do. Especially for the one-of-a-kind father. Syukur, he felt better...much better.

Adding on to that, my patience was again tested as I was about to go to sleep. My love Raudhah Amani suddenly throwed up on the bed. Oh noooo. This only means that a little bit more 'work' is required before calling the night off. Sheeesh. Angry? Amazingly, not! So there goes the cleaning work before bedtime.

Boleh ke nak marah? Comel je muka tu :)

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Kumohon

Every cloud has a silver lining. Setiap perbuatan yang baik, ada ganjaran yang menanti.

Ya Allah andai layak ganjaran itu buatku, doaku agar Kau kurniakan yang terbaik untuk suami dan anak-anakku; kesihatan yang baik, ketenangan hati dan kesempatan untuk terus berada di landas yang benar. Amin.. :)

Love is all I have for you, sayangs.

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